Photo Collection from my Sony Phone

NOTE : I have scheduled this post on the 31/12/2009 but I posted these photo on 15/6/2012, 2:58pm in actual. 

I want to include all these special memories into the Blog Book that I am going to send for printing in a short while. :P

While selecting photos from these pictures, it brings back so much good memories. Gosh... My Baby now is already in Nursery. ~ 15/6/2012.

A Late Night Out for Avatar

After so long, finally I told myself that it is time for me to get some freedom and catch a nice movie. Of course, Baby Chloe is not restricting my freedom, I was the one who worried too much. My mum and my maid are absolutely capable of taking care of Baby Chloe in the night without me.

Well, nothing much to say about Avatar. A good movie with good graphics and very very good imagination. Storyline is nothing to shout about – quite similar to Pocahontas.

Last night was a good night. A good movie, A good relax, A good present from Papa (THANK YOU!), A goodnight sleep for Baby Chloe, A good night for Mama too. :P

BYE BYE 2009!!!

Growing fast!!!

I have just read an article about spending more with our children as they are growing fast and before you know it, they will be building their own nest, leaving you etc etc.

I am not particularly worried about my child leaving us, because I know Papa & Mama will be Baby Chloe’s parent forever and ever. This is a fact that undeniable. But, I totally agree with spending more time with them.

Baby Chloe is growing every day. She is picking up more and more vocabulary and emotion expression from our everyday life. She is able to say “Apple” now (BUT NOT MAMA YET!)!!

She is imitating every single action that she can pick up from everyone of us in the family. She is so cute! Last night, she picked up the Elmo and started patting the Elmo backs and said “ ahh…” – She was trying to put the Elmo to sleep with some warm patting & soft singing. LOVE YOU SO SO MUCHIE! :P

Planned Meals

I wanted to do a plan for Baby Chloe’s everyday meals since long time ago, but I was delaying (:P because I was lazy). But due of ONE stupid food poisoning incident, and I had made up my mind that it is a MUST for me to do something about it. I used to think Baby Chloe should expose to a variety of food (I am still) and should be able to eat anywhere, any food that is available. But after the food poisoning incident and all these news about “unapproved contents” in those canned food, pesticides etc etc etc.. It is making me real worried. Further to that, I have heard too many disease around. I am not too sure whether what I am doing now will guarantee her the best of health but I told myself at least I am trying my best.

I have been carried out this Meal Plan since 2 weeks ago, and this is the third week. I would like to share it out and hopefully anyone who read my blog can also make some suggestion if something is wrong as I have not really read anything about planning meals for my Baby. Please advise if you can. Thanks Thank! :P

MEAL PLAN

Breakfast

1. 6oz. Milk
2. 1 bowl of Organic 3 fruits cereal (4 teaspoon with 180ml of water/milk)
3. 1 Slice of fruit/ 1 Slice of Bread/ 1 Homemade Bun

Lunch

1. Porridge
2. fruit/ steam veggie/ Juice
3. 6oz. Milk

Dinner

1. 6oz. Milk
2. Porridge
3. Yogurt/ fruit
4. 6oz. Milk (Before Sleep)

Porridge Choices (No Salt, either cook plain/ with ikan billis (once a week)/ with Lean Pork(Once a week).

1. Spinach
2. Pumpkin
3. ABC (Carrot, Corn, Potato)
4. Tomato Only
5. Sweet Potato
6. Cauliflower
7. Broccoli
8. Potato Only
9. Carrot Only
10. Pork Only

Fruits/ Veggie

1. Kiwi
2. Orange
3. Apple
4. Green Guava
5. Banana
6. Avocado
7. Sweet Potato
8. Pumpkin
9. Persimmon

Juices

1. Apple & Carrot
2. Orange

Yogurt

1. Yoplait Baby Yogurt Vanilla/ Banana/ Peach

Bread/Bun

1. Homemade Steam Bun
2. Homemade Bread
3. *** I am trying not to let her eat too much of Gardenia or High Five (These bread loaf can last you a week or more and no mold found, so I can imagine the preservatives used.)

Snacks

1. Usually fruits or steamed veggie
2. Baby biscuits/ cream wafer occasionally (It’s a Japanese brand but I forgot the brand :P – can get it at Isetan) – taste nice too.

This is so far I have done. I am just repeating these for these 3 weeks. If anyone feels that there is an imbalance of nutrient or there is something that I should also introduce to my baby, it would be very nice of you to advise me to improve it. :P

** This is a guide for myself only, Baby Chloe does not necessarily complete the whole of the meal plan list especially Saturday & Sunday when we bring her out. If it is available, those fruits/steamed veggie/ Juice in the afternoon, I will replace it with Baby Biscuit or None at all. :P

It’s Gymboree Day!

Wow! I didn’t realise Baby Chloe enjoys Gymboree Play Class so much. I am feeling really really bad that I have missed so many of her class previously. Sorry, Darling!!

As usual, we always missed the class @2pm. We were having lunch with my family at Kampachi and we could not make it. I thought since we cannot make it @2pm, why not go to the one @4.45pm. So, we went!

When we arrived Gymboree, the music was already playing and all the other babies were already there ready for the class. The moment Baby Chloe joined the circle of babies, she happily stood up and moved her hands along with the “Gymboree song”.

It was a regret that I didn’t bring my camera and Papa never bring his VideoCamera. Sob Sob Sob. What a waste.

Baby Chloe was so adorable yesterday in the class, she did a few things that surprised both of us and made us really happy too :-

(1) Tunnel : She never likes crawling through the tunnel for some reasons. Yesterday, she kept looking for a tunnel and cross from Point A to Point B, then Point B back to Point A. She repeated it so many times until we told her “STOP, Let’s play with other setups!” Wow….

(2) Friends : She never really go to other babies and start interacting. Maybe she was too young to do so. But this time round, she went to the middle of the circle, and start making friends by poking (I hope she did it SOFTLY) other babies’ nose (We taught her “Nose” by pointing at her nose all the times, I guess that’s how she picked it up!). She was acting a little naughty tapping Baby Marissa’s head. I was shocked and quickly stopped her from doing so. *Phew* Luckily Baby Marissa did not cry :P I didn’t scold Baby Chloe because I think she didn’t know it was a naughty act. I think she was just trying to play “aiya” with her friends (She picked it up from her Papa. Whenever her Papa said Aiya pain here and pain there with his hand on his head, Baby Chloe just loves it and starts laughing at his Papa. – So, “Aiya” is associated to Fun and tapping Head) But I told Baby Chloe, “ NO, You will hurt your friend. Don’t do it anymore”  I hope she understands what I said to her.

(3) Instructor : She was always very scared of strangers and never want to let strangers hold her (even her grandparents even though they are not stranger!!!). At the end of the class, Baby Chloe suddenly walked towards the instructor and lifted her hands up asking for a “carry”. OMG. We were both looking at each other with a “huh” look. Then, the instructor picked her up and did the “heap heap horray” lift (I suppose to do it and the instructor suppose to demo it with the Gymbo Clown Soft-toy). After the class ended, we let Baby Chloe walked around and she followed the instructor and said “bubbles” (Ya, she is able to pronounced “bubbles” very well, and she LOVES bubbles). Haha…she knows where to get bubbles, and the instructor happily blew out some bubbles to satisfy a little one’s request. Wow…My girl starts to request for “things”, and she knows whom she should approach.

It was indeed a WONDERFUL Gymboree Day!

Baking Time - Potato Bread

Unfortunately, I didn't manage to take a picture of my end products. It looks fairly good, NOT UGLY at all. Hehehe

Let me recall the ingredient & Procedure

Ingredient :-
For the Dough
1. 300gram Flour
2. 40gram Sugar
3. 180ml Cold Milk
4. 25grams of Butter
5. 1/2 tsp Salt
6. 4gram Yeast
7. 60grams Raisin
8. 100gram Mash Potatoes

For the Custard
1. 100gram of INSTANT Custard Powder
2. 250ml Water
3. 1 egg to brush on the dough

Procedure :-
1. Mix the Yeast, Flour, Sugar, Salt & Mashed Pototoes
2. Pour in the cold milk slow and mix until it forms a Dough
3. Mix the Butter until the Dought become smooth, then add in the Raisin
4. Proof the Dough for 50mins until it doubles its size
5. Split the dough into a bun weight around 50gram each.
6. Proof these little buns for another 50mins until they double their size.
7. Brush the bun with eggs
8. Mix 250ml water with INSTANT Custard Powder until it is thicken
9. Squeeze the Custard Mixture on top of the Bun
10. Place the buns into the Preheat Oven @ 180deg C
11. Bake for 25 mins
12. Cool them at the wire rack
13. EAT!

Lesson :
(1) I was greedy, i used more than 100gram of Mashed potato, perhaps it was the reason which hardened the bun a little.
(2) I failed the Custard Part. I am not sure whether the recipe is wrong or my Custard Power is not INSTANT (yet to find out the difference).
(3) Overall Yummy, easy to make but not soft enough.
WILL TRY AGAIN.

A little Respects & Understandings make a HAPPY FAMILY.

Scenario 1:

Baby Chloe has the tendency of Night Terror every now and then. We have consulted our pediatrician, and he said there is nothing much that we can do about it but try not to make her excited after 6pm (which is quite difficult because Baby Chloe is a person who needs 100% entertainment & attention, otherwise she will starts to do all funny things to make sure your attention is with her.)

So, usually in the night, whenever Baby Chloe cries, Mama will be in-charged, because Baby Chloe doesn’t want anyone else. I can’t be energetic every night! There are times that I need Papa to help and try to handle Baby Chloe on his own. When I was not around, he managed to do it because he had not choice. But, whenever I around, he tried a while but Baby Chloe still cried aloud, and he couldn’t take it any longer and passed her back to me and said : “She doesn’t want me, You have to take care of her. Sorry, I can’t help!” At times, Mama complained because I WAS TIRED (& grouchy). Well, everyone does once in a while when lack of sleep occurs. My respond from Papa was :” YOU DID SOMETHING WRONG, THAT’S WHY BABY CHLOE PUNISH YOU!” Try to work your brain a little and a little sensitivity, WE ALL KNOW this is not a solution to calm a Baby and a TIRED MOTHER. So, I have to end up crying, while Papa sits on the bed looking at me cry with Baby Chloe.

Scenario 2 :

Mama really wants to make a trip to Singapore to pay a visit to my God-sister & friends. Plus, I would like to have a very first Holiday Trip with Baby Chloe (& I thought Singapore is just nice as we can stay at my brother’s place). Papa was nice enough to approve Baby Chloe’s Passport, but he didn’t approve the trip to Singapore this weekend. 

His reasons:

1. My brother’s place a little dusty, not suitable for Baby Chloe’s nose.
2. Where can Baby Chloe sleeps?
3. How can a baby handle a 4-hour drive?
4. Baby Chloe doesn’t know anything even if we bring her there.
5. There is nothing interesting there.

In fact, his excuses will be endless if he doesn’t feel like it.

I respect him as my husband & Baby Chloe’s father, that’s why I ASK PERMISSION from him. But I feel I am not getting to same respect from him.

I AM SO SAD! WHAT TO DO? !!!

Baby Chloe is my “Cloud Nine”

Mama was home late last night because of work. Mama didn’t go home straight but asked Papa to join Mama for a Hokkien Fried Noodle behind Tawakal Hospital. Had a very stressful & emotional day at work; so I thought I should eat out to release myself.

Went for a shower immediately I arrived home; so that I can take over Baby Chloe from my maid. The moment I came from shower, I saw Baby Chloe cheerful walking towards my maid (*yeah, not me!). They were playing “Walking”. Baby Chloe walked to Novi and clapped her hands praising herself for completing the distance of approx 1M. Hahaha… so cute.

Then Novi pointed & read out loud the word “ICE-CREAM” from the Alphabet Book, and surprisingly Baby Chloe repeated after Novi by saying out loud “I-Ji”. Well, the pronunciation was out but everyone knew very well she was trying to repeat “ICE-CREAM”. God Job!! Everyone at home had a great laugh.

Last night, Baby Chloe was particularly cheery; making Mama totally forgot the hectic day at work. Same as the usual “sleeping rituals”, light turned off, soft music on, bean bags on her chest while Baby Chloe was drinking milk. After she finished her milk, she normally “threw” the bottle to me and flipped herself left and right. Last night, she was exceptionally cheery that she gave me a big smile when she passed me the bottle. Then, she got herself up from her sleeping position and crawled towards me. She positioned herself on top of my body with her legs opened squeezing my waistline while I was lying down on my bed. Suddenly, she placed her both hands grabbing my arms while her head laid on my chest. THEN, a big smile towards me with her pacifier on her mouth. So sweet, my heart was totally melted, the state of cloud nine is not something that I can describe here in words.

Love you, Baby Chloe. (** Even though, you refuse to call me “ MAMA “ ** ) :P

Baking Time – Banana Cake

Mama wants to learn how to bake after seeing her friends baking many different PRETTY & YUMMY cakes & cookies.

This is not my first attempt of baking. I have been baking for a while but mostly turned out ugly (** but edible). I have decided to blog my Baking Learning Process too. So that I can look back and learn from mistake. At the same time, Professional Bakers (** You know who you are) can advise me where I did go wrong too.

Ingredient :-

• 250gram – Unsalted Butter
• 200gram – Castor Sugar
• 225gram – All Purpose Flour
• 200gram – Mashed Banana (Pisang Emas)
• 2tsp – Vanilla Essence
• 5 eggs
• 1tsp – Baking Powder

Procedure :

1. Preheat the Oven @ 150 deg C
2. Grease 10” Round Baking Pan with butter
3. Beat the Unsalted Butter and Castor Sugar until fluffy
4. Add in eggs one by one, then add the Vanilla Essence
5. Fold in the sifted flour, baking powder.
6. Fold in the Mashed Banana.
7. Pour the batter into the greased Baking Pan
8. Bake for 45 Minutes @ 150 Deg C

What have I learned :-

1. My cake was always fall in the middle part. I realized that they were mostly underbaked. So, I make sure my cake is completely baked evenly by inserting a toothpick into the cake and pull it out. If the toothpick is clean means it’s READY.
2. My cake were always underbaked because the top of my cake were mostly burnt! So, this time round, I put a piece a foil after 20mins of baking on top of the cake to prevent from burning.
3. This is recipe from a cookbook. I personally feel it is too much butter for me. I might want to reduce the butter to 200grams, reduce the sugar to 150grams, increase the Mashed Banana to 250gram or more and add in Banana Essence instead of Vanilla Essence.

Will try again and blog the outcome later.

Playtime @ HOME

We have missed out many Playclasses @ Gymboree because Mama was sick at the 1st week, Baby Chloe’s Birthday Party at the 2nd week, and Baby Chloe was sick at the 3rd Week (Not exactly sick but has not recovered from flu, in order to make sure she can recover faster, we have decided to skip class and rest at home).

So, Papa suggested to have a PLAYCLASS @ home instead. We didn’t actually go through the Gymboree’s routine, but we picked up the fun part of it which is the “Bubbles Times”!!!

Papa made bubbles, Mama carried Baby Chloe kicked those Bubbles in the air; while AH GU (Uncle Andrew) took down a few of the fun time shots. (Thank you, Ah Gu!)

Angry with Papa! Hmpf!!!

Papa said wants to take half day off today and bring Mama to watch 2012. Papa called Mama a few times and informed Mama the Schedule, and I told Papa to go ahead to book and pick me up.

After a while, Papa just said, “Hiyoh, so tedious. Dunno why cannot work!” Papa is not a technology person and definitely not a person with tiny bits of patient. At the end of the day he decided to call it off.

Before he made himself free for the day, he called Mama again. Papa said “ So, you don’t want to watch movie right ?Then I proceed to do MY OWN THING.” I was like scratching my head until all my hair drops! HELLO?? I was ALL READY since the beginning that I am going off for a lovely DATE with Papa and ended up I was blamed for not being AVAILABLE to go Movie with him, and he was FORCED to go do his own thing ALONE. OMG!

LOUSY PAPA. ArggghhhhhhH!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy 1st Birthday, Darling Chloe

Baby Chloe woke up at 9am and we dressed her up at 11.00am. Receiving wishes (aka Ang Pows) from Grandma (PorPor) before departing to the Party.

Baby Chloe’s 1st Birthday Party was held at Bijou Restaurant, Mont Kiara on the 22nd November 2009, Sunday, 12noon.

This Beautiful 2-Tier Jelly Cake was specially ordered by Papa for Baby Chloe’s 1st Birthday.

Papa, Mama & Baby Chloe would like to thank all aunties and uncles for being there for the celebration of Baby Chloe’s 1st Birthday; making the party very lively and full of laughter.

Pray for Hugo

I want to make a special Prayer for my two years old nephew, Hugo. The Cancer marker had cruelly revealed 90% chance of blood cancer in him. He was admitted to the Hospital for a bone marrow test to confirm the diagnosis.

He is such an adorable & active boy. I don't understand why some children is destined to go through such a difficult journey in life. They are young, adorable, pure & innocent; why and who makes their bitter destiny?

I know Hugo is a strong boy, with the full support of every single member of our family, I wish that Hugo can be recovered in no time with a easier path.

God, please give your blessing to my darling Hugo, let him be freed from illness and continue to be a happy & active child with good health.

Cousins, please be strong & healthy because Hugo needs your love & care for his recovery. May God bless all of you.

Sluggishness...

Papa was complaining a zillion times about Mama for not updating Mama's Blogging Zone. In order not to further disappoint my most loyalty blog follower, I have decided to put some effort and keep this blog updated at all times. *** The actual fact - Papa worried that Mama fails to record the full details of Baby Chloe's development.

Papa is right, Mama has been slacking & facebooking whenever there is a free time. I am going to ban myself from facebook's farmville & cafe. These games are so addictive and there are no endings for it. I knew this long time ago and kept on telling myself to stop and spend more time blogging. LoL! It can be kinda stress to blog sometimes, especially when every day life is routined and there is nothing much that I can blog about!!!! Further to that, due to the lack of reading and conversing, I have problem with putting proper words into a sentence, or using the proper vocabulary for descriptions. **Excuses, Excuses and more Excuses.**

It is true that every day is a routine but I have to agree with Papa that there are always a little different each day. For instance, last night as usual, I came back from work and immediately rushed for a shower. After a clean shower, Baby Chloe would come to me. When she was crawling towards me with an excited facial expression, she stopped right in front of me while I was sitting on the floor. Suddenly, Baby Chloe pointed at my pyjamas and said, " Dirty!" . I immediately turned my attention to where she was pointing. Oh shit, there was a stain on my pyjamas. Hehehe.... Surprise!!! Then I quickly got myself changed into a new clean set of pyjamas.

Baby Chloe is still not able to walk on her yet. She could only walk a few steps forwards in a wobbly motion and she always made sure she will fall just right for you to embrace her tightly. Sometimes, Papa would see her "evil" grin while enjoying the lovely hug from Mama. Hahaha.. She is a little "evil" cutie pie, I always find it very sweet to hear about how Baby Chloe indulges herself into Mama's "Tender Loving Care" (*In another words, she enjoys bullying me and enjoys seeing mama giving in to her request*).

But I must said she has improved her ability of words, she is able to say a few words very clearly like Mum Mum (*It means I wants to eat), BaBa (Papa lor), Ah Bbbu (Ah Gu, this is how she address my brother in my dialect), Baby, Dirty, there, Bu Bu (go for a ride) and etc. YA, I KNOW UP TILL NOW NEVER SAY "MAMA" or "MUMMY".

I heard her saying Mama a few times previously but she does not now. She really enjoys bullying me I guess.

Mama : Baby Chloe, Say Papa

Baby Chloe : Papa

Mama : Baby Chloe, Say Baby

Baby Chloe : Baby

Mama : Baby Chloe, Say Mama

Baby Chloe : Papa (Again, with her cute little evil smile)

Mama : Baby, Not Papa, I am MaMa. Say MAAAA MAAAA

Baby Chloe : PAAAA PAAAA

Yeah, this is my lovely princess! :P

Papa is complaining again!

Papa is complaining about Mama for not updating Baby Chloe's development frequently. Indeed he is right, I have been slacking a little. Perhaps I should be more lenient to myself, I was not slacking, I was just too busy with works and spending all my times bonding with my darling Chloe. Hehehe..yeah...excuses are always excuses. The truth is I was at FarmVille every night for about half an hour. For this half hour, I could have just updated my blog.

Baby Chloe is now reaching 11th month in another 4 days time, and 1 year old at another 35 days. So fast!!!!!!!! Baby Chloe has two teeth at the bottom and four at the top. Sob sob sob, I realised Baby Chloe's two front teeth at the top has a gap. Hopefully, when all her teeth comes out and they will squeeze tightly and close her front teeth gap. Not a big issue, Baby Chloe is still healthy!!!

After I gave birth to Baby Chloe, I had my belly button popping out which quite scary to some. I am adapting it already, even though I still complain on and off to papa. :P I am worried that Baby Chloe might have the same popping belly button because till now I can still see her cute belly button very clearly. I will check with the pediatrician for the next injection which due in end of this month. Not a big issue too as again Baby Chloe is very very healthy.

I have started gymboree class for Baby Chloe again, and she seems to enjoy it very much. She would clap her hand and enjoy herself by moving her both hands while the gymbo music is playing. She is slightly slow with the set-ups like climbing through the tunnels, climbing up the special designed steps, rolling the balls, sliding down the curvy slides or the flat slides etc etc.. She does not show much of the interest to perform those activities while other babies are progressing very well. It's okay, every baby has different progress, my baby is good at music while others might be good at physical activities. However, today she climbed towards to the middle of the BABY CROWD and start searching toys from the busy box (toys box). She has totally forgotten about us, and enjoyed herself with those toys. We saw her interacting with other babies (hahaha...by grabbing each other toys...). Play Gym Level 3 has more than 10 babies which is one of the biggest class I have attended so far. I like it this way, so that more opportunity of interaction.

Baby Chloe starts to watch cartoons now but only the selective one or Astro Channel 613. She loves to watch Dibo, Make ways for Noddy as she would she her excitement by making "ja ja ja" sound and move her both hands up and dance as if she was dancing with the music. I limit her tv time for half an hour per session and two session per day. The afternoon session is taken care by my maid so I could only tell her CHANNEL 613, in the evening I would have the chance to choose the one that interest her. I am not too sure whether watching tv is good for Baby Chloe or not? There is always good and bad for everything I guess. I just have to make sure the right programme is being introduced to her whenever I can. *sigh*

Baby Chloe is still learning to walk, i am sure she will be on her own really soon. However, she is quite lazy at times and she doesn't want to walk. Then she would start to cry and try to get attention to get someone to carry her. Notti girl.

Sleeping pattern is always an issue to us. So .... I don't think I want to start! :P Sigh!

Baby Chloe is 10 months and 2 weeks old

Baby Chloe is now 10 months and two weeks old. She has total of 6 teeth now, 2 at the bottom and 4 at the top. What's make me really happy is when she said "jak", she is trying to play peekaboo with Mama. Hehe...she would hide herself for 2 seconds, then tilt her head and "jak" she said to me. So Cute.

Whenever Mama said "Yeah" in a happy tone, Baby Chloe would stay to clap her hands and sometimes she would say "Yeah" too. :) Baby Chloe is able to differentiate "BYE BYE" and "CLAP HANDS" now, she used to mix them up.

Oh, She can now call "MaMa" & "PaPa", and "Mum Mum" is her favourite word. She uses it a lot, drinking time, meal time, snack time and every time too! Baby Chloe is so so so cute!

She is learning to walk without support now. Today, she managed to walk 3 steps firmly towards Mama without any support. Good Job! Also, She is able to climb from downstair living area all the way up to our room.

Papa also did a very good job by teaching her how to share when I was in Taipei. Baby Chloe would share her food with us whenever Papa says "please share" or "give Mama". Baby at this stage is learning really fast and I am really happy that I am going through every stage of her development and try my best to put it down as much as possible.

:( But, I did not star her potty training young, and I wish I had! She doesn't know how to inform or show us if she wants to ....poo poo. My friend's 2 1/2 months old baby is already able to inform by making "mm mm" sound. So clever! :)

That's about it, today. I will try to observe more and blog it for Baby Chloe. Love you, darling!

Papa is away from Home - First Night

Yeah~ Papa is now in Bangkok with his friends. He deserves a drinking holidays with his buddies, besides it is only over the weekend.

Today, I came back from Office. The first thing that I did was to comply to NUMBER ONE RULE, clean myself before in contact with Baby Chloe. After that, I brought Baby Chloe out for a walk outside our House Compound. She definitely enjoyed it, along the way, she clapped her hands many times, and made some noise while swinging her both legs when she saw some birds. Happy Little Princess. :P

I had spent the whole night playing and talking to Baby Chloe without any interruption from Television (Astro On Demand) or Internet (Facebook). Full concentration was all on Baby Chloe alone. I read the Chinese version of Ugly Duckling to her and read her an English story book "Rainy Day". Then, we played with the giraffe (a giraffe toy where Baby Chloe put the colour balls into its mouth and roll all the way down through a twisty slide. - in short - A TOY). Then, we played "standing up" & "walking". Baby Chloe is able to stand by herself without a support, but when she started to clap and she would fall on her backside happily. I think Baby Chloe knows that she is learning and improving every day, that's why she always give herself an applause after she managed to stand on her own. She could walk herself from one point to another point with the support of furniture. Bravo! Keep it up, darling.

I changed her @ 10.30pm and put her to sleep @ 10.45pm with a 4oz. milk (she had a 60z @ 9.30pm), I was surprised that she could actually dry up the 4oz bottle at 10.45pm. :P Hungry Baby! *** She has this little round tummy with her now, lol, so cute! ***

Papa, Mama had a very satisfying night with Baby Chloe. Mama miss you a lot. I don't know the reason and I don't understand it as well - that I didn't miss Papa so much when I was in Taipei, but I miss you so so much now! Have a great time in Bangkok, and we love you!

Mama is back from Taipei!!!

Mama is back from Taipei on the 23rd September, Wednesday. Had a great time touring with this group of friends, they are all very easy going and flexible too. Also had a wonderful time meeting up with some old friends in Taipei. Wow! Everyone still looks the same! Their hospitality had filled my stomach with lots of Taipei Famous Food.

Throughout the trip, I missed Baby Chloe & Hubby a lot. But to be honest, I missed Hubby the most because noone helped me carry my stuffs. :P Hehe... It was not so bad at all, I thought I would miss Baby Chloe so much so that I would cry in the night. Perhaps was the well planned itinerary, I had no time to miss her at all. Also, meeting up with these old friends in Taipei made me feel so much younger and I didn't feel like a mother at all at that time. I think because I know that Baby Chloe is in good hands, my maids had the day shift and my mum & hubby had the night shift. So, I guess they just made me feel so comfortable that I do not have to worry about Baby Chloe at all.

After I picked up the luggage, immediately I jumped into hubby's car and told him to speed :P. Haha... Once hubby parked his car into the house compound, without hesitation I quickly rushed in and called loudly "Hi Baby Chloe, Mama is Home!" When I stepped into the living room, I could hear laughter of my maids, grandma & my dad from upstairs. Then, I quickly ran up excitedly, expecting to see Baby Chloe's welcoming expression. However, I must said I was a little disappointed. I was totally ignored as she was attracted to the activities at that time. My dad was trying use his dinner to lured Baby Chloe, and she did not notice my existence even though I was loud.

I called Baby Chloe's name repeatedly until she turned to my direction. The feeling was strange. She stared at me as if she was thinking who was I, she stood on my maid's lap quietly gazing towards my direction for quite a while. I was also stern while gazing back to her. Awkward Feelings, I do not how to put these strange feelings in words. All I knew was Baby Chloe did not recognize me and she took a while to remember me. It was only a 7-day trip. After 1 minute or so, she finally remembered who I was and started to crawl towards my direction. But I must meet Papa's Number One Rule - Take a bath first (strictly no contact!). Well, I had a bad experience with the Influenza case, so I agreed to comply to his rule since it is called the NUMBER ONE RULE! I had a real quick shower because I couldn't wait any longer to hold my Baby. Phew, luckily she still crawled to me when she saw me drying my hair at the corner of my room.

However, the second day when I was back from Work. After I fulfilled the NUMBER ONE RULE, I quickly took Baby Chloe from my Maid, Novi. She was totally comfortable and happy while I was playing with her. BUT, when my other maid, Rahir passed by, Baby Chloe turned her head towards her direction. Immediately, she cried for her. I was puzzled at first when she started crying, until Rahir came over and raised her hands, Baby Chloe whole body was tilted to reach for her. I was stunned and passed Baby Chloe to Rahir reluctantly. I almost wanted to cry and was still in shock! Of course, it is not a big deal to anyone, but to me it was a lost in position. Before I went Taiwan, Baby Chloe would never go to anyone else including Rahir if she sees me. Now? The story has changed and she would ask for Rahir even I was holding her tightly, playing with her. Baby Chloe would not even allow Papa to carry her if Mama is holding her. Now, when Papa claps his hands and said "come" She would move her body towards Papa too. It was worse than a storm at that time, I was totally knocked down. When I tried to clap my hand and asked Baby Chloe to come to me, she turned her head away and hold Rahir tightly as if worried that I would take her away from Rahir. What happened? Just 7 days and Rahir had replaced me! I had the whole 10 pregnancy month plus full 9 months with Baby Chloe, in just 7 days I lost my position! I was sad (even till now) and I felt like crying. It was heartbreaking and I didn't want to stay at the scenario any longer, I moved myself to the dining hall and had my dinner with hubby.

Hubby told me " The fact that cannot be changed is that you will be always Baby Chloe's mother no matter what happened! " I know ! I know! I know! But the drastic change just made me feel depressed. I feel like a stranger to her, I don't feel like a mother to her anymore! Not that I want her to stick to me forever, and I know that somehow one day she will grow up and leave me for her dream. I just need some times to adjust and tune my brain to adapt to these changes.

It further enraged me when Baby Chloe said "Ah Pa Pa", Rahir translate it to "apa?" Rahir pointed at my CooCoo Clock and told Baby Chloe that "See, Bear (Bird)!" Arghhh...... When we told Baby Chloe Papa is Papa, Mama is Mama, she tried to confuse her by telling her" See, Pappy come back! " Or "Go to Mommy" Ya.. I know is the same. I think because I have been overthrown, everything just made me feel uneasy & Jealous! :(

MAMA is going to TAIPEI tomorrow

When I updated my status in facebook about going to TAIPEI for holiday, my brothers & friends are even more excited than I do. They started to comment at my status and envy my trip, then advised me where to shop, where to eat, where to drink..

Needless to say, I am excited about this trip which is very well planned by a friend. I know I am going to enjoy this trip with them. I am also very excited that I will be meeting up with all the old friends in Taipei this weekend. A few Taiwanese friends started to call me and offer me transport to pick me up from Airport and arrange the dinner on the coming Saturday. I can't wait to play with my new investment - Wide Angle Lens & Prime Lens. However, I must say these lenses are kinda burden to me as they are heavy, big, extra care needed. *sigh* Because of the heavy lenses, I have also decided to pack my tripod along. Yeah, I know. I am greedy! Too many purposes for a trip - Photography, Rest & Holiday, Meeting up Old friends, Shopping, Eats & Drinks. Infact, after listing my purposes, I am not that greedy afterall. A  good trip constitute all of these purposes! Right?

CHECK LIST

- Passport  -- checked

- $$$ -- checked

- Mobile Phone -- checked

- Charger -- checked

- Canon 400D & Lenses -- checked

- Charger -- checked

- Clothes -- checked

- Umbrella -- checked

- International Adapter -- checked

- Toiletries -- checked

- Skinny Bitch (A Book) -- checked

- Tripod -- checked

- Extra Bag -- checked

- Chloe Chan -- OMG, I can't pack Baby into my luggage. I will suffocate her if I packed her in. How How How? I miss my Baby so much already. I am feeling hundreds of excitements but I miss her a thousand, a million, a zillion times. Miss Miss Miss so much!! 

Will I cry tomorrow?? I must go now, spend as much time as possible with Baby Chloe even when she is sleeping. TAIPEI, I am coming!

Seperation Anxiety

5 more days, I will be leaving to Taipei with my friends (without papa & darling Chloe). Excited! Worried! Happy! Sad! All sorts of feelings! This is going to be my second time leaving baby at home for a trip. The last trip was a 4 days trip and this Taipei trip is going to be a 8 days trip. *phew*

Excited because I am going on a trip with my girl friends plus meeting with my old friends in Taipei plus SHOP SHOP SHOP!

Worried because I am not too sure how papa can handle baby Chloe without mama at home. of course, I am sure my mum is gonna help him out BUT my mum is leaving to London with my sis on the 21st Sept which means papa has to handle darling Chloe all alone without any help at all. ** Got la..... Novi & Rahir - my maids.

Happy because I am going to get total 7 nights of sleep without any interruption. Wuahahaha.... Free from making milk , free from rocking the sarong. hahahaha

Sad because I am not going to see darling Chloe for full 7 days. Oh my god, how I can survive... hmm...hopefully the trip is so packed that I have no time to miss darling Chloe. Hehe... No matter how, mama will always miss Darling Chloe.

So, who is going to have this Separation Anxiety - Not Papa, Not Mama - MAYBE darling Chloe. Hopefully papa can cope with Baby Chloe and keep her occupied that she will not cry for me. Baby Chloe is very clingy to me (* I think due to breastfeeding), she is very unfriendly to strangers - even our parents. I love it when Baby Chloe starts to be clingy but it can be very frustrating when you need to get something done and she doesn't allow you to do so. Luckily, Baby Chloe likes my maids too since they take care of her every day.

But lately, I think I rejected her too many times when she asked for me, and many times I just ignore her and let her cry. *I was not being cruel, but it is really very sad when she rejected her mah mah when her mah mah is so eagerly want to carry her. So, just let her mah mah carries her while she is crying lor... Mah Mah also very poor thing because she doesn't get to carry her grandchild in peace. Baby Chloe is very naughty. *sigh* Plus, I was training her to sleep alone at nights, and I forced her to sleep in her own crib, ended up heavy crying nights! I think because of all these, she is no longer excited when she sees me back from work. It is kinda sad, she used to smile and show her excitement by moving her hands, kicking her legs. Now? She would turn her head away if I never call her name! She would rather continue her activity and ignore me totally. So Sad!

Will this trip to Taiwan worsen our relationship? She will not be close to Mama anymore? She will be angry at Mama for leaving her alone at home and never take care of her? My gosh! How How How?

Yoplait Baby Yogurt

I bought these Yoplait Yogurts in a pack of 4 from Cold Storage. There are two flavour - Vanilla & Banana. Baby Chloe still couldn't finish the whole cup of Yogurt, so papa has to finish the balance :P. As usual, she has this very weird looking expression when I fed her Yogurt. However, she didn't really reject it which I think it is a good start.

She is now 9 months and I think I am not introducing enough variety of food to Baby Chloe. She doesn't even like Ribena or Puree that I bought from the supermarket. She still sticks to her porridge. Oh My God, she is a "china" girl, like Chinese food and not western food. LOL. Well, I will slowly expose her to more different kind of food - sweet, sour, bitter and salty - in moderation.

Her third teeth has come out on the 30th August but I didn't have the time to update the teething chart, will try to do it this week. Because of teething, she is starting to bite me & papa whenever she gets the chance. PAIN~~

She is now learning how to walk with the support of furniture around. However, she does not have enough strength to hold too long, usually she would sit down whenever she feel tired. She is getting very very naughty lately. I mean really naughty like throwing tantrum, and show her anger by rejecting me from carrying her. She starts to kick her legs and shake her hands when she is grouchy! When she wants it, you can never say no to her because she is so persistently demanding! *sigh* Papa is the loser most of the time because he cannot bear to see her cry & scream. Mama never wins too because if I scold her, she would have nightmares for consecutive three nights - which is even worse - so I decided to give in to her for NOW!

Baby Chloe is sleeping now, and I should go and rest now before she starts her "nasty" play. Good Night!

An Article

I always wanted to express my feelings towards my daughter, and I think it was my language capability that had prohibited me from doing so.Today I read this article coincidently and it has totally described my feelings as a mother. I must say I admire this guy for his appreciation towards his wife, and it touches me so much for a husband to be so understanding and loving towards his wife. I wish my husband can think the same too. But, this does not mean that their effort is any less than a mother, it is just that his appreciation makes me feel how important I am to my Baby Chloe. Let's me share the below article :-

今生今世

早前， 请了假， 到槟州看年幼的女儿， 享受天伦之乐。
宝宝 还未懂得认人，见到爸爸不喜亦不怒，就似平常一般。他重6。7公斤，护士说，体重恰好，不过轻也不太重。就这样普通的一句话，话，我亦不禁窃喜，但凡与宝宝有关的都能令我动容。

对于4个月大的婴儿来说，世界是新奇的， 宝宝对自己的手指亦是好奇。她有时会静静躺那里，一直看着自己的手指。她似乎不知道那是属于她的，对她而言，手指更象是“鸡腿”一味往嘴里塞，允的不亦乐乎。内子喝她一声，她却也懂得妈妈不好惹，把手指从嘴里拿出来，两只眼睛无辜地转动。

不吃手指的时候，宝宝喜欢“蠕动”这样的形容有点奇怪，只是我实在词穷。她的双脚不停往前撑，可是又不懂得用手配合，只有把头贴在床上，向前“蠕动”。 别小看这个动作，一转眼，她可能就会翻出来，敲到地面。一回，我们一时不察，她就这样“蠕”出床来，头部落地，放声大哭。

她的哭声是越来越洪亮了，我听了不觉烦厌，反而有点欢喜，要不是怕她不舒服，要不是怕噪声扰及他人，我倒不介意常听这哭声。

当然，宝宝也常笑。笑。我最爱的是，早上起来，看她伸懒腰，然后凑上前去对她说GOOD MORNING，二她就对我笑了。 我怀疑，婴儿都识魔法，他一笑，我就受感染，笑得比她更开心。有时候，我们在聊天，她以为我们与她说话与她玩，自个儿在那里大笑起来，令我们忍俊不禁。

偶尔，我会想，她的第一句说出口的话是什么？我希望是“妈妈”。在生儿一事上，我总觉得妈妈付出更多更伟大。我宁愿宝宝以后爱妈妈甚于爸爸。当初，内子产下宝宝后，我曾说过，以后要教宝宝， 如果爸爸妈妈同时掉进大海，一定要先救妈妈。这一些，宝宝以后会懂吧！

看着宝宝，我是无限感慨。曾经我亦与她一样，初临世界，浑浑噩噩，只懂得哭与笑，没有言语，没有思想。以后，宝宝就会与爸爸一样，渐渐长大，涉足世界，尝得悲欢离合，面对问题与困扰。宝宝会长大，我会衰老，总有一天，她将离我们而去，追逐自己的理想与人生。那一天，终会到来。

作者 ： 张庆禄

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I want to apologise to the author of this article because I do not know how to pronouce his daughter's name - haha - so I couldnt' find out the HAN YU PIN YIN - I replace it with "BAOBAO" (means Baby).

Sometimes I really complain about Baby Chloe's crying but I must admit that I kinda enjoy it. Her crying is so SWEET! Hahaha... It is an amazing thing to get a response from her whenever we try to convey a message to her. It is such magical moment when she smiles at me and chuckles! I love Baby Chloe!

Bad Sleeping Pattern!!!!

Baby Chloe is already 9 months and she is still not sleeping through the night. Well, I must admit that there is an improvement since 2 months ago that she only wakes up once in the night for milk, and immediately after her feed she would go back to her dreamland. That's not too difficult to deal with. Unfortunately, her sleeping pattern had changed a little after she recovered from her fever.

She is sleeping very late (12midnight - 1am) since last week, and have a very bad habit of crying before her sleep. I know I should not scold her, but her persist ency makes me scolded her uncontrollably. Hey, She understands what is "scolding", because immediately after I scolded her, she started to cry more. When I told her that I don't want her anymore, and passed her to her Papa, she cried even louder until I hold her myself. She would stop crying for a while when I carried her, but after a minute or so she started crying again to demonstrate her anger over my scolding, I THINK!. :P *sigh* She is very very naughty and stubborn. Hopefully, this is my misjudgement. Well, too young to judge anyway, plus she is still so young I shall "guide her to the right path" as a mother. (** hahaha, sounded so important! Papa & Mama will try out best la!)

Gerber's Graduates Puffs - Fruits

I told my brother to get these snacks from NTUC Singapore, SGD 6.99 (I think). Baby Chloe loves it. He bought me two flavours - Strawberry & Banana.

It is a Star Shape Whole Grain Rice Puff with your choice of Flavour of either Veggie or Fruit Flavour. Unfortunately, I did not manage to find these in KL/Selangor. If anyone knows where to get it, please let me know. :) It is not too sweet and melts in mouth too. I am not too sure about the nutritious part, as far as I am concern SNACKS are usually not so healthy. But I guess it is alright to have it once in a while. :p

Baby Chloe is able to use her thumb & index finger to pick up the little star and put it into her mouth. Of course, she is still not able to control her fingers fully, so she sometimes needs to use her hands to push in the tiny little star puff into her mouth. It is so cute to see her do that especially when the puff drops out of her hands, and her head will start to turn around to search for the tiny little star puff. *Cutie*

I usually give her piece by piece to make sure that the one in her mouth is been swallow properly. With her impatient attitude, before she could eat up the little piece in her mouth, she was already making noise for another piece. Greedy!!! :P

My Baby Chloe is sick - Part II

Being a mother is a big big task, Mama has to be extra extra strong both physically & mentally. Gosh, It was totally insane and devastating to me! Baby Chloe's fever did not subside and it remained at high temperature even after Uphamol & Anti-biotic. I understand that these medications are not wonders over night, but seeing Baby Chloe suffered just stressed me up. I would rather myself be sick and not her! Well, Yesterday morning, her fever did not subside and we decided to go to Dr. Patrick again for advise, we worried that the high fever will lead to convulsion.

Temperature was taken at Dr. Patrick Clinic and it read as 39.5C. Dr. Patrick checked her lung, again her lung is clear. Ear & Nose are perfectly okay, except for her throat which was a little reddish due to the infection. However, Dr. Patrick suggested that her fever should not stay so high constantly, he said it might be the possibility of the H1N1 or Rotavirus. Due to her high fever, Dr. Patrick decided to take a swab test. He told us that if it's Negative means 50/50 chances of H1N1, if it's positive it is 95% of H1N1. We thought no harm give it a test, because we knew that it will not be H1N1. But, We decided to admit Baby Chloe into the hospital so that it will be easier for the nurse and doctor to assist us in monitoring Baby Chloe's fever.

The hospital was surprisingly full, so many cases are waiting for admission while we were trying to register Baby Chloe for admission. At the end, the only choice left was a 2-bedded room. All Doctors agree that Hospitals are the higher risk for H1N1, I have already put Baby Chloe a risk to admit her and now to share is even higher risk, and there is no way that Hubby and I could accept a two-bedded room. We rather monitor Baby Chloe's fever at home. So, we have decided to go home but Hubby went up to Dr.Patrick for more advise on the treatment. While my mum and I were waiting in the car with Baby Chloe, I received a phone call from my hubby. He asked me strange question like when was I sick, what was the temperature etc etc etc.. Then I asked with my voice a little trembled " Is it positive?" Hubby said "Ya," I could her Dr. Patrick said to Hubby, " Get your wife to send Baby Chloe to the clinic first." Then, we went to the clinic with Baby Chloe again. The results stated INFLUENZA A - Weak position. I was terrified and stunt, and did not know how to react. How could my Baby Chloe be infected with H1N1? Uncontrollably burst into tears! Dr. Patrick said the qu0ta for H1N1 for the hospital is full, he recommended us to Prince Court.

We quickly went to Prince Court for admission. I was still in shock, other than crying, I didn't know what to do. Dr. Anna told us that the result put everyone in a very difficult situation. It is a Yes and No kinda thing. The word positive means YES 95% of H1N1, the word Weak could means NO could means YES. Of course, even the test showed NEGATIVE, it means 50/50. So what the hell is a WEAK POSITIVE? I was devastated, other than crying, I couldn't keep myself calm at all. So, eventually, we have no choice to put Baby Chloe on Tamiflu ( A medication which believe it will helps in H1N1 Dr. Anna said).

We waited until 3pm and we were sent to WARD 5 - infact during the consultation Dr. Anna did mentioned about the isolation ward - but I was not thinking well at that time. Hubby and I were both shocked when we were outside WARD 5. The entrance was tightly closed, and everyone who entered MUST wear a proper mask. We were both shocked and realised that something was not right. WARD 5 is a super high risk WARD for my Baby, and she is not even confirmed with H1N1, how could I be so stupid to put her at such a high risk, especially at her most vulnerable state. So, Hubby shouted to open the door! I was dumbfully walked into the WARD without even thinking properly. Initially, the nurse refused to open the door, LUCKLY Dr. Choy at the counter saw us both panic, and ordered to open the door and send us out. He took a glance at Baby Chloe's swab test report and told the nurse, "Let them out, She's not even confirmed with H1N1, tell them Dr. Choy said so". The nurse quickly let us out. I was panic and not over with shocked, while holding Baby Chloe tightly with tears. Doctor explained to us it was a procedure for them to put anyone with positive result in an isolation ward,unfortunately,the only way to be tested with H1N1 is to go to the government hospital and all the private hospitals do not have the facilities to do so. In order to eliminate the chance of widespread, those with POSITIVE shall be admitted to the isolation ward for treatment.

I finally asked "Dar dar, I don't understand at all. Baby Chloe only has High Fever, She doesn't have any flu or cough. She did not vomit and she eats well, how can they determine or make assumption that Baby Chloe is infected with H1N1?" We were too panic to think, and eventually we went up to Dr. Anna and she agreed that it will put Chloe at high risk if she was warded there. What the F88K! Then, why put us there? In the end, we insisted to be admitted to the normal ward. The stupid test result is really putting us at the GREY area, WEAKLY POSITIVE!!! Negative means 50/50, what's WEAKLY POSITION? It could be just normal influenza.

After a long huuhaa, we were sent to the Children's WARD - WARD D! Come on, children there are all with high fever too!!! But I totally understand that I shouldn't be selfish and I have to safeguard other's children too, so I ISOLATE ourself in the ward room and didn't come out at all.
Baby Chloe was fed with 5ml of Panadol (125g) and 2ml of Tamiflu, and she was too tired after a long day and slept.

Her fever finally gone down, and it was 38C, Yes, to me this is already an improvement. First, it is no long the terrifying 39 - 40C. Plus, I could feel her body temperature was not as high as the first day. Gradually, her fever subsided and I was so glad!

In the night, her fever slightly went up to 37.6C and she was given another dose of panadol at about 11pm. Then, her fever slowly subsides again. At least, Panadol is controlling her fever, unlike the Uphamol, after many dose still remained high. (Perhaps I was too nervous and impatient, should have waited for another day, but who can guarantee? Convulsion, Brain Damage or any other illness was my worried at that time - by the way, just a piece of information, I was informed that convulsion would only happened if there is a sudden rise in temperature) Anyway, It was pleased and relaxed the moment her temperature was being controlled.

Throughout the night, nurses came in and out to monitor on the temperature, and it was all perfect. No fever, therefore they did not give her any medication at all.

However, this morning at about 10.30am, her fever came back a little at 37.4C. But at least there is a good improvement to me. Dr. Anna advise since we had started the Tamiflu, might as well finished it up, she said it is easier to be treated within 48 hours - well again, she was trying to imply the H1N1 influenza. She still could not CONFIRM that Baby Chloe is infected H1N1 or normal influenza flu. HELLO?? Her fever has subsided???? No Vomiting? No sigh of flu! Naturally, slight cough after a NORMAL INFLUENZA FLU is common. Anyhow, I hardly hear her cough, up to now is only three times! Is that considered coughing? YOU TELL ME!

PHEW, after a long horrifying incident, we are now finally back home! Baby Chloe is sleeping soundly on her sarong.

Well, treat it as a hotel stay (Not that I like to come back again)! We had the most beautiful view in town while sleeping. Overseeing KL night lit up with our famous twin towers, Kl towers and all other sky scrappers. Beautiful sight indeed. Nice Hospital, very comfortable and very modern. Not so expensive, but I think what they need now is to attract more famous doctors to attract more patients!

BUT the best place to live in town is always MY OWN HOME. HOME is the best place in town even without beautiful sight! HOME is where we belong to!

I wish Baby Chloe to be healthy and happy forever and ever!

My Baby Chloe is sick

last night at about 11pm, when Hubby told me that Baby Chloe was having fever, I quickly touched her forehead and answered, "No La". I thought he was being paranoid as I was sick for the past two days. At that time, I didn't though it was fever because Baby Chloe has a warmer body temperature usually. Then, in the middle of the night, Hubby exclaimed," SHIT SHIT SHIT! Bi, Wake up! Baby Chloe has very high fever."



I was shocked and immediately hold Baby Chloe. Without touching her forehead, I could already felt her heat from her whole body. It was very obvious that she was already having fever, but I wanted to know how high exactly. We took up the digital Thermometer and placed it under her armpit. After 20s, I was totally horrified when the display shown 38.2C. I was only at 37.5C when I had fever last two days, and now Baby Chloe is so much higher than me. Moreover, I could feel the heat every parts of her body. :( As usual, Hubby started to roared, and complained that everyone in this family does not practise hygiene... and why the maid did not keep everything at the very best hygienic level. *sigh* I was trying to keep calm, and remembered that Dr. Patrick (Chloe's Pedi) gave us a bottle of Uphamol and that will help to reduce the fever. Maybe Hubby was still not over the incident when Baby Chloe was choked by the Uphamol, he did not really agree but I insisted. I searched for the Oral Syringe and pulled up to 3ml (it's maximum) since the instruction said 5ml for Baby 6 months old and above.



Before I could push in the Uphamol, Hubby was already making so much noise! He stopped and said I shouldn't continue, he didn't want the same incident to repeat again. No matter how I explained to him that Baby Chloe was very very young then, he insisted that I should stop it. I didn't want to argue further, that's why I stopped and fed her milk instead. Baby Chloe didn't know what was going on, she was still the same her who makes noise and smiles at Funny Faces. When I see Baby Chloe smiled, immediately my worries lessen. Hubby suggested to go to the Emergency, but I refused to as I had many many bad experience with all the emergency treatment. They were slow, they made assumption, and they made a wrong diagnosis. Well, perhaps, I was the many times unluckly patient but defenitely they were not reliable. UNLESS, SEVERE accident which could take someone's life away - that's their EMERGENCY! Well, I could be too one-sided with all my bad experience. Anyway, I suggested to wait till morning and go straight to Dr. Patrick. Meanwhile, I had this Baby Cooling Pad sticked on Baby Chloe's forehead to minimise a little heat, which was quite effective. Of course, effective in the sense that Baby Chloe's temperature has reduced slightly especially her forehead, face, hands & legs, but her body and neck remained at high heat. This Cooling Gel will not helps to get rid of the Fever, at least not such a high fever like Baby Chloe.



This morning, I woke up and the first thing that I did was to check on Baby Chloe's temperature. It was still very high, about 38.5C shown on the Thermometer Display. Then, I woke my mum's up because I need her to accompany to send Baby Chloe's to Dr. Patrick since Hubby has a very important meeting to attend. He wanted to cancel the meeting but I insisted that I could handle, besides my mum was around to help out. 1st Appointment is at 9am. We were all ready by 8.15am this morning, I thought I should give it a try and made a call to the Dr. Patrick's clinic. I was happy that someone actually picked up the call, and I told her that I want to come now but I do not have any appointment. Initially, they told me that I might need to wait long. I quickily told them with my shaky voice," Chloe Chan Wyn Lam, she is having fever more than 38C". The phone operator told me to come to the clinic immediately.



I thought I was early because we arrived there at about 8.40am, but I was so wrong. The clinic was already jam packed with many many children with their parents, ALL SICK! What is wrong with the weather, the environment??? Please stop the pollution, please stop the haze and save our children! Once we arrived, I went to register first. Then, a nurse came to Chloe to check on the weight & height. She was 8.84kg & 69cm. But it was terrifying that when the nurse told me that her temperature was at 40C. I was even shaking more and scared, gosh!!! What did I do? I should not have gone home when I was sick, I should stay somewhere else. I started to blame myself for all the silly mistake and statement that I made. I shouldn't have stayed home when I was sick, 3 feet away is NOT good enough! I should have instructed my maid to be extra careful with cleanliness like what my hubby said. Or I should have waited for ONE MORE DAY to make sure before I hold Baby Chloe again. Arghh.....Too late. Is all too late!!!!



Before Dr. Patrick arrived, Baby Chloe started to cry due to tireness ? fever? frustration? Not sure, she was a little different from other days. She was less active this morning, and she was crying mildly only. It Made me even more worried. The nurse called Baby Chloe into the room and insert medication from her backside. My mum told me that usually this insert will only be given for children with very high temperature. Andrew and Eric (my brothers) used to have this before.



Priority was given to Baby Chloe, once Dr. Patrick arrived, Baby Chloe was called into the room first. He checked her throat and he said was a little infected but no big deal. Then, he checked her lungs was ok. After that, ear & nose were also perfectly fine. I told him that I was sick the last two days, his face immediately changed and started to question me. " Did your doctor say that it was H1N1? Did you have high fever for more than 3 days? Cough? Flu? Body Ache? Headache?" I was also worrying about this issue when I was sick, but then Dr. Patrick confirmed that it was only virus infection since my fever was only at 37.5C, and it lasted for only two days. *phew* His face shown a sign of relax I could see, as it has eliminate the chance of H1N1. I almost wanted to tear! He gave me a stronger Uphamol and told me to feed her 2.5ml every 4 hours, and also gave me antiboitic to standby but not recommended.



As per told, after one hour of the insertion. Baby Chloe's fever subsided. She was happily playing with her Choo Choo Train and enjoying the Coo Coo Clock! We did not manage to feed her the uphamol because she vomitted twice. I took it for granted and told my mum that since her fever had gone maybe we should just leave the uphamol aside. At about 3pm, her fever is slowly coming back, and I am like ants at the hot pots jumping for help. I was confused and worried, my mum insisted to feed her the Uphamol and we did. After a struggle with Baby Chloe, I managed to push in the 2.5ml orange flavoured Uphamol into her throat. She was crying aloud but I knew I have to do it. And now, she is still sleeping....

I am very sad, crying in the room alone. I know, compare to many many other case, my case is considered minor. Andrew and Eric were so sick that they were hospitalized many times, at least Baby Chloe is resting at home calmly. But, It is so difficult to be a mom. I don't want to be sick because I want to take care of her. But I rather I be sick than Baby Chloe be sick. At least hubby and my mum or my maid can take good care of her when I am sick. She doesn't need to suffer so much.

I am so so so sorry! I am a lousy mother! Baby Chloe, get well soon. Pass your fever to Mama!!! :(

Falling Sick as a MOM

When I was a kid, I liked to be sick so that I could get a day off school.

When I turned 20s, I liked to be sick during exams times so that I could get more days to study.

When I started working, I disliked being sick but not a big deal to me, take MC and rest at home until I recover.

When I started working for my dad, I disliked being sick and I had no time to be sick. So, once I found out I am not feeling well, I will drink more water & sweat it all out! Tried to shorten the time of recovery.

Now as a MOM of Baby Chloe, falling sick is such a BIG DEAL TO ME especially during this critical situation where H1N1 virus is around. Today is already my third day of being sick, and I did not get chance to even talk to Baby Chloe since the day I fall sick. Immediately I felt a little unwell on Monday, I quickly went to the clinic for medication. Doctor advised me to be 3 feet away from my Baby so I did. I quickly got home and rested, all in my mind was to get a speedy recovery so that I can take care of Baby Chloe at night. Unfortunately, after a long sweat and a long hour of sleep, my fever did not go away. I was so sad especially when I heard Baby Chloe crying in the night and I couldn't help at all.

The second day, my mum told me to visit our family doctor at Jalan Genting Klang (Dr.Loo) for a better medication. Without hesitation, I rushed to Doctor Loo. If it was last time, I wouldn't even go, I would wait for another day or two before I seek for another Doctor. Dr. Loo told me that it is just normal influenza flu, might be due to the haze. I asked more details if it could be the H1N1 virus, he didn't answered Yes or No and that's worrying me a lot. He just told me to rest more and drink more water. If I find myself having breathing difficulty then quickly get to the hospital to check. How can I not be worried?? I am not afraid of being sick, I am just can't bear to be away from Baby Chloe for another day.

Last night, I was back to 35.9deg C (*phew*) but I felt weak & dizzy, could be the medication I thought. However, I decided to stay in my room and give it another day before I see Baby Chloe again. I heard Baby Chloe crying all night long while hubby was trying his best to get Baby Chloe to sleep. I wanted to get out of the room and check out how was hubby doing, but I stopped myself since I am still not fully recovered. It just makes me crazy when hearing Baby Chloe cries while I can't do anything about it. I must admit hubby did a very good job! A Big Applause to my big darling!!

This morning, I feel totally fine except a little weak. I almost wanted to tear when I see Baby Chloe. Baby Chloe stared at me, and occasionally distracted by my maid & my dog, then she would turn her attention to me again. I looked at her, and she "ah" said as if she was calling for me. Then, she started to wave her both hands when I was calling her names 2ft away. Even though I do not have high temperature anymore, to be extra careful, I will wait another day and see to make sure I am fully recovered. I do not want to see Baby Chloe to be infected even if it's normal influenza flu. Anyway, I am already back to work today. Low Appetite though.

Falling sick as a mum makes me realised how important it is for me to get my health at tip top condition; I am the caretaker, I am the protector and I need to be healthy in order to carry out my duty to my Baby. I miss my Baby so much now. Gosh!!! I wonder How well can I cope when I travel to Taiwan in September for TEN (10) Dayssss.... Wow, now 10 days sound extra long to me!!!!

Symptoms of H1N1
- Fatigue (YES)
- Severe vomit ting (NO)
- High Fever (NOT ANYMORE)
- Sore throat (NO)
- Cough (Slightly)
- Flu (Slightly)
- Chest Pain (NO)
- Fast Breathing Pattern / Difficulty in Breathing (A little but not really)

SO HOW? AM I OR AM I NOT? Scared! I want to take care of My Baby Chloe, and I don't want to be sick anymore!!

Waving to Say Goodbye

Witnessed by : Mama
First Wave Good Bye : 5/7/2009 (Sunday)
First Hand Clap : 4/7/2009 (Saturday)

It is such a joyous moment to see Baby Chloe waves Goodbye to us, Papa was especially excited and happily announced it to everyone "LOOK! LOOK! LOOK! Baby Chloe knows how to clap!" or he would try to boast to the whole world that "Baby Chloe waves Goodbye to me every morning!"

Ya, Papa is right. Baby Chloe waves Goodbye to him EVERY MORNING. That's because Papa is always late for work and Mama is always out to work before Baby Chloe is awake. LOL!!!

Special Thanks to Novi (My Maid), I could see she made an effort to guide Baby Chloe how to waves Goodbye. "GoodBye Mummy, GoodBye Papa" She said while holding Baby Chloe before we off to work. She kept on repeating "ByeBye, Mummy" until Baby Chloe waves to me! It is so sweet!!!

It is kinda funny though. She used to CLAP when I told her to clap her hands and now she does't anymore. Dunno why?! No matter how I try to excite her or demonstrate to her, she doesn't seem to be interested in clapping. Unless, I put her hands together and then she would clap twice or thrice at the max!

She prefer waving more! The transformation of her waving is also very cute!!! First time, I saw her waved, she waved by twisting her wrist (left and right) with her fingers curled towards to her palm. Then, She changed her waving style after a week. She waved longer with her right hand lifted higher where her palm was approximately at her eye level. I find this wave the cutest because after a long twist of her wrist, her hands would move over her right ear and start scratching her head, tsk tsk tsk...scratch! LOL. Hm...I guess noone understands what I am trying to say unless they witness it! SO CUTE!!!

And now, she waves like us, no half way scratching head or wrist twister! She waves with her hands up and slight waves to the left & to the right.

8 months and Two weeks old

Time flies faster than I have expected and honestly I have a little problem catching up "times". Baby Chloe is now 8 months and 2 weeks old, and she is starting to do some baby talks like MA MA MA, MUM MUM MUM, PA PA PA, GU GU GU, BA BA BA........ Everyone in the family seems to enjoy the Baby Talk because everyone is also starting to MAMAMA, BABABA, GUGUGU, DADADA whenever they see Baby Chloe. LOL.

Now, Baby Chloe has found her mobility by crawling on the floor, running with her walker. By the way, I read from the Babycenter that Walker discourages floor play which might delay a baby's mobility development like crawling & walking. The Walker was a gift from my colleagues, and I started to put Baby Chloe on the walker when she was almost 5 months old. She enjoys it so much as she could chase after Wow Wow (My Dog aka MeiMei). She also enjoys it as she could rush over to Mama when she sees Mama is home from work.

I personally feel it is not the walkers that discourage Baby's mobility development. It is more like the parents' responsibility to ENCOURAGE them during their development. For instance, I usually keep track with Babycenter's Development Chart so that I know Baby's ability at a certain month. Like starting solid at 5 - 6 month old, then I slowly start to introduce it to Baby Chloe. Then, from the babycenter I get to know that normally babies will learn to sit on their own at their 6th month, then i ENCOURAGE baby Chloe to sit on her own and support her when she tumbled. Haha...sound a little boastful here. What I wanted to emphasize is that do not just blame, but to try out best to encourage their development. I always tell myself, as long as I have tried my best and Baby is still not on track. It doesn't matter, just give her more time and one day she can make it. It's a process!

I always tell myself not to force Baby Chloe to move at the pace that I want, but to let her develop and grow at her own pace while enjoying the process of growth, I hope.

Mentioning about keeping a record of My Darling's growth. Sigh, the amature videographer cum photographer is definitely is not doing a fantastic job. Sigh!!!! Ever since hubby bought his Sony Video cam, I thought I can rely on him to record more of Baby Chloe's growth. Well, he did but he did not capture the "MOMENT". Those videos are a little boring & lengthy, some cannot even see Baby's expression clearly. I still prefer my camera shot and then send for print and album it. I can flip my dear album whenever I want. Call me Old Fashion but I still prefer memorable moment to be captured and kept nicely in an album.

I have to start using my camera again. In fact, I will invest a good lens*** to compensate with my photography skill.

*** Dear Lokong, this month is a special month which you might want to add this *** into your shopping list. LOL!