Extended Feeding Intervals

Baby Chloe no longer cries for feed every 2 hours. It had extended to every 3 hours since her full 2 months old. And now, it has extended up to 4 hours during the day time.

I just checked with my maid that she slept at 2pm yesterday and woke up at about 6.30pm for feeding. And Today, she was fed at 1pm, 4pm for full 5oz of milk, then I breastfed her at 8pm & 10pm (unknown amount of milk but not a lot).

As usual, she could sleep for full 6 - 7 hours at nigth without any feeding.

Bravo! But, Baby Chloe is still a late sleeper. Her earliest sleeping time is 12midnight...and latest can go up to 3am. Gosh!!!!!

Hoping this will change really soon! :)

Talkative Baby Chloe

I was not feeling well this morning, I guessed Baby Chloe had passed her flu to Mama. Anyway, I decided not to go to work but to stay home to take some rest. Guess what? Baby Chloe and Mama both woke up at 11am. My grandma saw us and said in Hokkien : " HO MIA!" It means Good Life. Hahaha....

After we woke up, I greeted Baby Chloe "Good Morning!" Then, I went straight to the bath room and prepared Baby Chloe's Bath Tub with Warm Water. I wiped her face gently with filtered water and I made sure I repeated it a few times even though Baby Chloe didn't like it much. Her rashes on her face is coming back again, filtered water will help to clean Baby Chloe's face and cool down the rashes a little. Then, I carried Baby Chloe to the bathroom and gave her a clean and let her played with the Yellow Duckling for a while.

After bathing Baby Chloe, I passed Baby Chloe to my maid, Novi. She fed Baby Chloe while I went to take a bath myself. After lunch, I started to play with Baby Chloe.

My Baby Chloe is such a talkative & playful girl. She likes to be entertained. She likes me shaking my head left and right with the rhythm "don don chang, don don chang chang don don chang!" She loves it so much that she chuckled a lot. When I started to make noise like Baby Chloe, she would also raised her voice in order to compete with me. The louder and longer the sound that i made, she would try to make it even louder and longer and also sharper. After a while, Novi sent Baby to sleep.

I was thinking how nice if I could quit my job and stay home with Baby Chloe to witness Baby Chloe's growth development. If I could spend more time to play with her, If I could stay home.... Hahaha...... But once again, I am not a home person. I cannot be trapped in the house for too long. I will be depressed therefore I think i better get back to work and get my brain working rather than thinking unnecessary things.

Baby Chloe, Mama promises you la. Mama will make sure that I spend at least two hours every day to play & talk to Baby Chloe.

Cough Cough Cough

Subject
Baby Chloe is attacked by Virus - Cough & Red Nose & Watery Eyes

Source
Unknown - Primary Suspect - MC PaPa

Cure
Dr. Patrick's prescription
(1) Iliadin Nose Drop (2 drops/each time/ 2 times/day)
(2) Axol Mucolytic Syrup (1.5ml/each time/ 2 times/day)
*** For the above, max. consumption up to 5 days
(3) Unlimited supply of mother's milk

Observation after 1 day
(1) Reduce in coughing frequency
(2) Eyes are still red & watery
(3) Nose is still "running"
(4) Still very active & smilling happily
(5) Cry vigorously before each sleep

Pray
Baby Chloe to get well soon & sleep comfortably.

Hair Loss

These few days, I realised that I am shedding a lot more hair than usual. I used to lose some hair during hair brushing or shampooing, but it didn't bother me much as I wish to get rid some of the weight from my head. But now, it is totally a different story.

The hair loss becomes so consistently noticeable, and it actually worries me a little now. How noticeable? Like I said, my hair used to fall when I brush or wash my hair. Now, I don't even need to do anything and my hair drops naturally when I was working, watching tv, singing, standing, sitting etc etc etc. At times I would feel itchiness on my back, then I realised the itch was from the hair that fall onto my back. My god!!!

My mum told me this is a naturally process. She said she dropped lots of hair too when I was at my 4th month, then I realised that "Oh Gosh, Baby Chloe is 4 months old now." It puzzles me a little why hair loss? How is my hair related to my baby's growth development?

I quickly clicked into BabyCenter to find out is there any scientific explanation to this hair loss. Well, the truth is "YES, there is an explanation for my hair loss" . Apparently, it is all because of the changing of estrogen levels which has caused the hair loss. Fortunately, it is not forever. It says I will probably get back to normal after 6 - 12 months.

Hmm.. wanted to keep my hair long and get a "sexy" perm. So now how? Should I cut my hair short to reduce the mess from my hair loss? A bit unhygienic to have my hair is flying around Baby Chloe's living environment. How la? How la? Cut or Keep?

Baby Chloe at her 3rd Month

Please define IRRESPONSIBLE

I am very sad at this very moment, tears keep on coming with no control. I feel really sad to hear that Mike told my baby that I am an irresponsible mother. How could he? What makes him to have the right to tell my baby that I am an irresponsible mother? What did I do wrong? Simply because he told me that he can take over and I go straight to sleep? My philosophy is that if there is ONE that is awake to take care of Baby Chloe, we do not need TWO to stay awake. TWO to stay awake is called inefficiency and ineffective.

By the way, at this time I really feel that I no longer able to address this person Papa or Hubby for his ugly & unappreciative attitude, therefore I have decided to describe this creature by its name - Mike.

I was on my bed with my dog, getting ready to sleep. I could hear Baby Chloe crying but Mike was out there with her. She was sleeping when I went back to the room, and I left her with Mike while he was reading his newspaper. I didn't know what did he do or what did he not do and made Baby Chloe awake & cried. What he did was yelling and shouting unreasonably to me : what are you doing? Baby Chloe is crying. My hands are dirty, I am reading newspaper. Can't you help?

I pondered a while and started to think what was he trying to imply, he was the one who told me to get back to sleep and he will take over the duty of looking after Baby Chloe. Well, maybe at that time Baby Chloe was already asleep and he felt less stressful. Anyway, I got my butt up from my bed and helped him with the pacifier on baby. Then, Baby Chloe stopped crying as I rocked her on her Pink Sarong. Then, immediately I went back to sleep when I saw Baby Chloe's eyes were closed.

Once again, I didn't know what happened, Baby Chloe started to cry again. I ignored him as I THOUGHT he could handle by himself. And then, I heard he said : Such an Irresponsible mother! " And Baby Chloe continued to cry. Then, I heard he said : COME!

I guessed he must have picked up Baby Chloe from her sarong. I was furious and sad to hear what he told my Baby, I was annoyed when he carried Baby Chloe around, talking to her while she was actually tired and sleepy.

I took Baby Chloe back from his hand, and placed her into her Pink Sarong. Immediately Baby Chloe is calmed down and as I rocked her sarong, she slowly dozed off.

I was very sad to hear what Mike had told my Baby behind my back. I wondered what else he had said to my baby when I was away. I confronted him and told him that he has no right to condemn me in front of my baby, especially condemned me as an irresponsible mother. I asked him what makes him think that I am Irresponsible. He immediately replied proudly with no remorse, " I took care of Baby Chloe every night! "

I was shocked and angry. No doubt, he really helped me a lot during the nights when Baby Chloe refused to go to sleep. But it doesn't mean that I did not take care of Baby Chloe at all. Oh my god, the more I interrogated him and demanded him for an explanation, the more unreasonable he became. He thinks that he is an absolute good father. I started to tear and he didn't show his care but added" YOU SHOULD ENJOY WHILE TAKING CARE OF BABY CHLOE!" This statement sounded like I hate my baby, sounded like I didn't like taking care of my baby.

When I told him that I have tried my best, and I wake up 5am in the morning to take care of Baby Chloe, then pump milk & go to work at 7.30am. He replied that it is my problem, and that I should go to sleep EARLIER.

If I go to sleep earlier who will take care Baby Chloe? If I go to sleep earlier, my life is gone. My only entertainment now is two episode of pathetic storyless Astro On Demand Channel. Of course, facebook while I was expressing my milk. Other time, I am taking care of my Baby Chloe. He cruely replied : This is the way how it should be for a mother. No life! Just Like I do.

I was so angry with his NO LIFE comment. He SMOKED with no consideration of Baby & Me. He drank and came back tiredly drunk sometimes. He can go out and have drink with friends and I never stop him from doing so. He was the one who made the decision to stay back for Baby Chloe. I appreciated his love to Baby Chloe and I am so happy that He is trying his best to change for us. To be honest, from the start, all the changes made were all for Baby Chloe, never for me. I shouldn't even mention "US".

Sad!!! I love my Baby Chloe. I might not be a good mother but I don't think I am an irresponsible mother. I might not be a good mother but I am trying my very best to be Close-to-be-a-good-mother.

Baby Chloe, believe Mama, Mama is trying my best and I love you much. From today onwards, I will take all the night shift to take care of you myself. I don't need Mike at all, even if It means I have to sleep at 2am and wake up at 5am or 6am. He thinks that He's the only one working, he thinks that no fathers out there can compare to him on what he's doing to Baby Chloe, he thinks he's the perfect father.

I believe to be a good father is because you want to be one and you love your baby so much so that you are a good father naturally. It is totally nuisance and ridiculous to announce to everyone that you are a good father while comparing among your friends whom you think they did not help out to take care of their babies at night.

SAD!

Unleashing the devil within

I like how my sister put it when I told her that Baby Chloe is getting more and more naughty, she said : She is unleashing the devil within.

My mum always tell us how obedient Baby Chloe is, I guess she used me as a benchmark and concluded that Baby Chloe is a good girl. Haha...I heard a lot of naught stories about myself when I was a child, and My hubby's cousin, Vilmus, said to me it is a revenge. Hahaha..

However, I am quite lucky in the sense that I have maid to help to take care Baby Chloe. She's ok so far, not perfect but acceptable.

Taking care of baby is an enjoying task but yet an exhausting one too. I have to ensure baby having enough sleep & milk. Then, have to learn to get less hour sleep but still stay awake at work. Then, have to spend time playing with her and talk to her. A lot and a lot more.

But it is all so WORTH IT even though she is becoming more and more demanding. She is showing her 'power' now as a baby. She cries whenever she needs attention from us, and she refuses to go to sleep when she wants to play with us.

WORTH IT like Nicole told me! I AGREE!

Baby was choked on uphamol

What a terrifying experience we had last night, especially reading so much paper about how babies were choked to death. Oh My God!

It was 8.00pm last night, I planned to to leave home for dinner at friend's house at 8.30pm. I thought since it is half an hour away so I decided to breastfeed baby before I leave. When I was breastfeeding Baby Chloe, I could feel the heat from Baby's body. It was the first fever for Baby Chloe so far, but I was not surprised since I was told by Dr. Patrick that Baby might have slight fever after a jab. Dr. Patrick prepared us with a bottle of Uphamol for emergency, so I decided to feed Baby Chloe with the medicine. And, it was when the horror begins.

I was feeding her with the oral syringe that was provided by the Clinic. Its instruction indicated 25ml per dosage, therefore Papa pumped the uphamol up to 25ml. It is never easy to feed any baby with medicine as its taste is not so pleasant. As expected, Baby Chloe cried after I jabbed in a little into her mouth. She was rejecting the liquid, and I totally understood her reaction as I could smell the unpleasantness. Therefore, I quickly fed her with a little water to dilute the taste of it. However, I must admit that I shouldn't have fed Baby Chloe water with a bottle. I was not thinking much!! Well, after that I continued to jab in a little from the syringe and fed her water again. This time round, she cried even louder.

"Must finish all a, Papa? " I asked
"It says 25ml, I think better finish. Let's finish up the last bit" Papa replied.

Without hesitation, I pumped in the balance into her mouth. She was rejecting the medicine immediately, especially she already knew it something yucky, and she showed us that she didn't like it by crying loudly and refused to swallow it. We were kind of pushing it a little too far by putting her at a lying position in order to let the medicine to flow into her throat. OH MY GOD, this was the time when the drama kicked it. SHE is CHOKED!!

Baby Chloe initiated with a cry, then suddenly she was no longer crying as she had difficulty in breathing at that time. I was shocked and Papa was nervously shouting "PAT HER BACK! PAT HER BACK!" Baby Chloe was coughing and face turned really red (** with no cry some more **). We were like ants in a hot pot, quickly Pat her back, Burp her. All of us were so nervous, Papa didn't think but immediately grabbed his car key and shouted : Come, we have to go to the Hospital now! "

Baby Chloe had already vomited some at that time, I thought she was getting better and I just need a little time for her to calm down from her shock. I shouted for my mum's help instead, but my mum was in the shower. I left no choice but to follow Papa's instruction got into his car.

Papa was driving like a mad cow at that time. I was more worried about our safety than Baby Chloe's choking event. Baby Chloe at that time was already breathing properly. We have decided to head to Gleneagle, unfortunately when we arrived the Junction of Jalan Ampang, all cars all at a crawl towards the direction of Gleneagle. Papa decided to get POLICE to escort us to the hospital.

" Papa, Police will not attend to us because Baby Chloe is absolutely normal now" I said.

" No, I must try. I must get the Police to escort us to Hospital, otherwise We will never able to reach there." Papa said

Well, I didn't want to say much because he was at hot temper, he even told me to SHUT UP when I asked him to drive safely. Gosh. He left the car at the Police Station's entrance and ran into the office. He took about 5 minutes in the office while I was looking at the cars on Jalan Ampang moving forward and forward, leaving us far far behind! *sigh* Then, Papa walked out with a Lady Police Officer. The Lady Police Officer walked gently towards our car and told us to move to the Police Car. I was told to wait at the guard house while they were searching for the CAR KEYS!!! Hahaha.....We were at the Police Station "ding dong ding dong" (** doing nothing) for about 10 minutes and I started to complain to Papa softly "See, I told you. They won't help us if it's not an super emergency case." Papa was also agitated and we left without waiting further. Hahahaha..so funny.

After that we had to restart our queue after 15mins of NOTHING while the bus which was right in front of us initially was not at our sight anymore, which means we could have arrived the Hospital already if we didn't waste our time at the Police Station to ask for escort!

When we arrive the hospital, I rushed Baby Chloe to the Emergency Hall. A pretty and young Chinese Nurse came to us urgently and helped to check on Baby Chloe. A doctor came to us, and check on Baby's chest with his stethoscope and left without saying much. The pretty nurse told me not to worry with a very friendly smile, "Baby is okay!"

PHEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We left the hospital at about 10.30pm and went back home.

11th March 2009

10th March 2009
10.30pm : Formula Feed 4 1/2oz
11.15pm : Sleep
11.45pm : Cry (** Maybe nightmare, or Cold, or Hot.. dunno the reason)
12.10midnight : Get Back to Sleep
** Note : Baby laughed with sound for the very first time before her feed while we were playing with her. A TALKATIVE HAPPY BABY~!

11th March 2009
5.15am : Cry for Hunger
5.20am : Direct Breastfeed Baby Chloe
5.45am : Baby Chloe starts talking & smile
6.00am : Put Baby Chloe into Sarong and waiting to handover to maid
6.05am : Mama Shower
6.30am : Mama pumps milk
7.00am : Go to Work

Love My Partner

The bond between hubby and I got stronger from the day Baby Chloe joined us as a family. Naturally, we know we are a family. Full Stop. Wait a minute, something is not right here. Why Full Stop?

I realise that the "IN LOVE WITH YOU" thingy is gradually disappearing from our relationship. No doubt, there is LOVE but it is a totally different LOVE STORY that I am talking about now. The LOVE that I used to feel was young, romantic, dramatic, fantastic and energetic. And the Love that I am feeling now is....how should I put it...err.. caring, responsibility, togetherness, support, protected and sheltered. Hahaha... something like a fatherly love that I obtained from my dad last time. It seems like my hubby is taking over the job of my father in taking care of me. Of course, to be in a happy life we must have a husband as described in the latter part but I believe strongly that the romance part should never be omitted to keep the sweet sweet relationship.

My friend sent me an email before describing how a couple live together for many decades and assuming that they know how much they love each other. Eventually, assumption led to a misunderstanding. Well, the story was a little too complicated for me to re-tell (** the truth is I don't remember the exact story). Anyway, what I wanted to say is we must not always assume between husband and wife. We must openly show our love to each other like saying "I Love you", kissing and hugging every day. Once in a while, we should just go out to have our romantic getaway. Then, arrange for romantic wine & dine on special occasions.

Papa must send flowers to Mama, buy diamond for MaMa from 0.5 carats to 5 carats, from VS to IF, from G colour to D Colour, put all his properties under Mama's name, buy everything in the name of Mama, hahaha...too excited... above all these, must love Mama like your NEW girlfriend everyday. :P

Baby Chloe is not with Mama

Last night, My mum offer to take care of Baby Chloe during the night. Hubby and I were both exhausted therefore without hesitation I nodded my head (*YES! YES! YES!)

As I told hubby last night, *sigh* as expected, my mum fed Baby Chloe at 3.30am. My mum has a bad habit, whenever Baby Chloe is crying she would tell us to feed her. I have repeated myself so many times that crying doesn't mean hungry all the time. I told her how to differentiate the cries, but she insisted to feed her. *sigh* What to do, can't complain much since she offers to help out. Furthermore, my mum is a stubborn lady and she doesn't like instruction, she likes to be on her own.

Well, I told myself it is only one night. Don't worry too much. I was afraid that Baby Chloe would get used to feeding in the middle of the night, which means the sleeping through the night thingy will not happen again. It is not being selfish, my mum only take care for one night, she won't feel the importance of sleeping through the night. As for me and hubby, we are taking shift every alternate day. Persistency has to be there in order to make things in accordance. Anyway, we are not hurting our baby, Baby Chloe never cries for feeding during the night. She cried for other reasons.

Is Sleeping Issue again

My biggest challenge with Baby Chloe is always the sleeping issue. Yes, she is now able to sleep through night, distinguishes day & night.

*Sigh* For the past one week, my maid told me that Baby Chloe is not sleeping during the day times. Maybe total sleep is less than 3 - 4 hours, which is not enough for a baby who is only 3 months old. Initially, I thought baby sleeping less in the daytime is a good thing so that I can push her sleep earlier to 10pm rather than 12midnight. I am so wrong to have such a thought!!! Baby Chloe is sleeping later and later in the night. She refuses to go to sleep at night and cries a lot when we hold her on our arms too. She wants to sit upright, she wants us to keep talking to her. She is trying to let us know that : Papa, Mama, Baby Chloe doesn't want to sleep. I want to play with you.

She slept at about 2 - 3am for the past whole week. In between her sleep, she would cried while she is sleeping?!! Nightmare or something - I am not sure. Then, I have to get up to check on her to make sure she is alright. But usually I would pat her for a while (like 1 minute) then she will get back to sleep. It is probably nightmare or something else on her crib is bothering her sleep. But I am wondering, how come baby has nightmares?? She is not exposed to any horror movies or anything scary before? How come? Anyway, even though Baby Chloe slept so late at night, she was already awake by 6am for a feed which is quite reasonable because her last feed of the night was at 11-12 midnight. After the 6am feed, she would continue her sleep until about 8.30 - 9.00am.

I tried feeding her at 1-2am, thinking that it might help her to get back to sleep easier. But it doesn't work and she would vomit. I think because she is moving too much most of the times, she seems really excited and never tired of playing.

Hubby and I decided to ignore her last night, but her cries were continuously loud and angry. It makes no choice to me but to pat her and calm her down. What is going on with my baby?? She is sleeping less than an adult which is not supposed to be. What happened to 15 hours sleep?

Baby Chloe, you always challenge Mama with your sleeping pattern. Anyone knows what can I do with Baby Chloe? Papa & Mama naturally have to stay awake to keep Baby Chloe company, means less sleeping time for us too. *sigh* It is really not easy.

Oh...we were so against putting Baby Chloe into the sarong, but in order to make her sleep, Papa is always talking about using the sarong for Baby Chloe. We wants Baby Chloe to sleep well, if it's not 15 hours, at least on par or slightly more than adults' sleeping time. Arghh!!! Someone helps!

Copying

Baby Chloe is 3 1/2 week now. Baby Chloe is responding us well. I found out today that she's also a copy cat now.

This afternoon, I smiled at Baby Chloe and she returned me with a sweet smile. Then, I called her name loudly in a very happy tone and she responded with a big smile together with both hands punching and legs kicking. And Then, I told my maid to help out hubby in the night when I was away for Sarah Brightman's concert. I was describing to my maid how hubby carried Baby Chloe in the night and made her cried; and then I acted out how Baby Chloe " Wu Nga Wu Nga". Unexpectedly, Baby Chloe responded with her sulking mouth and cries. Haha... so cute...

Baby is also able to sit upright with a back support. However, her neck is still not strong yet. Papa and Mama have to keep an eye on Baby Chloe while she is in her sitting position.

My Baby is growing very well and now she knows how to COPY! :P

Maid or No Maid

Before Baby Chloe was born, I insisted to have a maid to help us out with taking care of Baby Chloe at my mum's place. Hubby was very supportive with the idea, however he told me to make the decision myself.

His reasons were:
(1) Too many horrible stories about how maids treated the employers' children.
(2) He feels that baby will act like a maid
(3) He is not used to have a stranger at home
(4) He doesn't want baby to speak in Indonesian language

But I didn't have much choice because it is impossible for me to hire a Chinese babysitter, they are too expensive (RM2K a month), and I do not want to send my baby to babysitter's place. A big NO NO. I feel it is not about the nationality or religion, it is more like one's personality and consciences, Chinese or Indonesian are no differences to me.

As long as I am a working mum, i need a helper to take care of my darling. My MIL is not the right person yet, and she admitted that she won't be able to help much. But of course, if we really needed her help, we can ask her for a favour as a last resort. My mum is a working mum too, therefore she is definitely not an option too. *sigh* Who else?

Therefore I must hire an affordable maid which means I have to opt for an Indonesian Maid.

My maid's name is Noviana and she is been with us since Baby Chloe was born. She was supposed to join us after Baby Chloe's birth according to schedule, but I was lucky that the agent manage to get her in one week before Baby Chloe was born.

She did not really give me much of good first impression, as she wasted the chicken rice and herbal drink that I had ordered for her. I don't like people wasting food! But I must say overall she is ok till date. Perhaps I didn't expect much from except that she can pay 100% attention to my Baby which she did. Cleanliness wise, she is at the borderline and I have to repeatedly remind her about her cleanliness. Well, not too bad. I told her that she must shower at least two to three times a day and change her clothes frequently.

She wakes up 6am every morning to boil water for baby's consumption. Then she will fill up the Electrical Pot to ensure there is hot water available at all times to heat up the breastmilk. Then, she will wash up all the bottles that are used during the night feed and sent those bottles to steam sterilizer. After that, she will change the dustbin's plastic which usually piled up with Baby's soiled or wet diapers. If Baby is awake by that time, she will feed baby and change baby's diaper then put her back to sleep on her crib. If Baby is still asleep, she will start laundrying until I call for her.

I usually call her at about 7am as I need to express milk and get myself ready for work, and I will leave home at about 8.30am. Novi is lucky as she has Rahir (my favourite maid hired by my mum) to help her out. From there, both of them will take turns to look after baby until around 10pm.

Haha....yes, my job starts at 10pm onwards until ....hmm...really depends on baby's condition of that day. Sometimes my job ends at 12 midnight when I can enjoy a good sleep and sometimes it lasted until the next morning which means no sleep for Mama & Papa.

I am happy that I have a maid to help out the daycare but at the same time I am horrified with all the different stories that appeared in our national news about how Indonesian maids abuse employers' children, how Indonesian maids hurt their employer with pestle, knife, wooden chairs etc etc...All sorts of terrifying acts.

To be honest, I am still not so confidence to put Baby Chloe under her care. We do not really know her well and anything could happen unexpectedly. So far, she did what I told her to do and of course don't expect her to do more than that boundary. *sigh*

How? To Maid or Not To Maid?

Why is my Baby crying?

On Sunday afternoon, I had already realised the rashes that appeared on Baby Chloe's face. At that moment, I knew that I am going to have few difficult nights. Baby Chloe tends stay up late when she has rashes, especially on her cheek. It must be the itch that is making her uncomfortable.

Well, I am so right! Of course, I am Baby Chloe's Mama. ** Proud **

Monday night, Baby Chloe slept at 2.30am. Before that, she was crying on and off. We tried feeding her, putting her to sarong, patting her, rocking her personally but for some reasons she was still irritated and refused to stay calm. When we walked towards the fan, she stops crying for a while. Then, back to crying. I carried Baby in her lying position because I was trying to make her sleep, and again her hands and legs were moving left and right showing her impatience. I tried changing hands from left to right, right to left. I tried changing her position from lying down position to upright position and vice versa. I tried walking her around with a rhythmical movement. I couldn't confirm the reasons behind all her acts, I am sure she was not feeling so well. Most probably as I have guessed - RASHES! I was also suspecting STOMACH WIND too.

Baby Chloe is a good girl. She behaved very good the last whole week. She slept at 12.00 - 12.30 midnight and woke up at 7.00am. Nothing to complain about. She even surprised me on Sunday by waking up at about 8.30am which enabled Mama to have a straight 8 hours uninterrupted sleep. ** Happy **

Unfortunately, Mama had a difficulty in handling baby since two days ago. She is so restless and her frowny face shown her frustration over 'something'. She cried cried cried until she felt tired and slept by herself at about 2.30am for the last two night. This morning, she woke up at 6.45am for feeding with her eyes closed. It is very tiring for Mama & Papa but Mama knows it is not easy for Baby Chloe too.

I wish Baby Chloe can communicate with Mama soon so that I can find out the actual reason of why is Baby Chloe crying? What is making her feeling unwell? Otherwise I will not be able to help baby with the right treatment. ** Exhausted **

Father & Daughter

I am never tired of repeating myself about how much Papa loves Baby Chloe. Well, I am JEALOUS! However, other than jealousy, I must admit how happy I am to be with Papa's wife. Haha... Papa is never stingy in showing his love to Baby Chloe, and I really want to feel how does it feel to be a father. Is it the same like being a mother? I used to think mothers feel more about their own children as the bond between a mother and a child is so physically & emotionally intact to one another. No strength in this world could break this bond.

But Papa makes me open up my mind and understand that the love between a father and a daughter is never less. His love to Baby Chloe is not simply expressed by words, but from his eyes, his smiles, his touch and all his emotion about baby Chloe. Sometimes, when he describes how happy he is when he is about to see his baby, it just makes me so jealous at the same time feeling really happy that Baby Chloe has a good father (*eventually he will steal some of mother's job like putting baby to sleep at night) Kekeke * Wink* *Wink* The happiness that shown in his face feels so contented.

Today, Papa asked Mama : I am no longer interested in drinking. You know why?
Mama : Because you are STINGY, or you don't have money, or maybe you want to keep the money for baby.
Papa : Not about money, Money is secondary.
Mama : And then??
Papa : Drinking will drain me out! I rather spend more time with Baby otherwise I won't be able to take care of baby when baby Chloe needs Papa.

He is willing to give up his sleep, his hobby (beer) just for Baby Chloe. I don't know how long will it lasts but at least NOW is good!

Baby Chloe, You are a lucky girl! Please make Mama a lucky mother too! Love you!