October 25, 2011

Nursery Registration

Busy Busy Busy. Have been busy with WORKS and "DOMESTIC DRAMA". Works is simply works that earns me some pocket money whereas "DOMESTIC DRAMA" --  hmm, too complicated. I shall elaborate when I have the time, no time for this nuisance. :P

Anyway, I just want to mark down today's DATE because after many many phone calls, I have finally registered Chloe into 2012's Nursery @ P&J. I hope she will have lots of fun and learning experience as the school fees ain't cheap!!!! Love the environments, love the uniform, love the classroom, love the diversity of nationality. I hope Chloe loves what Mama loves too...  

*Phew* Finally, I can remove one item from my to-do list. 

Next, I have to call Jean Gan in December so that I can register her for Baby Ballet next year. :P (** Chloe is the one who ask for it!! So I better get it done for her **) 

Can't WAIT to send her to Nursery! Can't WAIT to send her to Ballet Class. 

October 15, 2011

Mama is sorry...

Dear babies,

Mama is sorry... Mama really go out tonight... I need a time for myself...
Please don't be mad at me.
Mama loves you both and I promise that I will be home for you. Allow me to have one night...

Love you gals a lot,
Mama

October 13, 2011

Mama's Diary

I was about to blog about how I managed to put a full stop to the accumulated stress over the last few months. I had a good workout tonight and I thought I had come to a consensus that it is too depressing to be angry and sad about "" who is so insensitive. Furthermore, I realize that my girls need "" so much that I guess the best solution is to forgive "them" and be happy with my blissful life with my two daughters.

Thanks to the great and exhausting Body Attack! However exhausting it is, it only made me sweat like a dog and muscles cramp here and there. The most exhausting moment was the accumulated stress and unhappiness. It is not merely deteriorating my energy but also mental tortures over the whole two months. My girls was sick, I was sick, my helper was sick, I had tonne of works.... No matter how I beg for a short holiday with "", "" decided to leave me behind for "" own leisures. It even put me to a state where I think I don't need "" anymore. "" doesn't care for me, even I cried and begged to follow him with many reasonable options. "" pushed me off by telling me that it is a guy trip and i am not allowed. All I asked to make this exceptional! I didn't stop "" from having drinks enjoying with "" friends weekly. I thought for "me" the special half, he can make this exceptional. But he chose to leave me with my own stress. Talking about it making me tear. :"(

But when I heard my girls called "" , I knew that life is not just about myself, but my family...my girls... I can't be selfish. They need "". There is no reason for me to start a battle as this will definitely not beneficial to my love ones.."forgiveness" is the best solution for me and my girls.

Thank god that everything has come to an end because the cute instructor had drained me out with his Monster attack, screaming, jumping, running, sweat all you want kind of full body workout!!! Love it so much!!!

Can't help it to cry when Chloe asked for "" when I tried to send her to bed just now. She told me she wants "" and she lied down obediently with "" kn bed. It is a happy scnene and I should be grateful but I can't help to cry and feeling sad. It is a sign that I am not a good Mama, and I am so so worried to lose her if anything happen to me and "". I cannot lose my girls... And. They are my everything.

This is my only ground to release my stressful thought. I hope it remain what it supposed to be. I don't mean to defame anyone. It is just my little corner to blog...It contains only my own personal thought. Nothing more. God, please give the greatest power to forgive and accept the life and family that I've chosen for myself. There is no way for me to give up just the determination that I had during the 1-1/2 hours of non-stop workout!! God bless me, and god bless all my lives one.

Unhappiness and nonsense should be sent away, and enjoy the upcoming family event!! It's gonna be busy busy busy month again!! Cheer up, Mama. Be happy is how you lve yourself! Take care. M

Clarisse with Grandma


This photo was taken weeks ago. I have not been playing with my camera or iphone and only two days ago I saw my old DSLR lying in the cupboard which my brother supposed to bring to London. *sigh* Maybe the DLSR is not NEW enough for him to bring to London to show off. :P

Both girls are well. Chloe is not attending school meanwhile. Since it is another 2 weeks to School Holidays, I will just have Chloe at home playing with Clarisse and have a closer sister bonding time. :)