For some reasons, Baby Chloe was acting very abnormally last night. She did not want to go to sleep, eating habit were not stable anymore, and started to vomit a lot. We were guessing either she was over-excited about yesterday's visitors or maybe she is becoming an angry baby. I was told that baby always cries for a reason i.e. hunger, wet diapers, lack of sleep, too cold, too hot or sick. Oh No, my baby is sick. But but but, she looks healthy to me other than a little blocked nose. I had adjusted the temperature, I fed her with bottle, I breastfed her, I checked her diaper. Nothing was wrong. Hubby and I was awake the whole night for baby. We tried singing lullaby but it didn't work too. *Sigh* After struggling with baby Chloe for a long hour, finally I think she was tired of crying and slept.
My hubby suddenly turned to me and exclaimed "Bi, I will get you a Confinement Lady for our next child" Haha, My hubby surrendered, but I am not giving up. I want to try to take care baby myself.
November 30, 2008
November 29, 2008
First Saturday with PaPa & MaMa
Baby Chloe says:
Today is Baby's Chloe first Saturday with PaPa & MaMa.
In the morning, grandaunt SiGor & Auntie Agnes with Baby Hugo came to visit me. Then, later in the afternoon, YehYeh & MarMar came also to visit Baby Chloe. They took turn to carry me and I am very happy to meet up with them. I can see YehYeh & MarMar are very excited from their smiles.
Today is Baby's Chloe first Saturday with PaPa & MaMa.
In the morning, grandaunt SiGor & Auntie Agnes with Baby Hugo came to visit me. Then, later in the afternoon, YehYeh & MarMar came also to visit Baby Chloe. They took turn to carry me and I am very happy to meet up with them. I can see YehYeh & MarMar are very excited from their smiles.
The 8th Day - The Best Hair Wash
Finally, the day has come. Haha...my day to take a proper shower without gingers and my hair wash day. Woke up early in the late morning, waited until 11am. I quickly prepared myself to my bathroom with my invisible checklist: XL T-Shirt, Long Pants, Nursing Bra, Underwear, Sanitary Pad, Nursing Pad, Two Towels, Body Powder, Doves, Pantene Shampoo & Conditioner. What did I missed?
Anyway, I brought in all the necessity with me to a wonderful shower and the best hair wash ever. mmm~ smell nice! I was a little skeptical about the "Wind" will penetrate into our body and cause sickness at the later stage. Come on, who doesn't get sick at the older age? But in order to obtain the next chance of getting a perfect shower & hair wash, I better follow instruction closely. I was told to shower in HOT water, and drink a glass of HOT "Hong Zhou Dong Sam Shui" (Some Chinese herbs). Sigh, I was totally wet even after shower due to extensive perspiration. Shhhhhhhh...... Better than nothing lah!
Can't wait for another 7 days .... Gosh...
Anyway, I brought in all the necessity with me to a wonderful shower and the best hair wash ever. mmm~ smell nice! I was a little skeptical about the "Wind" will penetrate into our body and cause sickness at the later stage. Come on, who doesn't get sick at the older age? But in order to obtain the next chance of getting a perfect shower & hair wash, I better follow instruction closely. I was told to shower in HOT water, and drink a glass of HOT "Hong Zhou Dong Sam Shui" (Some Chinese herbs). Sigh, I was totally wet even after shower due to extensive perspiration. Shhhhhhhh...... Better than nothing lah!
Can't wait for another 7 days .... Gosh...
November 28, 2008
Medela Mini Electric & Fenugreek Seed for Lactation
Yeah, after a lengthy struggling with my Medela Electric Pump, I managed to pump 100ml of milk this morning. For the past few days, I was only striving for 40ml to 50ml maximum. The Pump of course playing a big part as it help to stimulate the milk duct since my baby is not able to suckle my sore nipples yet. This pump is very convenient, it can be operated by either batteries or electric cable. The suction can be adjusted accordingly. Very Very convenient. The down side of this pump is that it is very noisy and the motor is very fragile. I was told to handle with extra care, once it is dropped and broke, I can never repair it. Luckily, my Baby Chloe does not get affected by noise, so I can pump my breast milk while watching Baby Chloe sleep. Simple, Easy, Convenient!!!! 
However, I must say that other than the superb pump, Fenugreek Seed plays an important role which increases my breast milk.
It was a coincidence that hubby and I bumped into the Organic Shop when I was 7 months pregnant. The staff recommended the Fenugreek Seed to us for milk production. I was already planning to breastfeed my child, so without hesitation I bought the pack of Fenugreek seed. I was a little doubting then, and I actually chucked it aside after I brought it. Haha.
I was desperate for Breast Milk, so I started taking the Fenugreek Seed Drink two days ago. It is a herb used by Indians. Fenugreek seed is now introduced to nursing mothers to increase inadequate breast milk supply. Fenugreek is a stimulator of breast milk production and I read from internet that it actually able to increases in milk production of as much as 900%. Fenugreek is also currently an alternatives medication for diabetes. In recent research, fenugreek seeds were experimentally shown to protect against breast cancer.
Just after two days, it doubles up my breast milk for my baby. :)
It was a coincidence that hubby and I bumped into the Organic Shop when I was 7 months pregnant. The staff recommended the Fenugreek Seed to us for milk production. I was already planning to breastfeed my child, so without hesitation I bought the pack of Fenugreek seed. I was a little doubting then, and I actually chucked it aside after I brought it. Haha.
I was desperate for Breast Milk, so I started taking the Fenugreek Seed Drink two days ago. It is a herb used by Indians. Fenugreek seed is now introduced to nursing mothers to increase inadequate breast milk supply. Fenugreek is a stimulator of breast milk production and I read from internet that it actually able to increases in milk production of as much as 900%. Fenugreek is also currently an alternatives medication for diabetes. In recent research, fenugreek seeds were experimentally shown to protect against breast cancer.
Just after two days, it doubles up my breast milk for my baby. :)
November 26, 2008
Crystal Pink Urine
Oh My God. I saw "Blood" in Baby Chloe's urine. I couldn't control myself but to burst in tears and call my mum immediately for help. My mum rushed back home from office and sent us to the Clinic.
Before I get to see Dr. Patrick, the nurse told me that my baby is not weigh 3.25Kgs. This even got into my nerves and started to panic. Kept asking myself why why why? Why Baby lost weight just in 5 days old? What happened? The nurse saw my panicking face, and immediately comfort me not to worry so much. Fluctuation of Weight for baby is very common, especially newborn. Some gained a lot of weights, some lost weight. But She told me that my baby will gain her weight back eventually. Ya, but how come lost weight I thought.
Finally, we got our turn to see Dr. Patrick. I saw him the diaper that showed "Blood" in my baby's urine. He immediately said, "Don't worry, this is not blood. This is called Crystal Pink Urine. If it's blood, it should turn brownish by now. You see, it is still pinkish. Don't worry, this is very common in babies." Dr. Patrick told me that this is due to lack of food intake. OH MY GOD? Did i starve my baby? Am I too stubborn to insist on feeding baby breastmilk even though I didn't have enough for her. Am I too stubborn to stop my mum from feeding her too much of Formula Milk? Was I too panaroid with after feeding formula, baby will not take my breastmilk anymore? It's all my fault. I told Dr. honestly that I forced baby to have breastmilk and trying to cut down on Formula. I feel slighly better when Dr. Patrick agreed with my decision. He said breastmilk is the best food for babies. Nothing can replace it, not even the best Formula. He repeatedly advised me to be patient and persistent with the breastfeeding concept. Unfornately I still can't breastfeed directly as my sore nipples are not healed yet. Dr. Patrick re-assure me that the pumped breast milk is still better than any Formula in town. He advised that I shouldn start breastfeed her directly once my nipples are healed.
What a frightening day! RM50 of Consultation Fees resolved my day.
Before I get to see Dr. Patrick, the nurse told me that my baby is not weigh 3.25Kgs. This even got into my nerves and started to panic. Kept asking myself why why why? Why Baby lost weight just in 5 days old? What happened? The nurse saw my panicking face, and immediately comfort me not to worry so much. Fluctuation of Weight for baby is very common, especially newborn. Some gained a lot of weights, some lost weight. But She told me that my baby will gain her weight back eventually. Ya, but how come lost weight I thought.
Finally, we got our turn to see Dr. Patrick. I saw him the diaper that showed "Blood" in my baby's urine. He immediately said, "Don't worry, this is not blood. This is called Crystal Pink Urine. If it's blood, it should turn brownish by now. You see, it is still pinkish. Don't worry, this is very common in babies." Dr. Patrick told me that this is due to lack of food intake. OH MY GOD? Did i starve my baby? Am I too stubborn to insist on feeding baby breastmilk even though I didn't have enough for her. Am I too stubborn to stop my mum from feeding her too much of Formula Milk? Was I too panaroid with after feeding formula, baby will not take my breastmilk anymore? It's all my fault. I told Dr. honestly that I forced baby to have breastmilk and trying to cut down on Formula. I feel slighly better when Dr. Patrick agreed with my decision. He said breastmilk is the best food for babies. Nothing can replace it, not even the best Formula. He repeatedly advised me to be patient and persistent with the breastfeeding concept. Unfornately I still can't breastfeed directly as my sore nipples are not healed yet. Dr. Patrick re-assure me that the pumped breast milk is still better than any Formula in town. He advised that I shouldn start breastfeed her directly once my nipples are healed.
What a frightening day! RM50 of Consultation Fees resolved my day.
November 25, 2008
2nd Day of my Confinement
Confinement is something that i fear - Ginger, Rice Wine, Sweat, No Shower, No hair wash, Constipation, Hemorrhoids, 5 Meals a day etc. All that I heard from friends.... Scary ~
No matter how many times I told my mum that I want to cut down on ginger, my mum stubbornly insisted that I must consume enough Ginger to let out my "wind". Knowing that she spent so much effort to stay back home to cook for me, I ate my meal reluctantly in order not to disappoint her. Baby Chloe is a little "yellow", and I read that I should not consume any ginger if my baby has jaundice. By the way, I am trying my best to breastfeed my child. Sigh... Confinement!
To be honest, my mum is not so traditional as others. I think because she did not follow exactly during her own confinement. So, she is very lenient as compared to others. She allows me to take fruits, hehe, I had two apples today. She used brown rice instead of high carbo white rice. Her cooking is tasty and yet not so oily. She also allows me to drink boiled water. Enough fluid is very important for me otherwise I will get sick and unable pump milk for my baby. I also get to shower and hair wash on my 7th day which I have negotiated for quite a while. Already can't wait for the day to come.
My both nipples are sore since the 3rd day, maybe I didn't latch baby properly causing baby suckle at the wrong angle. Well, both are sore and slightly bleeding, and hubby immediately bought me an electric pump for me to enable baby to enjoy the benefit of breast milk.
Today is my first day of using the electric pump but I couldn't pump anything yet. Feel a little upset that I can't provide milk for my baby. I have no choice but to feed baby temporaly S26 Gold Formula Milk. :(
No matter how many times I told my mum that I want to cut down on ginger, my mum stubbornly insisted that I must consume enough Ginger to let out my "wind". Knowing that she spent so much effort to stay back home to cook for me, I ate my meal reluctantly in order not to disappoint her. Baby Chloe is a little "yellow", and I read that I should not consume any ginger if my baby has jaundice. By the way, I am trying my best to breastfeed my child. Sigh... Confinement!
To be honest, my mum is not so traditional as others. I think because she did not follow exactly during her own confinement. So, she is very lenient as compared to others. She allows me to take fruits, hehe, I had two apples today. She used brown rice instead of high carbo white rice. Her cooking is tasty and yet not so oily. She also allows me to drink boiled water. Enough fluid is very important for me otherwise I will get sick and unable pump milk for my baby. I also get to shower and hair wash on my 7th day which I have negotiated for quite a while. Already can't wait for the day to come.
My both nipples are sore since the 3rd day, maybe I didn't latch baby properly causing baby suckle at the wrong angle. Well, both are sore and slightly bleeding, and hubby immediately bought me an electric pump for me to enable baby to enjoy the benefit of breast milk.
Today is my first day of using the electric pump but I couldn't pump anything yet. Feel a little upset that I can't provide milk for my baby. I have no choice but to feed baby temporaly S26 Gold Formula Milk. :(
November 24, 2008
D-Attack
Surprise Surprise Surprise. My Baby Chloe surprised us on the 22nd November 2008, she is two weeks early. Maybe she knows that her MaMa no longer hold the weights.
It's all started on the 21st November 2008 about 11.00pm while Hubby and Andrew were watching Planet of the Apes. It felt like the menstrual pain that attacked me every month, and the pain was mild. Further to that it was irregular, the pain lasted for one minute and gone. I notified Hubby about the contraction and he started to note down the contraction time. The pain lasted for one minutes and gone for 20 minutes or so. Maybe Hubby was too into his Planet of the Apes, he stopped timing my contraction pain and concluded that it was a Braxton Hicks (False Alarm). But the contraction continues irregularly until the next morning before dawn, and the pain increased but is bearable. I tried to wake Hubby up and let him know about my pain, he ignored me and said "Bi, Your tolerance level is lousy! Go to Sleep and don't complain! ". I was so angry and started crying alone with the irregular contraction. I sort of convinced myself that this is a false alarm because my due date is two weeks away.
I managed the contraction using lamaze breathing that I have learned from antenatal course that we have attended. It somehow worked quite well, and I managed to go through the night until the next morning without any sleep. The contraction was bothering me still and my "Darling Hubby" was in deep sleep and totally ignored me. My mum saw me acting abnormally and she insisted that I should go to the hospital immediately even though it might be a false alarm.
Initially I was a little stubborn and told my mum that the contraction is irregular, it should be a false alarm and I shouldn't rush to the hospital. During the antenatal course, they mentioned that the contraction should be regular otherwise there is no point to rush to hospital as they will send you home anyway. Therefore, I decided to call up the my gynae to make sure before any move. Well, my mum was right, the gynae said he couldn't tell whether or not it was a false alarm but I should immediately go to his clinic first.
My mum sent me to the clinic and Dr. Ravi confirmed that I was already 3cm dilated and I should be admitted to the labour room immediately. I was happy and excited, gosh, good girl I thought, My Baby Chloe is coming to see us anytime soon. Finally, my "deary" husband realised that "IT WAS NOT A FALSE ALARM AND HIS BABY IS COMING SOON". I didn't want to inform him but I had no choice, I needed him to register for me because he got the "Yellow Card" which we have pre-registered earlier on. Besides, second thought, I need him to be with me to go through the labour, I was not confidence enough to go through it alone. HaHa..Anyway
I was admitted to the labour room at about 11.00am. I was given a rob to change and I was put on the bed with my belly attached with devices to track baby's heart beats and my contraction movement.
The Midwives and Nurses there were very helpful. They came into explained everything to us and assured us that everything will be taken care of as long as I request for it. They also explained to us that I have three choices of pain management :
1) Epidural
2) Pain Killer
3) "Laughing Gas"
It was about 1pm, I couldn't decide which to go for, and I was advise to wait and see since I was able to take the pain at that time. The actual pain started at about 2pm and all the while I was using breathing to control the pain. However, to be honest, at that time my breathing technique gone a little haywired. The afternoon shift Midwife, Sharon, came in and suggested that I have already dilated about 6cm, so I should opt for the pain killer. Again, the painkiller jab didn't lasted long and as the contracted became more regular and noticeable. Hubby was by my side all along and helped me with the breathing. Painkiller was not good enough, I combined it with the gas. I wasn't sure whether the pain was too prominent or the gas was not effective at all, I felt the contraction so much that I totally lost control of myself, starting whining a lot. Luckily, Hubby guided me through with the breathing. Finally, the actual labour started and ended within half an hour. I was half dead at that time as the gas was making me very dizzy. All I know that my girl was right in front of me, I could not use any words to describe the joy and happiness to hold my child in my arm. Happy tears came and baby was carried away for cleaning and diagnose.
I was so glad that everything is over, and all I can say that all the complains that I made earlier on and all the pain that I gone through, it is all nothing compare to having your baby right in your arms.
Happy Birthday, Baby Chloe. 22/11/2008.
It's all started on the 21st November 2008 about 11.00pm while Hubby and Andrew were watching Planet of the Apes. It felt like the menstrual pain that attacked me every month, and the pain was mild. Further to that it was irregular, the pain lasted for one minute and gone. I notified Hubby about the contraction and he started to note down the contraction time. The pain lasted for one minutes and gone for 20 minutes or so. Maybe Hubby was too into his Planet of the Apes, he stopped timing my contraction pain and concluded that it was a Braxton Hicks (False Alarm). But the contraction continues irregularly until the next morning before dawn, and the pain increased but is bearable. I tried to wake Hubby up and let him know about my pain, he ignored me and said "Bi, Your tolerance level is lousy! Go to Sleep and don't complain! ". I was so angry and started crying alone with the irregular contraction. I sort of convinced myself that this is a false alarm because my due date is two weeks away.
I managed the contraction using lamaze breathing that I have learned from antenatal course that we have attended. It somehow worked quite well, and I managed to go through the night until the next morning without any sleep. The contraction was bothering me still and my "Darling Hubby" was in deep sleep and totally ignored me. My mum saw me acting abnormally and she insisted that I should go to the hospital immediately even though it might be a false alarm.
Initially I was a little stubborn and told my mum that the contraction is irregular, it should be a false alarm and I shouldn't rush to the hospital. During the antenatal course, they mentioned that the contraction should be regular otherwise there is no point to rush to hospital as they will send you home anyway. Therefore, I decided to call up the my gynae to make sure before any move. Well, my mum was right, the gynae said he couldn't tell whether or not it was a false alarm but I should immediately go to his clinic first.
My mum sent me to the clinic and Dr. Ravi confirmed that I was already 3cm dilated and I should be admitted to the labour room immediately. I was happy and excited, gosh, good girl I thought, My Baby Chloe is coming to see us anytime soon. Finally, my "deary" husband realised that "IT WAS NOT A FALSE ALARM AND HIS BABY IS COMING SOON". I didn't want to inform him but I had no choice, I needed him to register for me because he got the "Yellow Card" which we have pre-registered earlier on. Besides, second thought, I need him to be with me to go through the labour, I was not confidence enough to go through it alone. HaHa..Anyway
I was admitted to the labour room at about 11.00am. I was given a rob to change and I was put on the bed with my belly attached with devices to track baby's heart beats and my contraction movement.
The Midwives and Nurses there were very helpful. They came into explained everything to us and assured us that everything will be taken care of as long as I request for it. They also explained to us that I have three choices of pain management :
1) Epidural
2) Pain Killer
3) "Laughing Gas"
It was about 1pm, I couldn't decide which to go for, and I was advise to wait and see since I was able to take the pain at that time. The actual pain started at about 2pm and all the while I was using breathing to control the pain. However, to be honest, at that time my breathing technique gone a little haywired. The afternoon shift Midwife, Sharon, came in and suggested that I have already dilated about 6cm, so I should opt for the pain killer. Again, the painkiller jab didn't lasted long and as the contracted became more regular and noticeable. Hubby was by my side all along and helped me with the breathing. Painkiller was not good enough, I combined it with the gas. I wasn't sure whether the pain was too prominent or the gas was not effective at all, I felt the contraction so much that I totally lost control of myself, starting whining a lot. Luckily, Hubby guided me through with the breathing. Finally, the actual labour started and ended within half an hour. I was half dead at that time as the gas was making me very dizzy. All I know that my girl was right in front of me, I could not use any words to describe the joy and happiness to hold my child in my arm. Happy tears came and baby was carried away for cleaning and diagnose.
I was so glad that everything is over, and all I can say that all the complains that I made earlier on and all the pain that I gone through, it is all nothing compare to having your baby right in your arms.
Happy Birthday, Baby Chloe. 22/11/2008.
1st Day at Home - I am 3 days old.
Baby Chloe says:
Today is my first day back at home. I can see PorPor, TaiPor, PaPa, MaMa, WowWow and Kakak(s). MaMa still feeling unwell or inexperience to handle Baby Chloe, therefore, PorPor is the one who take care of me. I feel very warm at home, especially the long awaited Nursery, I love it so much. Everything is so well prepared and Baby Chloe feels so comfortable living in a beautiful place. Thank you, PaPa.
Sorry, MaMa. Baby Chloe didn't mean to hurt you the last two days. It was first experience learning how to suckle. I know MaMa is trying very hard to breastfeed Baby Chloe so that I can be healthy. MaMa, take a rest first la. I will learn better.
I am Home!
Today is my first day back at home. I can see PorPor, TaiPor, PaPa, MaMa, WowWow and Kakak(s). MaMa still feeling unwell or inexperience to handle Baby Chloe, therefore, PorPor is the one who take care of me. I feel very warm at home, especially the long awaited Nursery, I love it so much. Everything is so well prepared and Baby Chloe feels so comfortable living in a beautiful place. Thank you, PaPa.
Sorry, MaMa. Baby Chloe didn't mean to hurt you the last two days. It was first experience learning how to suckle. I know MaMa is trying very hard to breastfeed Baby Chloe so that I can be healthy. MaMa, take a rest first la. I will learn better.
I am Home!
November 20, 2008
Diarrhea during Pregnancy
Being pregnant is already a tough task, with diarrhea it makes everything seems like never ending suffering. Couldn't sleep properly, couldn't eat properly, stomachache, vomitting etc. Uncontrollably, tears burst out and started to complain to hubby. Unfortunately, Hubby is also sick. What a day. He couldn't even take care of himself. Kept on telling me that he needed rest, he couldn't move, he felt sick, ached everywhere etc etc etc. HELP~!
November 18, 2008
Engaging!
Baby Chloe says:
PaPa always asked Baby to engage, engage, engage. Every nights, i hear this word "engage" but PaPa a, what does it mean? Does it mean that I have to put my head into MaMa's pelvic bone? PaPa, baby doesn't know how to do it a, but I will try again la. Sorry to disappoint you today. Dr. Ravi told you that I have not engaged yet. Give me another week, I will try again la.
PaPa always asked Baby to engage, engage, engage. Every nights, i hear this word "engage" but PaPa a, what does it mean? Does it mean that I have to put my head into MaMa's pelvic bone? PaPa, baby doesn't know how to do it a, but I will try again la. Sorry to disappoint you today. Dr. Ravi told you that I have not engaged yet. Give me another week, I will try again la.
November 17, 2008
18 Days to D-Day
Counting down is making the D-day seems further and further away. Even strangers on the street can tell from my facial expression and body language that "I can't wait for my baby to come". I have been getting this comment from strangers lately. It's weird and yet exciting.
Being pregnant is a joyous thing but also a difficult task as the process involved major physical changes and emotional instability. I have to talk myself over to accept these comments like "You are Big!", "How come you are so fat?" "Did you wife become uglier during her pregnancy?" "Why you walk with your legs apart?" "Why you look so......" Well, to be honest, it is really not easy to accept all these harsh comments. They just made me feel depressed sometimes. Other than these comments, the "everlasting" marks keep on expanding from the inner tummy to the outer ring. My staffs looked at me like a monster when i could actually finished my portion of food, and giggled outside the pantry. And, I overheard them saying "Wah, Chris' appetite is like a monster!" Gosh, How can I not wish the D-day to be here NOW and get over with all these marks and comments. Emotionally, I have to go through all these craps and forcing myself to laugh it away. Physically, I have to go through the increasing weights of my tummy and breasts which slow down my mobility. Come on, Who goes to the toilet 5 times in one night!?
I started to resent being pregnant when I was week 33. I started to worry and start telling my hubby about my feeling towards my baby. Well, he is a man and he is not going through what I am going through so I do not blame him for not reacting to my complains and worries. Then, I seek alternative - and my only choice - my mother. She told me I cannot put all the blames to my baby, this is the process that every mother has to go through. She told me to be patient and I won't feel all these nonsenses once I see my baby healthily smiling at me.
I am not angry at my baby nor am I resent her existence. I love her so much and I can't wait to see her. These mixture of feeling love and resentment just made me confused. I want Baby Chloe and I love her but the process of it just made me feel a little disheartening sometimes. There is no one that you can share all these feelings, especially when your good friends also unintentionally hurt you with their honest comments sometimes.
Nevertheless, I want to see my baby, I want to love her, kiss her, hold her, feed her, dress her, bath her, play with her, read to her......
Other than myself feeling "can't wait for the baby to come", my hubby is also very thrilled. He's playing with the stroller every now and then, making sure the stroller works properly. He's stroking my tummy every night and get close to my tummy "Baby, go find mummy's pelvic bone and sit with your crown there and prepare to come out la" Frankly, when hubby openly showed his excitement of baby's arrival, it just made me feel everything is worth it.
Being pregnant is a joyous thing but also a difficult task as the process involved major physical changes and emotional instability. I have to talk myself over to accept these comments like "You are Big!", "How come you are so fat?" "Did you wife become uglier during her pregnancy?" "Why you walk with your legs apart?" "Why you look so......" Well, to be honest, it is really not easy to accept all these harsh comments. They just made me feel depressed sometimes. Other than these comments, the "everlasting" marks keep on expanding from the inner tummy to the outer ring. My staffs looked at me like a monster when i could actually finished my portion of food, and giggled outside the pantry. And, I overheard them saying "Wah, Chris' appetite is like a monster!" Gosh, How can I not wish the D-day to be here NOW and get over with all these marks and comments. Emotionally, I have to go through all these craps and forcing myself to laugh it away. Physically, I have to go through the increasing weights of my tummy and breasts which slow down my mobility. Come on, Who goes to the toilet 5 times in one night!?
I started to resent being pregnant when I was week 33. I started to worry and start telling my hubby about my feeling towards my baby. Well, he is a man and he is not going through what I am going through so I do not blame him for not reacting to my complains and worries. Then, I seek alternative - and my only choice - my mother. She told me I cannot put all the blames to my baby, this is the process that every mother has to go through. She told me to be patient and I won't feel all these nonsenses once I see my baby healthily smiling at me.
I am not angry at my baby nor am I resent her existence. I love her so much and I can't wait to see her. These mixture of feeling love and resentment just made me confused. I want Baby Chloe and I love her but the process of it just made me feel a little disheartening sometimes. There is no one that you can share all these feelings, especially when your good friends also unintentionally hurt you with their honest comments sometimes.
Nevertheless, I want to see my baby, I want to love her, kiss her, hold her, feed her, dress her, bath her, play with her, read to her......
Other than myself feeling "can't wait for the baby to come", my hubby is also very thrilled. He's playing with the stroller every now and then, making sure the stroller works properly. He's stroking my tummy every night and get close to my tummy "Baby, go find mummy's pelvic bone and sit with your crown there and prepare to come out la" Frankly, when hubby openly showed his excitement of baby's arrival, it just made me feel everything is worth it.
November 12, 2008
Week 37
I have been counting for the D-day to come, and it has finally getting closer and closer for me to meet my baby. Just went to visit my gynae yesterday, 11/11/2008, which is also an important date that Hubby and I have marked the journey of our very first happy marriage year. Dr. Ravi told me that my baby's weight is approximately 3.3kilo, and he also mentioned that this baby size is slightly bigger than average especially for my size. I started to worry, and so many things pops up my minds. Dr. Ravi told me that it is still early to judge whether I need to go for a C-Section or not. He said give it another 7 or 10 days to see how baby's crown can engaged into my pelvic bone. Dr. Ravi is a very careful person and he didn't want to mention too much, he advised me to relax, just wait and see till the last minute. We can never know what will happen eventually.
I was a little upset after knowing that baby's size is slight bigger than average. I know, it is a good sign that my darling is healthy and developing very well. Dr. Ravi also keeps on mentioning baby's development is very good and healthy. I love to hear that and I am ecstatic, happy, excited, delighted, most joyous to know the fact that I have a healthy baby. However, I couldn't stop myself from thinking about what will happen on the actual D-day. I want a natural birth if it's permitted, I want to minimise the tear if it's possible, I want to avoid epidural if I can take it, I want PaPa to enjoy with me for the process of my baby's birth. If it's a C-section, PaPa is no longer involved in the process, well, he can but I don't think it is appropriate anymore. So many ifs popped out and made me slightly moody for the whole afternoon.
No matter what it is, the most important issue is still the health of baby. I want her to be healthy and happy. I don't care whether I can make it through natural birth or by C-section, I don't care how severe my stretch marks can be, I don't care how much fats I have to gained, all I care is my baby.
Relax and let it comes naturally and everything will turn out what it is suppose to be eventually.
3 More weeks to go, and I can't wait to see baby Chloe.
Baby Chloe, PaPa and MaMa are ready to bring baby home to our one happy big family. Love you.
I was a little upset after knowing that baby's size is slight bigger than average. I know, it is a good sign that my darling is healthy and developing very well. Dr. Ravi also keeps on mentioning baby's development is very good and healthy. I love to hear that and I am ecstatic, happy, excited, delighted, most joyous to know the fact that I have a healthy baby. However, I couldn't stop myself from thinking about what will happen on the actual D-day. I want a natural birth if it's permitted, I want to minimise the tear if it's possible, I want to avoid epidural if I can take it, I want PaPa to enjoy with me for the process of my baby's birth. If it's a C-section, PaPa is no longer involved in the process, well, he can but I don't think it is appropriate anymore. So many ifs popped out and made me slightly moody for the whole afternoon.
No matter what it is, the most important issue is still the health of baby. I want her to be healthy and happy. I don't care whether I can make it through natural birth or by C-section, I don't care how severe my stretch marks can be, I don't care how much fats I have to gained, all I care is my baby.
Relax and let it comes naturally and everything will turn out what it is suppose to be eventually.
3 More weeks to go, and I can't wait to see baby Chloe.
Baby Chloe, PaPa and MaMa are ready to bring baby home to our one happy big family. Love you.
November 9, 2008
Stretch Marks
OMG, The Stretch Marks getting severe every day. I've tried many creams & oils to apply on my bump, but it just doesn't seem to help at all. Everytimes, I looked at bump on th mirror, the scars just made me feel really unhappy. I have to talk to myself each time and convince myself that it is worth it.
I am the unlucky one whose skin doesn't have enough elascity to get away from the terrfying stretch mark. My gynae told me that there is nothing that i can do about it except keep applying the so called strech mark cream (which doesnt work on me at all).
I started to get the stretch mark on my week 33 and within 3 weeks, which is week 36, my bump grows rapidly and the stretech inevitably showing up. I can feel it with my eyes closed which stroking my bump. Gosh. They are not just stretch MARK, but when you touched it, it feels like wrinkles.
I just bougth the Baby Angel Strech Oil, which was highly recommended for stretch mark PREVENTION. Well, I have no choice but to purchase it to PREVENT further stretch mark. I went to many websites and bookstores to look up cure for strech marks. Haha..I was a little obsessed maybe, Infact there is no such thing as prevention if your skin cannot take the rapid grow or your skin doesn't have the elasticity. And, I just realised that the stretch mark will never disappear. It may only get lighter as times pass, and no laser or any treatment can get rid of the horrible stretch mark. The only thing that I can get rid of it is to go through a TUMMY TUCKING.
All I can wish now is to quickily see my baby face to face so that I can stop myself from thinking about the stretch marks and starts feeling all the sacrifices are worth it.
Baby Chloe..... Mama can't wait to see you.
I am the unlucky one whose skin doesn't have enough elascity to get away from the terrfying stretch mark. My gynae told me that there is nothing that i can do about it except keep applying the so called strech mark cream (which doesnt work on me at all).
I started to get the stretch mark on my week 33 and within 3 weeks, which is week 36, my bump grows rapidly and the stretech inevitably showing up. I can feel it with my eyes closed which stroking my bump. Gosh. They are not just stretch MARK, but when you touched it, it feels like wrinkles.
I just bougth the Baby Angel Strech Oil, which was highly recommended for stretch mark PREVENTION. Well, I have no choice but to purchase it to PREVENT further stretch mark. I went to many websites and bookstores to look up cure for strech marks. Haha..I was a little obsessed maybe, Infact there is no such thing as prevention if your skin cannot take the rapid grow or your skin doesn't have the elasticity. And, I just realised that the stretch mark will never disappear. It may only get lighter as times pass, and no laser or any treatment can get rid of the horrible stretch mark. The only thing that I can get rid of it is to go through a TUMMY TUCKING.
All I can wish now is to quickily see my baby face to face so that I can stop myself from thinking about the stretch marks and starts feeling all the sacrifices are worth it.
Baby Chloe..... Mama can't wait to see you.
November 7, 2008
Breast Feeding Reminder
Notes from Gleneagle Ms. Lee
(1) 8 Feeds a day
(2) Every Feed should be min 20 minutes to max 45 mins
(3) Burp Baby after every feed
(4) If possible breastfeed baby up to 6 months old
(5) 5 minutes massage for each breast before feed
(6) Should express breastmilk every 4 hours
(7) Keep Breastmilk in freezer can last up to 6 month. Thaw for 24 hour before feed
(8) Keep Breastmilk in Fridge can last 24-48 hours.
(9) Breastmilk can last maximum of 4 hours in Room Temperature.
(10) Recommended Nipple Cream : Lansinoh (Made of Sheep Fats)
(11) Recommended to buy Nursing Pillow to ease breastfeeding.
(12) Food to avoid : Black Bean, Cabbage, Brocolli & Guava
(13) Food to boost breastmilk : Papaya, White Fungus, Red Dates & Octopus
(1) 8 Feeds a day
(2) Every Feed should be min 20 minutes to max 45 mins
(3) Burp Baby after every feed
(4) If possible breastfeed baby up to 6 months old
(5) 5 minutes massage for each breast before feed
(6) Should express breastmilk every 4 hours
(7) Keep Breastmilk in freezer can last up to 6 month. Thaw for 24 hour before feed
(8) Keep Breastmilk in Fridge can last 24-48 hours.
(9) Breastmilk can last maximum of 4 hours in Room Temperature.
(10) Recommended Nipple Cream : Lansinoh (Made of Sheep Fats)
(11) Recommended to buy Nursing Pillow to ease breastfeeding.
(12) Food to avoid : Black Bean, Cabbage, Brocolli & Guava
(13) Food to boost breastmilk : Papaya, White Fungus, Red Dates & Octopus
November 3, 2008
PaPa is Home
Baby Chloe says:
PaPa is finally home with Baby Chloe & MaMa.
Last night, MaMa went out dinner with YehYeh & MahMah. We supposed to have Vegetarian for dinner in Bangsar Telawi 3 but YehYeh refused to dine at the restaurant as there were no customers dining at all. He insisted to leave and Mama suggested Alexis which is right opposite the Vegetarian Restaurant. While waiting for PaPa, MaMa also followed YehYeh & MahMah to visit PaPa's "SAM SAM" means Baby Chloe's ... ** Dunno how to address in the traditional way. Anyway, YehYeh is an inpatient man, we stayed for about half an hour and he rushed everyone home. MaMa ended up at MahMah's place waiting for PaPa's call lor.
PaPa waited 45 - 50 mins for his luggage. By the time PaPa bought his train ticket to Sentral, it was already 11.20pm. The train arrived KL Sentral Sharp at 11.50pm. MaMa & Baby Chloe saw PaPa walking towards us, and we felt excited? thrilled? emotional? dunno how to describe but overall we were both so happy to have PaPa back with us.
After picking up PaPa, We went to Tawakal for HOKKIEN NODDLE (*PaPa's fav, but cannot tell YehYeh because YehYeh sure nagged at him*).
By the time, we got home it was already 1.30am. After showering and 10 mins of F1 race, MaMa decided to bring Baby Chloe to bed and PaPa also followed. Finally, after one week of torturing. I can feel PaPa's giant hands stroking Baby Chloe, I can feel PaPa's beard poking MaMa's stomach while kissing Baby Chloe... Papa is home.
PaPa is finally home with Baby Chloe & MaMa.
Last night, MaMa went out dinner with YehYeh & MahMah. We supposed to have Vegetarian for dinner in Bangsar Telawi 3 but YehYeh refused to dine at the restaurant as there were no customers dining at all. He insisted to leave and Mama suggested Alexis which is right opposite the Vegetarian Restaurant. While waiting for PaPa, MaMa also followed YehYeh & MahMah to visit PaPa's "SAM SAM" means Baby Chloe's ... ** Dunno how to address in the traditional way. Anyway, YehYeh is an inpatient man, we stayed for about half an hour and he rushed everyone home. MaMa ended up at MahMah's place waiting for PaPa's call lor.
PaPa waited 45 - 50 mins for his luggage. By the time PaPa bought his train ticket to Sentral, it was already 11.20pm. The train arrived KL Sentral Sharp at 11.50pm. MaMa & Baby Chloe saw PaPa walking towards us, and we felt excited? thrilled? emotional? dunno how to describe but overall we were both so happy to have PaPa back with us.
After picking up PaPa, We went to Tawakal for HOKKIEN NODDLE (*PaPa's fav, but cannot tell YehYeh because YehYeh sure nagged at him*).
By the time, we got home it was already 1.30am. After showering and 10 mins of F1 race, MaMa decided to bring Baby Chloe to bed and PaPa also followed. Finally, after one week of torturing. I can feel PaPa's giant hands stroking Baby Chloe, I can feel PaPa's beard poking MaMa's stomach while kissing Baby Chloe... Papa is home.
November 2, 2008
PaPa is On his Way Home
Baby Chloe says:
By MaMa's estimation, PaPa should be arriving Dubai Airpot by 10.45am Malaysia Time, and Departing from Dubai to Home at 2.20pm Malaysia Time. Can't wait to see PaPa. MaMa is going to wait for PaPa to arrive Dubai so that PaPa can get online and chat with MaMa if he's not tired. MaMa is planning to go Midvalley after lunch to buy spectacles, Baby Chloe helps to search everywhere at home, bad news.
Guess what PaPa??? PorPor is cooking claypot chicken rice & salty vegetable tofu soup for lunch. Too bad you are not here to taste it. I am sure it is gonna be delicious. Yum Yum.
Waiting for PaPa to be Home!!! Excited!!!
By MaMa's estimation, PaPa should be arriving Dubai Airpot by 10.45am Malaysia Time, and Departing from Dubai to Home at 2.20pm Malaysia Time. Can't wait to see PaPa. MaMa is going to wait for PaPa to arrive Dubai so that PaPa can get online and chat with MaMa if he's not tired. MaMa is planning to go Midvalley after lunch to buy spectacles, Baby Chloe helps to search everywhere at home, bad news.
Guess what PaPa??? PorPor is cooking claypot chicken rice & salty vegetable tofu soup for lunch. Too bad you are not here to taste it. I am sure it is gonna be delicious. Yum Yum.
Waiting for PaPa to be Home!!! Excited!!!
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