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Photos Updates

2012-03-09T15:40:00.000+08:00

Last night, Clarisse said "MaMa, pou pou (carry) Clarisse take galsses."

MaMa complies with Clarisse's request, and she took the glasses and wore it on her own. Hahaha...look at it closely, the sunglasses is actually upside down. Cute Cute Cute~~

Then, JieJie Chloe took the sunglasses from Clarisse and said to her little sister "No, Wear Like this!" Hahahaa..

Saloon Haircut

2012-03-09T15:32:00.000+08:00

Last Sunday, after the Gymbo Class, MaMa sent Darling Clarisse for a haircut. I didn't expect we could make it as I was expecting a fuss from Clarisse. SURPRISINGLY, Darling Clarisse sat on the green "Truck" pretending to drive vigorously. The whole truck was practically rattling just like she was driving on the off-road terrains. Darling Clarisse will definitely be a 'fierce' and 'dangerous' JUST like PaPa. *sigh* MaMa has to educate Clarisse from now on, otherwise... *sigh* Anyway, As Clarisse was reveling in her '4x4' driving experience, the Pretty Hairdresser started to trim Clarisse's Hair at her back, then slowly moving to the front. Of course, Clarisse was no longer shaking the Truck during the HairCut, She sat still with her eye opened wide, waiting for the Haircut to end.

Ta Ta!!! This is Darling Clarisse's New Haircut. Leng Leng Mou?

I remembered when I was 10 or younger, my mum always brought my along to the saloon when she was going for Haircut. Since I was waiting, Mum always got the Shampoo girl to give me a wash & blow. At that time, those Shampoo girls always said to me " You are so blessed. You are already enjoying the luxury of wash & blow at your young age." Well, honestly, I didn't understand what luxury that they are talking about. It was just a WASH & BLOW ma..... Now, Looking at my own daughter, sitting on a special designed Haircut "TRUCK Seat" having a SPLENDID Haircut and a Hair Blow at this age of 18 months. Gosh...... :P Well, I used the cut Chloe's hair, but PaPa said it was ugly. So, this time round, he insisted to bring Clarisse to the Saloon for a cut instead. Hahahaha....

Ballet Class

2012-03-09T15:08:00.000+08:00

A While ago, MaMa found a Ah Yi's Ballet Conert's VCD. MaMa played it for Chloe & Clarisse, and they love it so much. Since then, Chloe told MaMa that she wants to be like Ah Yi and Ballerina Angelina. Haha...Then, MaMa promised Chloe to send her for Ballet Classes.

At that time, "Jean Gan" would take her because to attend baby ballet must be aged 3-years and above. Finally, she turned 3 few months back but she fall sick frequently and she just started schooling, so I didn't want to stress her out too much.

One day, Chloe was watching Ballerina Angelina again and she spinned just like a pirouette and said, " MaMa, Look. Chloe is like Ah Yi, like Ballerina Angelina." I guess there is no more excuse for MaMa to delay further. Immediately, I checked out the Schedule with Jean Gan and there she goes at the Ballet Class learning the real pirouette (errr....Soon???!!!). My girl is no longer a BABY baby. Hahaha...She is my BIG baby now!

Clarisse is now 17 months old

2012-02-29T13:37:00.000+08:00

Wow, My Baby is already 17 months now. I used to describe her as a "Cool" girl as it was very difficult to make her smile. This is not the case anymore, Jie Jie Chloe has been doing a good job and get our Baby Clarisse laugh a lot lately. TODAY, MaMa would describe Baby Clarisse as a fun and cheeky little girl.

As I mentioned before, she is still the INDEPENDENT girl. She always like to do things in her own way and all by herself, she doesn't want anyone to disturb her.

At this age, she is able to chew everything properly and not choked (like her Jie Jie Chloe). She doesn't like to be fed, she like to eat her food on her own, and honestly I absolutely LOVE her decision of eating on her own, so that I can get the chance to enjoy my meal. :P Sigh, unfortunately, Chloe dear is still very very very pampered (manja), she is already 3+ and yet she always want MaMa or KaKak to feed her. Even when she decides to eat on her own, I can't never get my eyes off her because she tends to make a mess with her food, and the worst part is that she touches her face, hair, shirt, pants, everywhere with her oily and dirty hands. Ewwww.... Baby Clarisse is totally the opposite. Baby Clarisse would usually complain if her hands are dirty, so that we can clean for her. Well, Chloe does that too WHEN HER MOOD IS GOOD! :P

MaMa thinks Chloe is a great influence to Clarisse. Chloe cheers Clarisse up, teaches her what she learns and what she knows to Clarisse. That's why Clarisse can sing now. She can sing almost a full song of ABC, parts of twinkle twinkle little stars, itsy bitsy spider, I Love You song etc etc. Clarisse loves to dance. These two little girls would turn on the music on their mini electric keyboard and start dancing happily with lots of laughter.

Clarisse loves to eat CHEESE. Whenever she sees MaMa in the kitchen, she would go to the Fridge and ask for CHEESE! CHEESE! CHEESE!

Clarisse can speak quite well now, she learning colors - Blue, Green, Pink, Red.. I can see she loves PINK and GREEN alot because these are the colors she mentioned MOST.

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Darling Clarisse,

MaMa loves the way you laugh. Your laughter is like Sunshine, and MaMa love SUNSHINE!

MaMa wants to spend more time with Clarisse, to play, to read, to dance....whatever you like to do. Of course, Jie Jie Chloe loves Mui Mui Clarisse a lot too. She will be with you always and MaMa hope that you and Jie Jie can take care of each other.

Love,

MaMa

Photos

2012-02-29T13:12:00.000+08:00

Ready for Baby Ballet

2012-02-29T12:32:00.000+08:00

Chloe : Do I look pretty in my Ballet Attire? Yes! I love Ballet.

Clarisse : MaMa, I want. I want. I want to Dance too.

Loving Sisters, HAPPY MaMa.

Chloe : Clarisse is so YUMMY!

Clarisse : JieJie, Please don't bite Clarisse.

Chloe's Hanky

2012-02-29T12:10:00.000+08:00

This is Chloe's New Hello Kitty Hanky. So Cute!

LOST - will being a little superstitious helps my child?

2012-02-15T15:10:00.000+08:00

Chloe's sick diary started since she was 6 months old. Till date, she still fall sick frequently. It is so frequent that I am getting really worried.

She fell sick on early dec for ONE whole week due to tonsillitis.

Then it came to early Jan - It was again tonsillitis

Followed by End Jan - It was once again tonsillitis.

Early Feb - Fever again but not tonsillitis, mild flu

She had just recovered from her fever 2 days ago, and once again her fever is back last night with 39 deg C.

Her fever always hit so high that I can never have a peaceful mind. Her fever is disturbing my mind so badly that I cannot concentrate with whatever I do.

Last week, I went to see the specialist - pediatric, I went to see a neighborhood GP, I went to the Chinese Herbs Store bought lots of Herbal Teas, I went to see Chinese Doctor, I recited more than 20 times of Great Compassion Mantra last night......

Do I need to go to the extent to pray at those Taoist Temple to get "Fu Shui" for healing? Goshhhhh...........

Dr. Patrick recommended tonsillectomy (tonsil removal) so that Chloe doesn't need to suffer from falling sick frequently. Or, I should just go visit the ENT specialist for advise? I really do not want to put Chloe under the knife at such young age.

Chinese Doctor recommended 1 year of chinese medication to reduce the tonsil problem.

I am so LOST. What is best for my child? What should I do? Sigh

Happy Valentines Day

2012-02-15T14:54:00.000+08:00

When it is least expected, the unexpected surprised me on this "not so special day".

Since the very first day that I met him, he never celebrated any Valentines Day with me because he doesn't believe in it. I had never received any gifts, flowers or even an arranged candle-light dinner on Valentines Day because it means nothing to him but a deceitful occasional for consumers to have more reasons to spend.

Anyway, I had a surprised "Happy Valentines Day!" wishes from him in the morning. That was sweet enough as I didn't expect any wishes from him. I thought why not we just have a simple dinner outside since he just came back from his business trip. I casually asked, "So, dinner tonight?"

"See first." He replied, as expected. He likes to answer "see first", "let you know later", "decide later" which I have to make myself available whether it is gonna happen or not.

Anyway, I thought it is ok if there won't be any dinner, I will just ask my friend out for dinner or simply go back home for dinner. I have become wiser after years of struggling to accept the fact that there is no Valentines Day for me.

Approaching evening, I called him, wanted to see how I can arrange a dinner together with my friend since I have not seen her for a while.

He took me with another surprise by telling me that he had made a booking for dinner somewhere.

He picked me up from my office @ 7.30pm and we had our Valentines Dinner @ Chez Rose @ Damansara Height serving delicious Austrian Cuisine.

The day didn't end perfectly as we received a call from home that Chloe is sick again. She had just recovered from her fever 2 days ago, and she is sick again. She has been sick for 6 times in 3 months. The gap of her falling sick is getting closer. It was once a month, then it came twice a month, and now, it is only weekly basis. The thought of Chloe being sick is put off the mood instantly. we gobbled up our main course, and checked the bill even without the dessert.

Anyway, it was an indeed HAPPY VALENTINES DAY for me even though it didn't end perfectly.

Thank you.

Lion Dance

2012-02-09T12:55:00.000+08:00

On the 8th Day of Chinese New Year, which is said to be the auspicious day to be back to work, we had a Lion Dance Session at the office to mark the first day of Work.

MaMa told Chloe how excited I am to see the Traditional Lion Dance. My purpose was to lure her to be as excited as I was so that she would attempt to join me to experience the Lion Dance.

Chloe never like Lion Dance, and she is totally afraid of it. Before she can reach the actual scene, she would be frightened off by just hearing the sound of the drums and cymbals. Papa attempted many times to bring her closer so that she can have a good look at it. Due to her first "EXTREMELY frightening" experience (thanks to Papa), she always keep a distance away from the Chinese Traditional Lion Costume/Display at the Shopping Mall. She would stay to scream if I ever get closer to the Display (@ Tangs, that's why I never get into Tangs during the CNY).

Anyway, before I left home, I thought I tried to ASK both girls if they would like to join me at the office for the Lion Dance Performance. I didn't expect a "YES: reply from them, that's why both of them were still in their pajamas.

Suprisingly, Chloe told MaMa that she wants to follow MaMa to work for the Lion Dance Performance. I was delighted to hear it as it is a good start to break her fear of the Chinese Cultural Lion Dance Performance.

They were both changed into white dresses and followed MaMa to Work. On the way to MaMa's workplace, MaMa was trying to find a way to introduce Lion Dance to Clarisse. First, Clarrise is two years younger and she has never approached to such extend of "Noise"/ Sound from the drums and cymbals. And this is what happened. In spite of Clarisse's younger age, Clarisse is nevertheless a more receptive? adventurous? daring? whichever words to describe her, what I wanted to say I don't' expect her to like the Performance and the Noise, but I don't expect her to scream an cry like Chloe.

Anyway, let's see what happened!

Chinese Traditional Lion Dance Performance at MaMa's Desk, on the 8th of Chinese New Year, 2012. It resembles a good start of work, to bring "ONG" (a.k.a Good Luck) at works.

Clarisse reacted calm, and she never loose sight of the Chinese Cultural Lion. Even though she did not show any excitement on her facial expression, she remained calm and a good girl for the whole performance.

Let's see How Chloe reacted?

Hahahahahahahaa.......

Sorry, Can't help it. I really find it very funny till now.

Dear Chloe , It is just a imitation Lion. MaMa already told you that they are not going to bite you or hurt you. Don't Cry!

No matter how many times MaMa ensures Chloe that the lion will not hurt her because MaMa will be there for her at all times, but still when I tried to get closer to the Lion Dance for the photo shooting.....It is needless for me to describe, please look the photo.

Well, I must agree and praise Chloe for her improvement. She can now keep 5ft away from the lion, and view the performance with LESS fear. After the event, She proudly showed the Lion Dance Video to Clarisse, to Novi, to Grandma, to her little friends. She admitted to everyone that she was afraid of the Lion Dance, but she said she would want to view the performance again next time. She added, PaPa or MaMa must HOLD her tight during the performance. Hahahahaha.....

2012 Year of Dragon

2012-01-29T01:05:00.001+08:00

Today marks the Seventh Day of Chinese New Year, MaMa wishes everyone a Properous Dragon Year with endless happiness. Great Wealth and most importantly Great Health. Gong Hey Fatt Choy! Gong Xi Fa Cai!

2012 Dragon gave and is continuing to give MaMa a great learning year. Honestly, MaMa did not have a happy start at the beginning of this Dragon Year. MaMa started the year with tears and emotional caused mistake. Nevertheless, I must say I am fortunate enough to have the opportunity to learn from my mistake and learn the power of endurance, patience and acceptance.

Even though the first day of Dragon Year is filled with tears and sadness, the unconditioned love and support from family is deeply appreciated. Once again, I am so blessed to own such powerful element in my life that called FAMILY who supported me and assisted me in every happy or sorrowful event, My mum especially.

From there, I learned the importance of Family Value and I swear to pass this Great value to my girls. From there, I learned the importance of maintaining a substantial level of EQ to avoid unneccessarily arguments. From there, I learned edurance and acceptance of the decision that I made for my life. From there, I even feel the importance of my girls' existence in my life. My girls are my life, and I am going to love them, teach them just like what my mom did to me.

I am so fortunate to gain understanding and support from my in-laws even though I had created such commotion on the first day of Chinese New Year. They did not blame nor did they complain. Instead, they helped me through it like their own daughter. There is no reason for me to complain and continue to be emotional as Dragon is somehow blessing MaMa in a different manner. The year of Dragon made me realised my in-laws are already part of my life, and I am grateful to have them to be part of life.

Haha...everyone must be curious of what happened on my first day of Chinese New Year. Since I had learned and I understood my priority, I don't think I should recall such incident - it is all my bad. If I had the power of edurance and acceptance with high EQ, none of these nonesense should bring such troubles to my families. Therefore, my new year resolution is to upgrade these power, enough to control my emotion and maintain harmony in the family.

Another learning opportunity occured on the friends' Lo Sang Gathering Dinner. My friend share with MaMa on how to handle TWO children and share the same amount of attention and love. I told my friend that Chloe could say more words and do more things at the current age of Clarisse. I explained to him that I couldn't control both of them even though I tried to make them sit to hear me read. When I put both girls together, they are uncontrollable. Jie Jie Chloe starts running up and down and Mui Mui Clarisse will always follow. There is no way that I can spend some good quality time with Clarisse and exploit her potential. Chloe had benifited a good two years of Quality time with me, but regretfully MaMa only managed 70% of Quality for Clarisse. But, it is not too late yet. I will and I am going to make it up to 100% for both girls. Even Chloe, I am spending much QUALITY time with her lately because of my busy work schedule and it is very hands full when it comes to handle two girls at the same time. According to my friend, his MIL is helping them to take care of two children. So, everyday they will only bring home ONE child. JieJie and DiDi will take turns to go home with Daddy and Mommy every alternate day. Only weekends to spend a big happy family time. During the one child session, they are able to communicate and spend time on ONE to ONE basis which I really think is very important. I think I am lacking the One to One moment with Clarisse. I am actually trying to plan that as in I will try to ask my mum to take Chloe and Clarisse ONCE a week. So, I will have ONE quality One to One moment with them every week. Isn't that a good idea. While the balance 5 days will be filled with happy big family tender loving moment.

So many things to learn .... limitless.... With all the understanding from my family (including my in-laws), I am sure I will be able to complete a mission smoothly.

Opps! Baby Clarrise is injured

2012-01-17T14:50:00.000+08:00

In a blink of an eye, Baby Clarisse is turning 17 months old next week. Sometimes, looking at my girls chatter away among themselves just give me a sense of fulfilment. So contented and blissful.

Yeah, Let's come back to the story of How my Darling Clarrise got herself injured last Sunday. I shall take a picture of it later when I get home.

I was helping my mum in the kitchen preparing some CNY snacks, while PaPa and the girls are at the girls' play area eating Wanton Noodle. Of course, Novi was there to assist the girls while PaPa was eating at the Dining Table.

All of a sudden, we heard a loud noise which sounded like a hard object fell on our hard marble flooring. We did not hear anyone crying seconds after seconds, so MaMa didn't rush out at that instant.

Then, in the next minute, Clarisse was wailing loudly and I was completely startled BECAUSE I was imagining how her head knocked on the HARD FLOORING as the sound that I heard was SHARP & CLEAR.

MaMa dashed into the play areas and saw Novi holding my crying baby. As I moved nearer, I saw Blood stain on Novi's shirt, then I quickly grabbed Clarisse from her hand, and saw her mouth was full of blood. Her chin was severely scratched from the pebble-like flooring, and there was a scar on her lips, and some blood in between her gum and teeth. ARGHHHH!!!! WHAT'S GOING ON? What happened to my darling?

Novi told me that Chloe and Clarisse was eating on their Princess Table & Chair (which made of PLASTIC and extremely light and frimsy). As Novi turned around, supposed to get a quick wash of the dirty spoon, then She heard Clarisse fell off from the plastic chair. According to her, Clarisse was trying to climb up the chair to position herself just like her Jie Jie who was seated properly, eating their Favorite Wanton Noodle. ARGHH......ANGRY! But NO! NO TIME TO BE ANGRY. I was trying to think of what could I do with her chin and teeth as she was crying in pain.

I was nervous and clueless of what I can do at that moment. I asked for Ice and Hanky, and also got some Goat Milk Sweets to distract Clarisse from her pain. You have no idea! I am experiencing the same degree of pain in my heart as I saw my darling bleed.

I used the Wet hanky and wash her chin, and then wrapped the ice with another hanky and pat it on her chin and mouth. I didn't know what to do!!!! This is how lousy I am. I have no skill of treating emergency like this, and I was totally panic.

Well, what happened to PaPa? PaPa was grumbling grumbling and grumbling at MaMa. Blaming MaMa & Novi for not taking good care of his girl and he claimed that WE INJURED her because it was our duty to watch the girls' safety. I had no time to argue at that very panicking time. I just told him to keep quiet. Come to think of it now, he was just MAYBE ABOUT 1 FEET away from the girls, and he did not even bother to keep an eye of them. Now that I tried to tell him this, he said NOVI should have told him to keep an eye and that she should not have just walked off without any supervision at our girls. Hmm...he is right too. Anyway, what is done is done. Noone expected such accident. I just have to remind her again and again to keep my children under 100% supervision at ALL TIME.

Baby Clarisse's teeth and gum look fine now. There is a tiny scar on her lips which MaMa think it should heal anytime soon. Her chin is a little worrying though as it is still reddish and scratched.

Meantime, we are applying Enzyme daily, and I hope Enzyme can help to heal her chin ASAP. We didn't send her to the clinic as I don't think any oral medication needed. Her wound might looked severe to me but honestly I don't think the Doctor will see it the way I see it.

I have two daughters and they are completely different. They have their individual personalities. Chloe is a cautious person as compared to Clarisse, she always observed first and she never proceed if she has no confidence in it. Whereas Clarisse is more daring and adventurous, however careless and clumsy, never think twice before she moves. That's why I never had Chloe injured before because she is always careful, on the other hand, darling Clarisse always fell down and knocked somewhere somehow frequently. *sigh* headache!

Bento #11 - Tuna Sandwich

2012-01-17T13:45:00.000+08:00

MaMa prepared Chloe Tuna Sandwich for School today.

Surprisingly, She was not excited about the bear and she told me that she preferred those Mini Heart Shape Sandwiches which I had prepared for Clarisse.

I called home to check, and Novi told me that she didn't eat the Sandwich. :(

A Working Mom, *sigh*, I have to rely on the information from others. I didn't see it with my eyes and I cannot analyze the reason why is she not eating the Sandwich? Novi told me it was torn apart but she didn't eat it. Is it because she dislikes the bear or she dislikes the Tuna (Well, my first time giving Chloe Tuna & Cucumber with Mayo). I tried to talk to her on phone, but she refused, she ran off after saying "Hello, MaMa!"

I wish I could see more of my children daily behavior. I wish I could get off my ass and start some meaningful reading, be it PARENTING, BUSINESS, RELATIONSHIP, JOURNAL....*sigh* So that I can provide more information to my children. I am such lousy MaMa. Sigh!

This is my Princess Chloe with her Favorite School Bag.

Bento #10 - It's the Fruity Friday

2012-01-13T12:58:00.000+08:00

Yeah, It is the FRUITY FRIDAY AGAIN and

Yeah CHLOE IS BACK TO SCHOOL AGAIN.

3 x Strawberries

3 x Seedless Grapes (Green)

2 x Orange Slice

4 x Mini Size Pear

There is nothing to shout about for such an easy BENTO. I am actually kind of SHY to call this BENTO while all the BENTO Specialists laughing at my creation. I have lots of gadgets to prepare a Cute Bento but I really do not know how to make them. I will find ONE FINE day and try out some of the designs from the BENTO books that I bought monthssss ago. Even though it is simple but it is good enough to make Chloe Happy. Hahaha... Short Cut!

Bento #9

2012-01-13T12:49:00.000+08:00

This was prepared for Chloe on Tuesday.

Unfortunately, she did not bring it to school, she shared this little snack with her sister Clarisse at home instead. What is new? She was sick on Tuesday. Viral Fever or I called it the chinese way - HEATY! Her throat was infected and had some mouth ulcers. Furthermore, she slept late and woke up early for school, inevitably, Chloe falling sick is something that I had expected. Yes, Chloe is weaker compared to Clarisse. Her sick diary is on monthly basis. Hahaha.... Well, I used to be very paranoid with all the fever episodes, but after a year long of training, I guess I just have to adapt to it. Not that I like it to happen again, but it is a process of growing up for Chloe. I just need to go through with her even it means FOREVER. BUT, CHOY!!!, it will stop somewhere somehow sometimes as Chloe grows older with a stronger immune system (IN NO TIME!).

Photo Photo

2012-01-09T14:16:00.000+08:00

I know this photo is not clear. I posted this because I find it cute when Clarisse is holding PaPa's mobile phone and said "Smile~ Cheez~" Pretending to take photos of her own. I didn't capture this photo, Chloe was playing with my iPhone and she happened to catch this shot. Just what I wanted even though is not clear. Bravo, Chloe! Bravo Clarisse! :p

Two sisters were shopping in Toys "R" Us, One Cinderella for Abigail, One Sleepy Beauty for Chloe. Photos of VICTORY!

" I pretty!" Abigail said,

"I pretty also!" Chloe said.

MaMa bought Clarisse a New Hairband. She didn't want to put it on initially. MaMa told Clarisse "WOW, you looked so pretty with your new hairband. Go have a look at the mirror!"

Immediately she rushed to the mirror and started admiring herself, and told MaMa " MaMa, Leng Leng" Hahaha....Vain Pot!

Naughty Clarisse

2012-01-06T19:27:00.000+08:00

I was told by Novi that Clarisse bit Chloe few days back.

Novi described the scenario to me. As Novi was feeding soup to Clarisse, Chloe interrupted them by squeezing herself in between Clarisse and Novi. Clarisse immediately lean towards and bit on Chloe's back.

*Sigh* Beware of Furious Baby!

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Darling Clarisse,

Don't be Naughty! You are not allowed to bite Jie Jie.

You have to love Jie Jie & Sayang her like she sayang you.

Love,

MaMa

Nursery for Chloe

2012-01-06T19:22:00.001+08:00

Today is already the third day of school for Chloe. She is absolutely doing well, but as well as other children. I expected more chaos on the first 3 days, but apparently children nowadays are very independent and courages. I would say 1 out of 50 is crying; not willing to attend school. Ya...exactly!! None cries in Chloe's class. Chloe is still considerably shy as compared some of her classmates.

Overall, MaMa is very satisfied with the Nursery that I have chosen for Chloe. Hygiene is definitely at the tip top condition. One Teacher & One Assistance to 10 children in a class is my ideal number. All teachers are pleasant, courteous and helpful too. Very organized dismissal, love the simple goodbye song.

Every Friday is their Vegetables and Fruits Day. Children are encouraged to pack some Vege or Fruit to school every friday. I love this idea too.

First Bento (Snack) to Nursery on Friday.
To encourages children to eat more Vege & Fruits.

Well, so far so good. I am sure Chloe will enjoy her first Nursery Year.

Darling Chloe,

Have fun in school.

Thanks for Papa & MaMa.

Love you so muchieeee,

MaMa

Chloe's First Day of Nursery

2012-01-04T18:28:00.000+08:00

7am in the morning, Clarisse was still in her sweet dream while Chloe was changing into her Uniform, looking forwards to step into her new phase of life - NURSERY!

Chloe got herself ready by 7.45am, but Papa was not ready. Siting on the Living Room's Sofa eating hard-boiled egg while waiting for Papa.

Papa was finally ready by 8am and immediately Chloe put on her NEW backpack excitedly.

"Let's go, PaPa, MaMa. Bye Clarisse. Chloe is going to school, Clarisse stays at home, Ya?"

" I Love you, Clarisse. You stay home and play, ok? "

8.30am Sharp, We arrived the Nursery. There are teachers at the gate, providing the hand sanitizer to all children before entering the gate. As we entered, there is another teacher seated right after the main entrance, taking temperature of all children before they proceed to their classroom. Chloe was directed to her Class Nur-Canary.

Teacher Zue welcomed Chloe with a warm hand shake and gave her a swift introduction of herself. Even though Chloe acted a little shy, she was absolutely calm and stable at class.

Nur-Canary has 10 children led by Teacher Zue & Ms. Lim (assistance). Chloe definitely enjoyed Snack Time because she had 4 small cups of Milo. She asked for refill 4 times!!!! However, she was not really keen on the Banana Cake. Chloe was a good girl, she finished the Banana Cake as per told by Teacher Zue despite she was not very keen on the Cake.

10.00am, Queuing at the Assembly Area, Waiting to go home! Yes, Chloe finish at 10am for the first week and 11.00am for the remaining weeks of January. After the CNY, she will finish her class at 12.30noon.

Photo Updates 2012

2012-01-04T18:08:00.000+08:00

Minnie Mouse T-Shirt from Ah Yi. Absolutely Love it.

My Adorable little princess is trying to give MaMa the perfect Smile.

This photo is taken by Chloe using my iphone. My Baby is growing up...

Happy New Year 2012!!

2012-01-04T18:01:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year 2012. May 2012 brings us great health, great fortune, endless happiness!

Love,

MaMa

Responsible or Selfish

2011-12-31T16:26:00.001+08:00

My best friends have just reminded me that I should be responsible for the decision I made. Any decision made now involved more than just me.

Happiness that earned from being selfish will never lasts. Tolerance and responsible will earn true happiness eventually. It s a matter of time.

My daugthers' happiness matters the most? Nothing to choose? My one and only decision, for my daughters.

Counting down.... to Nursery

2011-12-20T13:00:00.000+08:00

13 days left, Chloe will be officially attending Nursery that Papa & Mama registered for her.

Mama cannot tell how excited I am when I think about sending Chloe to Nursery. The idea of Chloe attending school officially is ...how should I express it? Hmm... Chloe is proceeding to the next phase of her life. Hiyah, simply she is a big girl NOW, no longer a BABY!

Mama can't wait to see Chloe put on her uniform, wear her own socks and shoes, carrying her backpack. Sigh....Ironically, I don't really want to grow so fast so that they can be my BABIES forever and ever. Ya, and I am not COMPLICATED.

My little corner

2011-12-20T12:45:00.000+08:00

MaMa's Blogging Zone is my little corner to share my happiness but I also utilize this little corner to express my unhappiness.

There are so many things that I wanted to complain and put down in words when I was feeling really depressed for the past few weeks. I am a simple woman with a simple mind who is trying very hard to achieve her ideal self. Is that simple enough? My love ONE keeps on telling me that I am a complicated woman, and I denied his judgement of me. How complicated am I when I am just asking a hug from my love ONE every now and then? How complicated am I when I am just asking for a kiss from my love ONE every morning and before bedtime? How complicated am I when I am just asking for a DATE on a weekly basis to gain a little time for a "JUST YOU AND ME" time? How complicated am I when I am just asking for the long-lost intimacy between "YOU AND ME"?

It seems to me that everything that I listed above was a WRONG thing to ask from him. If I really want to to ask for these from him, I was told to ASK at the RIGHT timing so that he will not be annoyed? Hmm... You have no idea how devastating it is for me to hear such thing from my love ONE.

I am not an introvert and I am not shy to be more initiative to ask for LOVE. I knew something has changed between us as we mature. So, I suggested for weekly DATE or even a fortnight DATE if he is willing to compromise. Unfortunately, my request had been rejected every time because my love ONE told me that Friday is his drinking nights with his buddy. NO COMPROMISE! He told me to choose some other day. Seriously, I do not have OTHER days in a week. Finished work and reached home every monday to friday at 8.30pm, and sometimes my children don't even get to see me before their bedtime. Monday to Thursday is working day and occasionally gym days for me. I need the exercise to release my stress, it just makes me a happier person.

I am working on Saturday till noon or sometimes later, but I tried to leave 1pm sharp. Usually, after work, I would go home straight and try every possible way to bring my children out and have some FAMILY TIME. When it comes to dinner time, it is either with my family or his family. Weekend Dinner is always reserved for my family and his family. May I ask, when is the "OTHER" day he was saying? I threw this question back to him, but he just answered me with "JUST NOT FRIDAY, BUT ANY OTHER DAY?"

I really miss him a lot. The "after marriage till before my 2nd pregnancy" period. Haha...Now I am complicated. My love ONE changed a lot after our marriage and especially after our first daughter was born. A truly Good Father & Good Family Man that I couldn't stop praising him. He did not go out drinking WEEKLY, and he spent lots of time with our children. During these period, we hardly quarreled. Even if we did, it was resolved the next day. He definitely showed more patience at that period. My love ONE is losing it, he is turning back to HIMSELF again, just like before who likes to be alone, someone who doesn't care about others and do what he wants to do even though it would make his wife unhappy or even cry.

Whenever I cry, he never come to me and even try to comfort me. He would yell at me "you f.....g crazy woman". Ya. After a while, I realize it is totally stupid for me to cry and beg for some comforting love from my love ONE because he never buy it. He would try to make it worse and telling me that I am crazy, i am ...... a lot of others words that would hurt me badly until I can't breathe normally.

Sorry..so much of complains. Can't help it.

Dear my love ONE,

I know you are reading. You might be angry with me for making you a bad person via my blog. You are not BAD, you are just losing the family touch for some reasons. Please come back and bring yourself back to the "PaPa" that I know. Be nice to Chloe, don't yell at her at night when she refused to go to bed. Share our duty in taking care of our children because you know very well that you will be rewarded with lots of closeness and love from your children and wife which MONEY cannot buy. Compromise will make a happier home for your family, and I am sure happier US will definitely make you a happier man, something that you cannot gain from drinking.

I have chosen you as my LEGAL love ONE, and I am not giving up. Let's make our legally LOVE a happily ever after LOVE together with our girls.

Try...
(1) Don't push away MaMa and call me crazy when I ask for a hug or kiss. Loving is your mentor.

(2) Don't yell at our girls when they are disturbing your sleep. Patience is your mentor.

(3) Share our duty together and work things out together. Give & Take, we call COMPROMISE to helps us out.

(4) Never sacrifice your family time. Once in a while, you may take leave from family time for emergency business matter or even personally leisure like drinking. You are a BOSS, and I am sure you do not like it if your staffs are taking leave regularly. Same here.

(5) Please do not show our children violence and inappropriate tv programme. If you really want to watch it, talk to MaMa NICELY see if we can delay the programme later or MaMa to sacrifice the programme and send our children else where while you can continue to watch the programme.

(6) Please do not use Vulgar Language when our girls are around, you have to be a role model.

(7) Live a life with a plan and schedule, at least you need to know what you are doing NEXT. I am not asking you to plan one day ahead but just asking you "What's NEXT" - I know you don't agree with this. Please try.

(8) Learn to accept that 5 minutes means the REAL 5 minutes and NOT half and hour. Or else, just tell me "Half an hour".

(9)...

(10)...

Love, I am not expecting you to change. It would be insane. Please be yourself but TRY your best to COMPROMISE. You are not a loner living in an island. You are a family man who has a pretty wife and beautiful daughters.

Your Legally Love,
Wifey a.k.a MaMa

Clarisse's New Progress

2011-12-19T13:23:00.000+08:00

Have not been blogging lately...Well, can never leave out the excuse of "busy" + "lazy".

Of course, other than these two little "zees", I have some issues dealing with my love ONE and my EQ now is super-duper weak.

Anyway, just would like to update a little on Clarisse's New Development.

She is able to hum a melody and she knows some songs even though she can sing it. She loves the Barney Theme song "I Love You". She is able to sing " I love you" ...then da da da she goes.

She is learning how to count now.

Mama : One

Clarisse : Two

Mama : Three

Clarisse : Four

Mama : Five

Clarisse : Six

Mama : Seven

Clarisse : Six

Mama : Nine

Clarisse : Six

Yes, She stops at Six..... I didn't insist her to count from ONE because Chloe did not count from ONE too.

Clarisse is able to say three syllable words like "Ei Ya Ei Ya OO", "PAPA YA", "ba NANA" , "butterFLY". If you notice the capital and small letters, this is to indicate how Clarisse put an accent on those CAPITAL WORDS. Hmm.... ba (soft) NANA (loud)...something like that. Get it? :P

Clarisse likes to follow her Jie Jie, I won't call Clarisse a copycat but she is learning from Jie Jie. Well, I must say there are some good habits about Chloe that I really like Clarisse to pick up. Unfortunately, I realize that Clarisse is picking more of her bad habits like crying for every single things. :P

Clarisse is a more independent girl as compared to Chloe. At this age, Clarisse likes to eat on her own, she insists to wear her shoes on her own (even though she still can't), she likes to walk on her own, she knows what she likes and what she dislikes, she will inform MaMa if she needs the toilet etc etc.

Both Chloe and Clarisse are totally different. They progress differently, but I am sure they will learn from each other eventually.

It is amazing to be a MaMa of my two darlings to see them to grow in their very own special way. I am so fortunate to have such sunshines to be with me even though my love ONE is drifting away from me day by day. God is fair. I am blessed. God compensates my sorrow with my two lovely sweetie pie. :P

A Taboo to Praise....

2011-11-24T17:04:00.000+08:00

I don't know why whenever I start praising my girls, bad luck will fall on me - as in my girls will become naughty "angels".

I have not been complaining about Chloe not sleeping in the night like previously. However, It doesn't mean that she goes to bed early everyday. Whenever MaMa or PaPa is around, she will take her chance and refuse to go to bed with her sister. Without us around, Kakak has the magical power to send Chloe to bed together with her sister.

Clarisse has a built-in alarm clock in her body, when it's time to sleep, it means BEDTIME. Nothing is going to stop her. Clarisse sleeps at between 9 to 10pm latest, while the other naughty girl can stay up till midnight when PaPa and MaMa are around.

I can't force her to bed when Clarisse is sound asleep in the room. This naughty little Chloe would make a lot of noise and move about a lot in the room which will wake my deary Clarisse up too. In the end, MaMa will have to stay awake till late because MaMa has problem sending these two girls into their dreamland. When I mean late, it is really really late...1am!!!!! These two girls will start to chat, walk about (IN THE DARK!!!), ask for the loo, ask for milk, ask for bedtime story etc etc etc. These are still acceptable when they don't cry, because I can put myself into the half-asleep mode. When they starts crying, *SIGH*........

Last night, Chloe and Clarisse slept at 9.30pm as PaPa and MaMa were home late. After a shower, PaPa went out for a drink until 1am (could be even later since I was already asleep), while MaMa enjoyed being alone in the TV area with the "magical" remote control until 12.30midnight.

At about 4.30am, MaMa heard Clarisse crying and she asked for the loo (by farting and said "ng ng"). After we came out from the toilet, Clarisse was fully awake. Of course, she started to make some funny sounds which obviously woke up her Jie Jie who was sleeping just less than an inch away from her. So, both of them woke up at 4.30am and stayed up until 6am. Clarisse was Crying Crying Crying... even after her milk and TLC Patting on her back. Crying is contagious among babies/kids, Chloe also started to cry and asked for MaMa. Argghhh..... At around...before 6am, I decided to ignore them and go back to sleep. I think both of them realized that MaMa was asleep so these two naughty girls also decided to put away their tantrum and back to their dreamland.

Chloe's 3rd Birthday

2011-11-23T16:44:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was Chloe's 3rd Birthday. PaPa & MaMa left work earlier so that we can fulfill her Birthday Wish - to have a ride on the Barney Car - which is only available at KLCC (the only one that we know so far. If anyone knows anywhere else has the Barney Ride, it would be very much appreciated if you could share with Chloe's MaMa :P TQ in advance.)

PaPa and MaMa picked up our two princesses from home at about 6pm. We arrived KLCC before 6.30pm. There are many rides scattered in the complex, and we actually hopped from one corner to another so that Chloe can get as many rides as possible. To ensure sufficient coins was a difficult task which PaPa managed to accomplish FAULTLESSLY! Bravo, PaPa!

Here are some of the photos taken using MaMa's iPhone. There are more in the Lumix, shall upload it later.

PaPa and MaMa never like to bring our girls to KLCC because it is a very very very crowded place even during the week days. In order to make Chloe's little simple wish comes true, hehe, Here We are - Chloe is driving together with Barney, Baby Bop & BJ.

One Seated ride, Clarisse only get the play with the Barney's Steering Wheel. We actually let Clarisse to have a ride on it too, but she didn't want it. So, Jie Jie Chloe took the wheel throughout the rides.

Next, it was the Yellow Sport Car which has TWO Steering Wheels so both girls can ride on it TOGETHER GATHER. Obviously, Chloe enjoyed her rides a lot. However, please do not be fooled by Clarisse's COOL face, Clarisse enjoyed it too. It is always difficult to capture Clarisse's HAPPY SMILING face. She is a COOL little girl as compared to Chloe.

It's definitely MaMa's bad for not able to capture her happy moment.

Then, it was the Fire Truck. Chloe loves the Fire"dog" - Mr. Fred. :) So, MaMa told Chloe to stand next to the Fred and have a picture together. This ride, Clarisse took charge of the wheel while Chloe was at the back seat took care of Fred.

Again, Clarisse was the Hot Dog Van's Driver while Chloe took orders from customers (Pretending). :) Opps...Clarisse was tired of Driving, and both sister swapped role. Chloe be the driver while Clarisse took orders. What a fun ride!

Chloe's last ride before we left for home was with Blinky Bill, the AUSTRALIAN KOALA BEAR in the Green "Blinky-1".

PaPa, MaMa, Chloe and Clarisse certainly had a great night together celebrating Chloe's 3rd Birthday. MaMa is confident to say that Chloe enjoyed herself a lot because she had ALL OF US to celebrate her 3rd birthday together; she had her wish come true with so many different rides (not just Barney), she had fish and CHIPS (french fries - her favourite - only available to her on special occasions), she had Haagen-Dazs CHOCOLATE Ice-cream (shared with Clarisse, which also only available to both of them with MaMa's special permission). Sorry "laaa", it seems like I am a control-freak, but I dare to say I am a more lenient person as compared to PaPa. PaPa straight away says "NO" to junk food. MaMa says "OKAY" to junk food on once a month basis. :P

A great Family Outing, A Wonderful Birthday Celebration. It would be PERFECT if I could have more photos of how our girls enjoy the day. I did not manage to capture pictures of how our girls enjoy their meals and ice-cream together. MaMa was too busy feeding while PaPa was too relaxed to do anything - :P End with a "kick" to PaPa. :P

Note : Last Sunday, we had a family dinner together with MahMah & YehYeh, We bought Chloe a Jelly Cake. Birthday Song, Birthday Cakes were all done last Sunday. I shall upload to share later.

Chloe's Birthday Present

2011-11-23T15:32:00.000+08:00

Wow, My girl turned three already! Chloe is a no longer a baby girl (always MaMa's baby), she is now a Chattery little princess who loves to sing and dance.

Last Sunday, MaMa brought Chloe to Toy'R'us to pick her birthday present. She actually wanted the Hello Kitty Toaster, but I told her that she owns many many Hello Kitty Toys and other Cookery Toys too. Ya, I know! What is the point to ask Chloe to choose her own Birthday Present when MaMa has the right to reject her choice :P. Sorry, Baby. MaMa does not want you to pile up with the same Toys at home. Anyway, she didn't manage to pick anything from the Toy Shop, so we adjourned to MPH.

Chloe owns 4 books on " The Things I Love about.." series by Trace Moroney, and she loves them a lot.

Chloe actually spotted Trace Moroney's New Collection at the MPH on the "Feeling" Series. She was excited to see the same Bunny, and she immediately told me to get them for her. These "Feeling" series include Happy, Sad, Angry, Jealous, Scared (that available in MPH), MaMa doesn't mind to purchase all the series but due to the "Negative" Feelings' Title, MaMa only purchased ONE which is the "HAPPY" Book.

Chloe is contented with just ONE book. It was a little rush at that time, so MaMa did not go through all the other "Feeling" Series by Trace Moroney. Maybe next weekend, when I back to MPH again, and MaMa will find out more about the other "Feelings" books. I will get them for her if the Contents are not as negative as the Titles.

MaMa can't praise Chloe enough for Chloe being a thoughtful sister to Clarisse. After she picked her present, she actually told MaMa ," MaMa, pick a book for Clarisse too." Upon hearing it, MaMa couldn't hide my happiness on my smiley face, and replied, "Sure, Why not you pick a little book for Clarisse."

Chloe made and effort to browse through the "toddler" section. Chloe "shortlisted" (actually "decided" but MaMa stopped her again :P) a few books, and MaMa decided on one of the Baby Book about "Sound of Animals". (No! No! I am not a domineering mum! :P I just want to make sure the purchase is useful and worthwhile. :P)

What a Happy Shopping Moment my Darling Chloe. :) I am a HAPPY MaMa!

Clarisse can sing & dance

2011-11-18T14:34:00.000+08:00

Clarisse loves music. Once the music played, she would move her body and start mumbling, trying to sing.

I taught Clarisse to sing "EI-A-EI-A-O" last week. She is such a good learner, she started with "EI-A"last week. Whenever, I tried to sing "EI-A-EI-A-O", Clarisse tried to observe my mouth and tried to intimate. Then, Clarisse improved by giving Mama "EI-A" "EI-A" without "O". Yesterday, Clarisse actually sang "EI-A" "Ei-A" "O". MaMa loves her "O". How I wish I could take a photo of her while she is singing "O", SO SO SO CUTE!!!!! She is such a sweetie pie.

Yesterday was Mah Mah (MIL)'s Birthday. Chloe sang Happy Birthday Song to Mah Mah, and Clarisse followed her Jie Jie by singing in her own melody and clap along with Jie Jie Chloe's Happy Birthday Song. We actually heard Clarisse trying to mumble "Happy Birthday", Mah Mah was overjoyed, Mah Mah's heart was totally melted by Clarisse's warm and loving kiss - "Muaz". Mah Mah did not want an extravagant celebration, so we just had a very simple Vegetarian Dinner at our regular neighborhood restaurant.

MaMa believe a good celebration does not need to be POSH. Most importantly our family can have a good time together even though it is only a simple dinner.

" HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MI. THANK YOU FOR BEING SUCH A SUPPORTIVE AND UNDERSTANDING MIL TO ME "

Wedding MC Script Sample

2011-11-18T14:03:00.000+08:00

Just to share..... This is PaPa & MaMa's Emcee Script for my Brother's wedding.

At 8.00pm or 85% attendance

Good Evening, Ladie & Gen tleman. As we will be starting the banquet shortly, may we request that all guests be seated please. Thank you.

各位来宾晚上好。我们即将开始宴席。请大家就座。谢谢。

When all guests have settled down / Before 1^st March in

Datuk-Datuk, Datin Datin, Relatives & Friends from near & far.

Once again, a very good evening to everyone. My Name is Mike ( and I am Chris) and we will be your emcees tonight.

今天是 XXX 与 XXX 的大喜之日。非常感谢大家抽空出席他们的婚宴。我们在此谨代表这对新人和双方家长 XXX夫妇 XXX夫妇, 感谢你们给于这对新人的祝福。如有招待不周之处，请多多包涵。

Thank you for attending the Celebration of this auspicious event, the wedding of Eric & Mavis. On behalves of the Couple and their parents, Mr. & Mrs XXX , Mr. & Mrs. XXX, we would like to thank you for taking the time to join us on this joyous occasion.

When all guests have settled down / Before 1^st March in

Ladies and Gentlemen, Let’s put our hand together and give a very warm welcome to our newly weds.

让我们以最热烈的掌声来欢迎这对新人入席。

When couple starts to ascend the stage for Cake Cutting Ceremony

We shall now invite the couple on stage for the cake cutting ceremony.

现在我们有请新人上台进行切蛋糕仪式。

The Wedding Cake as many of u know - Symbolizes the sweetness of new beginning of a married life as husband and wife.

我们来祝福这对新人有如蛋糕般甜甜蜜蜜

Thank you Eric & Mavis.

Dinner will commence shortly.

接下来，晚宴即将开始，有请ritz carlton 呈现简单而隆重的上菜仪式。

After the Food Presentation

Tonight we have a life band and let me welcome ___________who is going to lead us through this magical night with some beautiful love songs.

主唱与她的乐队将带给大家一些动听的旋律。悦耳的音乐配上美酒佳肴，希望大家慢慢享用。

Enjoy your dinner.

After the 4^th dish at around 9.10pm (Banquet captain will give you the cue)

Ladies and Gentlemen, we hope that you have enjoyed the food so far.

希望大家还满意今晚所准备的佳肴。

Now, We would like to invite Mr. XXX, Father of Eric on to the stage to share a few words with us.

有请XXX先生上台致词

谢谢XXX的致谢辞与祝福。

Thank you Mr. XXX, I believe it is every proud parents to see their children have found their own happiness.

Next. I am sure some of you are wondering what happened during their customary wedding when the groom overcame all obstacles to fetch his bride home.

相信大家都想知道祖耀和兄弟们如何闯入重重关卡抱得个美人归。请大家一起来观看早上的精彩片段。

<<2^nd Photo montage will play>>

End of photo montage

Once again, let’s us put our hands together to welcome back the lovely couple Into the ballroom.

让我们再并以最热烈的掌声来欢迎这对新人第二次入席。

2^nd march in for champagne pouring ceremony (when couple approaches stage)

We shall now invite the lovely couple on the stage to pop the champagne

我们现在邀请这对新人上台来进行开香槟仪式。

Should we invite this newly weds to toast each other?

接着让这对新人相敬交杯酒。

And now, this is the highlight of the night where all of us get to exercise our lungs.

现在我们请双方家长以及亲戚上台来向大家敬酒

May we invite the couple’s parents & relatives to come on stage to join us in a toast to their everlasting happiness.

也请各位兄弟姐妹们一同上台为这对新人祝贺

After everyone is on the stage …

First toast is to wish them eternal love.

第一杯，祝这对新人永裕爱河，永结同心, 白头到老

Second toast is to wish our newly weds to be fruitful and multiply in numbers.

第二杯，我们来祝这对新人努力做人，早生贵子，三年抱两，儿孙满堂

Our third toast is to all our distinguished guests, we would like to wish everyone great health and good fortune in the coming years.

第三杯，是要祝福在场的贵宾们，龙马精神，生意兴隆，身体健康

After 3 Yum Seng

谢谢，请大家就座。

Thank you everyone. Please be seated.

We shall now invite the couple to say a few words of appreciation.

现在让我们邀请这对新人为大家致词。

After the wedding speech by the couple

Thank you Eric Thank you Mavis. We wish you all the best as you embark on the next stage of you life journey.

Eric, Mavis. 我们再一次祝福你们过着辛福美满的婚姻

请各位来宾继续享用今晚的佳肴，并祝大家有个美好的夜晚。谢谢

Have a pleasant evening. Thank you.

Pandan Chiffon Cake

2011-11-08T16:50:00.000+08:00

My First Pandan Chiffon Cake, finally I am back to my Blogging Zone. Have not been blogging lately because I am emotionally disturbed by someone who indulged himself in his drinking world. (Haha... take the chance to "blog"-stab him, Lousy Fella!).

Anyway, let's not talk about the stressful matter. I rather keep myself occupied with more important matters like my two beautiful girls, my baking hobby, my blogs and everything about myself.

Ingredient A :

5 Eggs White

60gram Castor Sugar

Procedure A :

1) Beat the Egg White until Foamy

2) Add in Sugar gradually and beat it until Soft Peak

Ingredient B :

5 Egg Yolks

140gram Cake Flour

50gram Brown Sugar

1 tsp Baking Powder

5 tbsp of Oil

1 tsp Pandan Extract (I extracted it from the fresh Pandan Leaves from our Garden)

3/4 cup of Coconut Milk

Procedure B :

1) Beat Egg Yolks and Sugar until slightly Pale

2) Add in the Coconut Milk, and mix well.

3) Then, add in the Sieved Cake Flour and Baking Powder, Mix until well combined

4) Add in the Oil until well combined.

5) Fold the Egg White Mixture in three portion into the Cake Batter Gradually.

6) Bake it at the Preheated Oven at 160 Deg C for 35 mins.

Note

Like : Clarisse, Papa, Grandma, Mama

Dislike : Chloe

* I think Chloe doesn't like the Coconut Taste. *

Garbage Enzyme in the Process

2011-11-08T16:23:00.001+08:00

I am desperate in finding a solution for the mosquitoes attack! These "monsters" have been attacking my girls on regular basis and I can't bear to see them in such "itch" anymore. Scratch Scratch and Scratch! These bite sometimes become really swollen and I wonder how "itchy" or painful it is to my baby Clarisse and darling Chloe. It is driving my crazy!

I am afraid to use the mosquito spray, these are poisonous chemical! I have been using the Mosquitoes Light Trap but it seems that these mosquitoes are getting smarter each day, and they no longer easily trapped by the fancy blue light.

I heard that Enzyme can help eliminate the mosquitoes at home, and I think it is time for me to try it out. Can't wait to share the outcome. 2 more months to go!! My Enzyme will be ready in 10/1/2012.

Sharing is Caring, so here's the "Dr. Ros' Garbage DIY Enzyme Recipe"

2. Dr. Ros’ Garbage Enzyme DIY

a. Garbage Enzyme’s Method

RATIO:

Brown Sugar / Molasses : 1

Garbage (chop to smaller pieces) : 3

Water : 10

Method:

i. Mix brown sugar with water, add in the garbage.

ii. Leave some space for fermentation.

iii. Enzyme will form and ready to use in 3 months.

iv. Make sure the container is air tight.

vi. Push the floating garbage downward once a while.

vii. The enzyme is ready to use in 3 months.

Photos updates

2011-11-03T14:35:00.001+08:00

Chloe hugs Clarisse, Clarisse "loves" it so much :P

Chloe received the Care Bear as her gift from Auntie Elena, and she told MaMa took a picture of her holding the Care Bear.

"Muakz, I love Care Bear" Chloe said.

Chloe & JieJie Reyanne in Singapore

Reyanne, Chloe & Ryan in Singapore

"Row Row Row Your Boat" Chloe & Clarisse sing

Clarisse dressed up for Aunty Vivienne's Wedding.

Clarisse is a big girl already, Leng Leng a~~!

My Cheery Little Princess, Clarisse girl girl

My two little notti princesses competing who is faster?

Clarisse wins ALL THE TIME! Chloe takes 1/2 hour to drink up her 6o of milk.

Can be quite frustrating.. :(

Chloe and Our Adorable Mei Mei

Nursery Registration

2011-10-25T16:35:00.001+08:00

Busy Busy Busy. Have been busy with WORKS and "DOMESTIC DRAMA". Works is simply works that earns me some pocket money whereas "DOMESTIC DRAMA" -- hmm, too complicated. I shall elaborate when I have the time, no time for this nuisance. :P

Anyway, I just want to mark down today's DATE because after many many phone calls, I have finally registered Chloe into 2012's Nursery @ P&J. I hope she will have lots of fun and learning experience as the school fees ain't cheap!!!! Love the environments, love the uniform, love the classroom, love the diversity of nationality. I hope Chloe loves what Mama loves too...

*Phew* Finally, I can remove one item from my to-do list.

Next, I have to call Jean Gan in December so that I can register her for Baby Ballet next year. :P (** Chloe is the one who ask for it!! So I better get it done for her **)

Can't WAIT to send her to Nursery! Can't WAIT to send her to Ballet Class.

Mama is sorry...

2011-10-15T22:40:00.000+08:00

Dear babies,

Mama is sorry... Mama really go out tonight... I need a time for myself...
Please don't be mad at me.
Mama loves you both and I promise that I will be home for you. Allow me to have one night...

Love you gals a lot,
Mama

Mama's Diary

2011-10-13T23:33:00.000+08:00

I was about to blog about how I managed to put a full stop to the accumulated stress over the last few months. I had a good workout tonight and I thought I had come to a consensus that it is too depressing to be angry and sad about "" who is so insensitive. Furthermore, I realize that my girls need "" so much that I guess the best solution is to forgive "them" and be happy with my blissful life with my two daughters.

Thanks to the great and exhausting Body Attack! However exhausting it is, it only made me sweat like a dog and muscles cramp here and there. The most exhausting moment was the accumulated stress and unhappiness. It is not merely deteriorating my energy but also mental tortures over the whole two months. My girls was sick, I was sick, my helper was sick, I had tonne of works.... No matter how I beg for a short holiday with "", "" decided to leave me behind for "" own leisures. It even put me to a state where I think I don't need "" anymore. "" doesn't care for me, even I cried and begged to follow him with many reasonable options. "" pushed me off by telling me that it is a guy trip and i am not allowed. All I asked to make this exceptional! I didn't stop "" from having drinks enjoying with "" friends weekly. I thought for "me" the special half, he can make this exceptional. But he chose to leave me with my own stress. Talking about it making me tear. :"(

But when I heard my girls called "" , I knew that life is not just about myself, but my family...my girls... I can't be selfish. They need "". There is no reason for me to start a battle as this will definitely not beneficial to my love ones.."forgiveness" is the best solution for me and my girls.

Thank god that everything has come to an end because the cute instructor had drained me out with his Monster attack, screaming, jumping, running, sweat all you want kind of full body workout!!! Love it so much!!!

Can't help it to cry when Chloe asked for "" when I tried to send her to bed just now. She told me she wants "" and she lied down obediently with "" kn bed. It is a happy scnene and I should be grateful but I can't help to cry and feeling sad. It is a sign that I am not a good Mama, and I am so so worried to lose her if anything happen to me and "". I cannot lose my girls... And. They are my everything.

This is my only ground to release my stressful thought. I hope it remain what it supposed to be. I don't mean to defame anyone. It is just my little corner to blog...It contains only my own personal thought. Nothing more. God, please give the greatest power to forgive and accept the life and family that I've chosen for myself. There is no way for me to give up just the determination that I had during the 1-1/2 hours of non-stop workout!! God bless me, and god bless all my lives one.

Unhappiness and nonsense should be sent away, and enjoy the upcoming family event!! It's gonna be busy busy busy month again!! Cheer up, Mama. Be happy is how you lve yourself! Take care. M

Clarisse with Grandma

2011-10-13T12:38:00.000+08:00

This photo was taken weeks ago. I have not been playing with my camera or iphone and only two days ago I saw my old DSLR lying in the cupboard which my brother supposed to bring to London. *sigh* Maybe the DLSR is not NEW enough for him to bring to London to show off. :P

Both girls are well. Chloe is not attending school meanwhile. Since it is another 2 weeks to School Holidays, I will just have Chloe at home playing with Clarisse and have a closer sister bonding time. :)

The Last Episode of Sick Diary?!

2011-09-24T14:04:00.000+08:00

Hopefully, this is the last episode of my daughters' sick diary.

I was praying hard every day hoping that Baby Clarisse can be stronger and not fall sick. However, the intimacy between these sisters has inescapably passed the viral to Baby Clarisse. Two days ago, Baby Clarisse's temperature went up to 39.5 deg C. This had never happened to Clarisse for the past one year, and all the while I thought Clarisse is healthier and stronger, she has better resistance to fight against these viruses.

My Panic Button was instantly turned on, and my emotion dropped to rock bottom. I was easily irritated and Papa & Mama ended up yelling at each other a lot. It was indeed a stressful week for both of us. I was reluctant to bring Baby Clarisse to Dr. Patrick/Dr. Adrian, because Dr. Adrian once told me if Baby Clarisse has fever more than 38 deg C, he has to put her on Tamiflu and Antibiotics. Of course, to cure the current sickness outweighs the side effects of these drugs. But, I can't bear to see Baby Clarisse go through the pain that Chloe just experienced days ago.

Papa & Mama had decided to seek for Dr. Loo's help instead, because I believe he will be the one who is going to tell me that my daughter is not infected with H1N1! True enough, Dr. Loo told me to calm down and it was nonsense to diagnose my baby as H1N1 just because Influenze A positive. It is possible to be Influenza A positive even if it's just common flu.

Dr. Loo also prescribed Klacid (the same antibiotics as Chloe) and medicines for cough, flu & fever. Irregardless of how I resent the idea of suppository, Baby Clarisse was also given a suppository upon consultation. It is important to bring her temperature down first as per advised by Dr. Loo.

The first day, Baby Clarisse's fever went up and down. I was not being stubborn nor I was afraid to stay in the Hospital. I wanted to try out an easier way for Baby Clarisse. Baby Clarisse's attitude stayed very positive and active throughout the day. The second day, her fever subsided, and her fever did not return for the day. Until late evening, her temperature went up again to 38 deg C, and it came down after 2.5ml of paracetamol.

Today is the third day, I have told Papa to monitor closely. Now is 2.03pm, so far no fever! :(

I am very tried and sad. Please....... let's end the story here! :''(

Poor Baby Clarisse

2011-09-21T16:45:00.000+08:00

Due to the undesirable incidents, MaMa was forced to neglect Baby Clarisse for Total of more than 72 hours. I did went home to take a shower and packed clothing and food for Chloe daily, but the time that I reached was always co-incidently her sleeping hours too. I was only able to go home for a short period of time when PaPa or Grandma was available to stay in the hospital to take my shift.

Anyway, I missed Clarisse heaps. MaMa was such a crying baby. Whenever I talked about Baby Clarisse in the hospital, MaMa just can't help to tear. Silly MaMa. What about when MaMa is away for holiday??? Cry also? I guess, the situation weaken my emotion further, that's why I sobbed easily. :P Lousy MaMa.

What makes everything worse was Novi was sick too!!! I was so terrified as Dr. Adrian told me Chloe was tested H1N1 positive. I didn't want to take any risk, but to send her to the Clinic immediately. Dr. Loo, General Practise (He is a good doctor and he is been around in the area for a good 20 years or so, we always look for him for any illness), refused to carry out the Influenza test because he said Novi did not have any symptom and there is no news on the epidermic. He said he can carry out the test and charge anyone if he wanted to, but he said definitely there will be a result showing Influenza A (many subtypes e.g. H1N1, H2N2 etc etc) positive in the public. So, he said I should just calm down and treat it as Viral Infection since there is no diarrhea, no pain, no cough, no vomiting, fever below 38 deg C. He showed me her throat which was obviously inflamed and he prescribed antibiotic and paracetamol to Novi.

I was instantly relief for a while. BUT her fever comes and forth even until this morning. I insisted to bring her to the clinic again, and weird enough, when I said that her fever disappeared. She told my mum's maids that her body was feeling weak! She has been sleeping for days in the room. Call me ruthless employer, I told her that she cannot sleep anymore. She has to move about and start on the easy chores like folding clothes and light ironing. The more she sleeps, the more dizzy and LAZY she would be. Of course, I told her not to take care of my babies. I don't want any chances to pass the infection to my babies again! She is a little stubborn on taking medicines and water. My mum has to actually gave her a look to make her take her medicines. We couldn't force her to drink water, but we had reiteratively advised her to consume more fluid. It is all up to her. Anyway, she shed some weights too, it is obvious that she was unwell.

Back to Baby Clarisse. Poor Darling! She was sick since two weeks ago, and last night she had a little fever at about 38 deg C. MaMa gave her progesic and her fever came down after an hour. I am at work now, I called every 2 - 3 hourly to check on her, all the maids told me that she is fine. I hope they are accurate!

Baby Clarisse was disturbed with her blocked nose two weeks ago, and no improvement has been seen even though Nasal Spray & Oxy-Spray have been given as per prescribed. I should send her to the Clinic again, I definitely do not want another episode (choy choy choy~~~!!!) of undesirable incident.

Dear Babies, MaMa is coming home soon...

trauma continues....

2011-09-21T16:22:00.001+08:00

I couldn't finish the previous blogs..it was such torturous moments and I couldn't continue. The toughest Part of being a MaMa is not the labour process but the process of witnessing my children going through undesirable pains. It is so me to start blaming myself for not being a good MaMa but at that point of time, my brain stopped functioning, emptied. It is also irrelevant to play the blaming game too. What I wanted was a solution for my baby.

The test came out and we were horrified she was tested Influenza A positive. At once, Dr. Patrick told us that it was H1N1. We were speechless and burnt-out. How come? Again? She was tested ONCE with Influenza A positive (H1N1 - during the epidemic) when she was 7 months old. Why now again? I thought Chloe is supposed to immune to H1N1? Dr. Adrian immediately started with Tamiflu and Antibiotic (which I didn't notice what was it..) on Chloe. The Antibiotic did not seem to react to Chloe so well, because her temperature hits 41 deg C. Dr. Adrian and MaMa were both busy sponging my baby, while the fan was blowing strong towards Chloe. After 15 minutes, her body temperature came down a little and Dr. Adrian prescribed her another Antibiotic named Klacid and another one which I didn't notice what is it called which needed to injected to her body through IV.

The blood test came out shown that she is infected with Microplasmal Pneumoniea. MaMa tried to google it online and try to find out more about it but as I said earlier on that my brain was totally out of function, and the whatever medical terms that described this bacteria type just couldn't registered into my brain properly.

Baby Chloe was admitted to the hospital for 72 hours and she was a good girl as what Doctor and Nurses described, she was calmed and steady for her age. But the little devil came out when all the nurses and doctor were out of the room, she started to ask for heaps of TLC especially from PaPa.

She was very occupied with various activities. The Ipad, of course, Colouring Book, Barney DVDs, Unlimited TV..... My good girl handled her left hand, which was heavily bandaged, so well. She was a little uneasy at first, but after 24 hours, she was already using both her both her hands to handle everything.

The fever subsided completely on the 2nd day. No re-occurance. However, Dr. Adrian insisted we should stay for total of 72 hours for her treatment.

"All parents will say YES to whatever Doctor tell them to do on the first day when their babies were very sick, and when babies recovered on the 2nd day, everyone starts to bargain with Doctor for discharge." Dr. Adrian said this when we asked if it was necessary to stay on for the 3rd day. Well, Papa and MaMa thought just comply to it since it was already a last 24hours that we need to stay in the hospital. For Chloe's health sake, I think we just have to comply to Doctor's recommendation.

Chloe was discharged yesterday and everyone who saw her told me that she lost a lot of weights. This is inevitable. Furthermore, her mouth ulcers were such a pain for her to even consume her milk. Luckily, Chloe is a greedy little fella. She was always easily tempted with food. So, I gave her various type of food every hourly, and everything was eaten only in a small portion like hard-boiled eggs, Papaya, biscuit, water, juices, porridge, macaroni etc etc etc. Better than nothing at all.

Chloe has to continue her Tamiflu and Klacid Antibiotic until the end of the week. So, MaMa will not going to have any program after work including gym. I am going to head home early today and every day to check out my babies until they are completely well.

Weary of persistent virus battle......

2011-09-21T15:53:00.000+08:00

The checklist routine stopped after the 2nd day. MaMa is not being lazy nor my babies' conditions have improved so much that they do not required any extra attentions.

The distressing fact was that Chloe lost in the virus battle and was admitted to the hospital on Saturday Morning.

15th September 2011 - It was Papa's 34th Birthday. Chloe didn't attend school that day because Papa said he wanted Chloe to take a good rest at home. Everything was fine except for her minor cough and blocked noses. It was Papa's Birthday, so MaMa thought it shouldn't be an issue to bring Chloe to have dinner together with Papa & Mah Mah, so off we went to have a scrumptious dinner at Kampachi. This photo was taken after dinner at Pavillion. I could feel Chloe's body was a little hot, but both Papa & Mah Mah confirmed with MaMa that She is fine. Chloe requested MaMa to take a picture of her with the cartoon background, but her eyes were telling me she was a little lethargic. When MaMa arrived home, the first thing that I did was to check her temperature and it shown 38.5 deg C. I was totally perturbed by her fever because it could go up to 40 deg C again. Furthermore, this fever is been coming back and forth since beginning of the month. So far, no anti-biotic prescribed because Doctors said it was due to viral infection and try to bring down the temperature by Progesic or Voltaren suppository if the fever hits 39 deg C and above.

MaMa was trying so hard, dying to get rid of the fever without the Voltaren but situation did not permit MaMa from using the Supp. No matter, how I tried to cool her down by sponging her or feeding her progesic, it just didn't bring down the fever totally. At least, the supp is able to keep her fever own for good 6 - 8hours all the times.

Unfortunately, it was not that case that night. MaMa fed Chloe with 5ml of Progesic at about 10pm. Her fever slightly came down to 37.9 deg C but it shot up to 39.5deg C at about 5.30am. Papa & Mama were lost and dead-worried, and we immediately applied the supp. It managed to reduced the heat a little, below 39 deg C and we sent Chloe back to sleeping, thinking that it will keep her fever away at least until the next LATE morning. But at about 8am, We were alarmed by her body heat again, it went up to 40 deg C. MaMa was panic, and knew that Chloe has to be admitted to the hospital for treatment because the SUPP is not WORKING on her fever anymore.

We rushed to the Dr. Patrick's Clinic in the morning and Dr. Patrick was on leave. MaMa was anxious, tired, exhausted, panic...whatever words that could described my state of feelings at that moments. Dr. Adrian was available and we didn't think of searching for other doctor as my daughter is at a critical situation.

Dr. Adrian carried out a thorough test for Chloe - Influenza Test, Blood Test & X-ray. He said since July, her visits to the clinic was so regular and he wanted to check what was triggering all these attacks.

I do not know how to describe in words how painful is it for a Mother to see this and go through the process. It is still so painful when I trying blog this down. Can't help to tear silently while recalling that moments.

The medical officer was trying to put a needle through while all the nurses pressing her down to ensure that she would not move about. MaMa stayed next to Chloe and MaMa did not have the courage to view the process but placing my face against Chloe. Sobbing uncontrollably while my baby is crying so loud, told MaMa "Pain Pain! Pain Pain" MaMa totally lost control of my tears.

"Darling, Mosquitoes Bite! MaMa "Paat" (smack)!" sobbing...

"Darling Baby. Don't worry. Mosquitoes Bites only. PaPa is coming to "Paat" these notti mosquitoes.." Sobbing still ... while my Baby is crying for Pain.

MaMa was totall.......

Treatment Checklist (2) - 15/9/2011

2011-09-15T12:58:00.001+08:00

Chloe

Ventolin 2 puffs/ 2 x day

Flixotide 2 puffs/ 2 x day

Nasonex 2 sprays/ 2 x day

Pear x 1pc - CHECKED

Probiotic x 1 capsules - CHECKED

Singular x 1 sachet

Clarisse

Mar Nasap Spray 2 sprays/ 3 - 4 x day

Oxy-Spray 2 sprays/2 x day

Pear x 2-3 slices - CHECKED

Probiotic x 1 capsule - CHECKED

Singular x 1 sachet

Zyrtec x 2.5ml / day

Both Chloe and Clarisse had sticky eyes this morning.

Chloe is absent from school today because Papa said that Chloe should stay at home to rest since tomorrow is also a public holiday.

Treatment Check List (1) - 14/9/2011

2011-09-14T19:29:00.002+08:00

Thanks for my good friend's reminder, I should actually do a check list so that I will not missed out ANYTHING during the treatment. I have actually forgotten about the Probiotic HHMPPFFF!!!!!

Chloe

Ventolin 2 puffs/ 2 x day - CHECKED

Flixotide 2 puffs/ 2 x day - CHECKED

Nasonex 2 sprays/ 2 x day - CHECKED

Apple x 1pc - CHECKED

Double Boiled Chicken Soup with Cordyceps x 1 serving - CHECKED

Probiotic x 1 capsules

Singular x 1 sachet - CHECKED

Clarisse

Mar Nasap Spray 2 sprays/ 3 - 4 x day - CHECKED

Oxy-Spray 2 sprays/2 x day - CHECKED

Apple x 2-3 slices - CHECKED

Double Boiled Chicken Soupw ith Cordyceps x 1 serving - CHECKED

Probiotic x 1 capsule

Singular x 1 sachet - CHECKED

Zyrtec x 2.5ml / day - CHECKED

*Sigh* It is definitely not fun doing this checklist. I am lost. What else did I miss? Maybe I should add in one dosage of TLC Stay Home MaMa - unlimited/ day.

Hopefully, all these issues can be treated soon! Blocked Nose, please go away. You are the main culprit! You caused the rest of the organs congested! Please go away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My girls are sick again....

2011-09-13T18:31:00.002+08:00

My girls have been sick since months ago...to be precise, since Chloe attended school.

The viral infection started from Chloe with her sore throat and minor cough. We didn't take it seriously, thought that getting sick was inevitable since Chloe started schooling, naturally the probability of contact with various virus is higher. However, her cough persisted for 3 weeks and Mama felt something was not right. Her cough worsen especially in the night. So, Mama sent Chloe to Dr. Patrick Chan for a check. Fortunately, the lung was clear but Dr. Patrick told us that we must treat her cough to prevent her from developing into Asthma. Dr. Patrick told us that since I had Asthma history and Papa has sinus problem, it is a likelihood for our children to develop the same kind of allergy too. No Antibiotic was prescribed, but Ventolin, Flixotide and Singular were prescribed to treat her cough and prevention of Asthma.

It was very effective, Chloe stopped coughing in the night after 4 days. Mama stopped the treatment immediately even though the plan was up to 7 days. Mama always has the concept not to feed them so much medication and hoping that their body can build immunity to fight against the virus.

Unfortunately, she caught the viral conjunctivitis after the cough. The Conjunctivitis lasted for about 10 days. Papa was worried because her left eye was red and looking at her red eyes just made us heartache. Dr. Patrick prescribed Pantone Eye Drop and Fucithalmic Eye Oilment. It didn't clear her eyes after 4 days and we started to worry because Papa read from the net that Conjunctivitis should only last 4 - 5 days. Anyway, we rushed to the eye specialist since Dr. Patrick also recommended us to visit the eye specialist if the red eyes did not subside. We went to Dr. Tan, the ophthalmologist, in the Prince Court Medical Centre on that saturday. Dr. Tan prescribed another eye drops and oilment (don't remember the name), and after 3 days. Her red eye was clear and no more discharge.

The conjunctivitis story did not stop there. Viral Conjunctivitis is infectious! Poor Darling Clarisse was also infected with conjunctivitis. It must be from Jie Jie Chloe, since they are very close to each other. They play together, they eat together, they sleep together, they even sometimes bom bom (bathe) together. I already instructed Novi not to put them together, but it is somehow unavoidable to have contact especially four of us sleep in the same room. Mama teared when I found out that Clarisse had sticky eyes like Chloe. I applied the same eye drops and oilments after consulted Dr. Tan during the follow up session. Thank god, Clarisse did not develop any redness in her eyes, just a little sticky in the morning and mild discharge on and off.

Days after everyone back to healthy and normal stage, Chloe caught a viral infection again with an extremely high fever. I truly detest Chloe getting fever because her fever always hits 40 deg C and it worried me heaps!!!!!! The extremely high temperature is very dangerous, I have to be extra cautious and take extra care. I heard too much, and I want to try my best to protect my child. Dr. Patrick once confirmed with me that some children has the tendency to hit 40 deg C everything they get fever, and he assured me that it is ok. This will continue until their age of 8 (if I remembered correctly). However, we must take extra care and monitor the temperature and try to suppress the temperature from going up further. I hate inserting Voltaren through rectal, even though Doctors and Nurses assured me that it is not painful, I detest seeing how Chloe struggled when Papa tried to insert the Voltaren. We can never do it properly but the nurses and doctors could do it without Chloe noticing it.

Mama and Papa spent our one week Raya Merdeka Holiday at home to take care of Chloe.

Chloe recovered after three days, No antibiotic, just Progesic paracetamol. Augmentine Antibiotic was prescribed, but Dr. Patrick said we could use it later if the fever persisted after three days. Luckily, the fever subsided after three days. Good job, Chloe. Your body is slowly building immunity to fight against virus.

Once again, Virus can be as contagious as love. The love between the two sisters transmitted the viral to my baby Clarisse. Clarrise caught fever after Chloe has recovered. However, Clarisse's fever was about 38 deg C - 39 deg C which is the normal fever temperature. Of Course, I was worried. Immediately I sent her to Dr. Ong, another pead, since Dr. Patrick was off on Sunday.

Dr. Ong checked both Chloe and Clarisse. Why? What's wrong with Chloe? Chloe already recovered, right? YES, recovered from fever, but don't know why her cough is back and especially in the night which interrupted her from sleeping.

Dr. Ong told us that Chloe is wheezing a little, and that we should take care of it to prevent from Asthma, as per advised earlier on. He told us to continue to continue the treatment with Ventolin and Flixotide for 2 weeks after she has stopped coughing. He also prescribed Mucoprom 3.5ml for Chloe if the cough is really bad. Dr. Ong said we can ommit the Mucoprom (cough syrup) but to enable her to sleep better in the night, we can feed her once in the night.

As for Clarisse, apparently, she caught the virus from her Jie Jie Chloe. Her nose was blocked, right ear was infected and throat was a little red too. Dr. Ong prescribe Distaclor Antibiotic, Antamin for her cough, and Progesic Paracetamol for her fever. As per advised by Dr. Ong, we fed Clarisse with the Antibiotic for exactly 5 days. Fever subsided, but nose is still quite blocked, coughing still.

Up till yesterday, they were still coughing a little. What worse was that I found both girls' eyes were all watery and there were yellowish discharges continuously. I started to feel weary and down, what is going on. These continuously virus thingy has been around since months ago.....and my babies are still sick.

This morning, we are back to Dr. Patrick again. I really like Dr. Patrick because he always made me feel "Nothing is wrong, just minor sickness! Don't Worry" but I really hate it when he asked me "how old is mei mei?" Why? Because I answered, "13 years" and he replied ,"Good! Not long More!" Ya..He is a mean Doctor!!!!! He agreed that he is not a pet person but still it is cruel to say that about my pet. Don't curse Mei Mei. Mei Mei is going to enjoy her longevity in her life. :)

Anyway, Dr. Patrick's consultant assured me that my girls are fine. Just allergic from the haze and also it could be genetic allergy since Mama and Papa both has allergy problem (asthma and sinus).

Prescription for Chloe :
Ventolin 2 puff /time/ 2 times/ day x 7 days
Flixotide 2 puffs/time/ 2 times/day x 14 days
Nasonex 2 spray/time/ 2 times/day x 7 days

Prescription for Clarisse :
Nasal Spray 4 time/day
Zyrtec 2.5ml once per day 7 days
Oxy-spray 2 sprays/time/ 2 times/day x 5 days
Singular X 2 weeks

My darling princesses.......please get well soon. Love you girls...Muaks

Sesame Buns & Meat Pau

2011-09-12T16:03:00.001+08:00

I made this Pau last night for Papa & Chloe. Chloe rejected my Pau because the Base of the Pau was terribly Wet, and I am not sure why. Papa didn't eat the Meat Pau, He ate half of the Sesame Pau (because I forgot today is actually a Vegetarian Day) and told me that He is not a Pau Person. I ate 1 1/2 of the Sesame Pau and it tasted ABSOLUTELY fine, not fantastic! Just trying to figure out why this round the Pau Base is WET? Is it because I didn't put a Towel? Or...something else? Only the base is WET. I shouldn't have done everything all by myself then I will be able to analyze what went wrong. I told my maid to steam it for me. Still, She steamed the Pau as usual..What could be wrong?

Silly Me, trying so hard to please my husband's stomach. But husband said he is not a Pau guy. I am such a failure. Almost reaching the edge of giving up. I don't mind to eat all of them by myself because I really feel that they are not that BAD, they are infact reasonably nice compared to outside Pau. Hubby is not supportive at all. I read so many blogs and those blogger's husbands are all so supportive. Mine? Don't make! Just Buy! I am not a Pau Guy, I am not a cake guy, I am not a bread guy. I have not started cooking him any meals yet, I hope he won't tell me he doesn't take his meal. He only drinks Milk. :"( Can't help feeling despair sometimes. I really don't mind if he said they are not nice or they tasted bad, because I am prepared to achieve his standard even though it needs 100 attempts.

My Sesame Bun, it tasted Good. Soft and Fluffy even after one night. Just the crust is a little hard, I think I overbaked it. Also, I think I didn't roast the Black Sesame long enough, it didn't have the STRONG Sesame Fragrance that I anticipated.

Chloe and Clarisse love them. I think my maids don't mind eating them too. I had a few slice myself. My mum said it was Horrible. My husband refused to try.

Arrrgghhh... I am still so far far far away from my final destination.

I miss Andrew so much now. He is the only supportive person in the whole family other than my girls. :P Hahaha.. He is always supportive by eating my cake/bread/Pau, and he would tell me to throw them in the garbage if it's really bad, and he would ask me to try again. If it's nice, he will eat it with his happy face and said, "OK, not bad!" or "Ah Ji, This is the best cheesecake!" Who doesn't like to be flattered by praises, and who doesn't feel despair when words of discouraging kept on coming while you are trying so hard. :"(

Well, Maybe I just didn't put enough effort to compensate my lack of talent! Kaka... NO! nobody is stopping me from my interest. It is time to try again and again, and I will be able to make good cake, good pau, good bread for my girls. :) Just don't make anything for Papa anymore. Whenever I want to make something, I just have to make sure my girls like it and it is healthy for them.

C&C's Swimming Time

2011-09-01T01:42:00.000+08:00

Sweet Dough Buns again..

2011-09-01T01:38:00.000+08:00

Sweet Dough Bun with Bacon and Cheese Fillings

Sausage Buns

Butter and Sugar Buns with Almond Flakes

This is my forth attempt for the Sweet Dough Buns, and also my fourth recipe tryout. So far, the first was a failure because it didn't taste good at all. The second was acceptable but it was the most popular one because the sausage buns were all gone the next day. I didn't like it so much because it has a taste of condense milk which I don't really like. Then, the third recipe which I made them into Sardine buns. It was not bad too, it didn't go the next day but they were all finished on the third day, and I was forced to throw away the last bun which was already rotten. I like the bun, it has condense milk but maybe because the strong sardine taste has overtakes the taste of condense milk.

Yesterday, I found another recipe of Sweet Dough Bun and I was attempted to make a variety of buns so that they will be popular, and I won't have to throw a way any buns. I think this is not the case though. Hahaha...They are some Tuna buns left and Bacon & Cheese open buns which I added some mayo on it. Don't think it can be eaten tomorrow. Oh, I didn't post the photos because they don't look so appealing but they are the more popular than the others because of the mayo.

To be honest, out of this four attempts, I like this recipe most. It is not as soft and fluffy because I think I didn't achieve the elasticity that they were indicating in the recipe. The dough supposed to achieve an elasticity whereby I am suppose to be able to stretch them thinly without tearing them apart. Obviously, i didn't manage to make it happened even though I machine-knead and hand-knead for almost an hour. The dough is still sticky, and I couldn't resist to top up more flour to the wet dough. After an hour of kneading, I gave up and resolved with the NOT-SO-WET-BUT-STILL-STICKY dough. Hahaha... Anyway, this bun recipe taste better than the others, I just need to find a way to achieve the elasticity that all books ask for. So far, I didn't achieve any out of four attempts. :( My stand mixer just gets very hot after 10 minutes, and my dough also turns hot as the machine gets hotter. I didn't know what to do, and I took it out to hand knead them.. still.. not making it happen. Then, I put the dough back to the machine again and the dough became hot after 7 - 10 minutes...Is it because the machine is not heavy duty enough? Or my machine has already aged?

It is ok. I will try again. :P

My bundle of joys

2011-09-01T01:13:00.000+08:00

Before this long Merdeka Raya Holiday started, MaMa was having all sorts of ideas how to spend time with my princesses. Such as bring them out for swim, bring them to the park in the morning, make some nice and cute bentos for Chloe, organize a small gathering to ask hubby and my friends over for dinner etc etc... But tomorrow is the last day of holiday, other than simple baking, MaMa did not do any of those that I have just mentioned. *sigh* Because Chloe was sick since Sunday onwards. Out of no where, she had the worrisome high fever again. THIS IS THE DUNNO HOW MANY TIMES THAT SHE IS SICK SINCE SHE ATTENDED SCHOOL. Gosh.. If it is not cough, then conjunctivitis, viral fever or viral infection....arghh....Dr. Patrick said this is called the Nursery Syndrome. Chloe is generally weaker than other children, furthermore she is very picky on her food especially when I am not around. It means she is not taking in much of those nutritious food. Not much of meat, poultry or fish. Mainly Vege! *sigh* Not a balance diet. Since she was sick, we didn't give her much of cheese and yogurt because they are cold. Even fruits, now that I start thinking about it. What is wrong with me???!!! What have I been doing? How come I didn't watch out on my girls' nutrients intake. Argghh...This is not called nursery syndrome, THIS IS CALLED THE LAZY MAMA's Syndrome. I am going to the grocers tomorrow and buy more fruits and fish back for Chloe!!!

Anyway, Ya... She had this fever for more than 3 days. She had just recovered today, and a light feverish appeared after a park walk in the evening. Since it was just 38deg C, it didn't alarm me that much as compared to 40+ deg C. She was burning hot and she couldn't breathe properly due to her blocked nose. Of course, when our girls can't sleep well, do expect to see Panda PaPa and MaMa walking around the house again. Anyway, even though we did not do much during this Merdeka Raya Holiday, we had a close bond with our princesses. We played toys together. We sent them to sleep. We prepared milk for them. MaMa bathed them. MaMa did a little of reading but not much because we spent more time to comfort our big baby Chloe who was ill.

We don't need anything and extravagant activities, what Papa and Mama need is to have our girls all by our side to spend some good quality time at home. MaMa considered it as a good holiday. :P My bundle of joys!

I didn't do this! Novi did this hair style. Chloe called Clarisse "ALIEN" upon seeing her new hairstyle. Haha.... It was not NICE but it was definitely cute enough to give us a happy laugh. Eeeeewwwww......My Cutie Pie. MaMa loves you so much. Muaks. Oh... Baby Clarisse likes to shout for "MaMa" "MaMa" "MaMa" and she was so persistent that I had to stop whatever that I was doing (even when I was having dinner) and go to her and talk to her.

My Baby was playing with my iphone. She just loves taking photos of herself. :p

*sigh* during this holiday, MaMa heard a lot of her crying, and they are not entertaining at all. She is always seeking for our full attention, and she wants us to be with her ALL THE TIME. I didn't punish her for her over-demanding cries simply because she was sick and it was heart-breaking enough for me to see my girl sick, how can I even punish her or even yell at her. :(

Carrot Cake with Cream Cheese Frosting

2011-08-31T00:04:00.000+08:00

My first Carrot Cake with Cream Cheese Frosting

Yum Yum and Moist. :)

Ingredients:-
1 cup of Walnut
340 grams of grated Carrots
2 cup of Flour
1 cup of Vegetable Oil
1 tsp of Salt
2 cups of sugar
1 1/2 tsp of Baking Powder
1 tsp of Baking Soda
1 Tbsp of Ground Cinnamon
1 1/2 tsp of Vanilla Extract
4 Eggs

Procedure :-
1. Beat Eggs until frothy
2. Add in Sugar and beat until the mixture is thicken
3. Stream down the Vegetable Oil Slowly and then add in the Vanilla Extract
4. Once the mixture is well-blended, add in flour, salt, baking soda, baking powder, cinnamon
5. Once the batter is well-blended, fold in the Walnut & Carrot
6. Split the batter into Two (2) 9" baking Tin and bake them 160 deg C for 35 mins.
7. Let them cool and spread with the cream cheese frosting

Cream cheese frosting :-
1. Beat 60grams of Butter and 225grams of cream cheese with 125grams of Icing Sugar until light and fluffy, add in vanilla extract and lemon zest.

Digital Weighing Scale

2011-08-30T23:44:00.000+08:00

Yeah, I bought this amazing weighing scale from City Baker. Hahaha... well, it is amazing to me because I was using ANALOGUE Scale all this while, until one day I thought why not buy a digital weighing scale. I thought anything to do with "DIGITAL" will cost me a bomb. Guess what? This simple Digital Weighing Scale cost me RM 39.90 and it saves me so much time preparing and measuring the right ingredient.

Love it so much!

A fulfilling non-working Saturday

2011-08-30T23:07:00.000+08:00

Thanks to boss who declared Saturday a day off for all of us , so I could spend a good Saturday with my girls.

Our day started off by sending Jie Jie Chloe to Gymbo Class at 9.30am while Papa, Mama & Clarisse went Chawan to have breakfast. Even though we did not have satisfying meal, Baby Clarisse was happy enough to have her Roti Bakar Kosong. I regretted so much because I found there is a piece which is moldy. Argghhh~~!! Ya, how can anyone serve moldy bread. Even though it was only a small spot, it is still not acceptable to serve moldy bread to your customer. Sorry... Can't stop complaining since I started on the moldy bread issue. The Roti Jala was no good, the Nasi Lemak's rice was SOGGY and it was COLD. *sigh* DELETE "Even though we did not ..... Roti Bakar Kosong" and I should replace it with "WE DID NOT HAVE A GOOD BREAKFAST AND BABY CLARISSE WAS SERVED WITH MOLDY BREAD." But I was quite sure the piece of bread that I gave Clarisse was fine, and she is fine NOW!

Even though it was a lousy breakfast, we were still very happy because we were able to spend a good time together during breakfast (minus the meal). Baby Clarisse was talking (babbling) a lot and she was very cheery which made our day!

After breakfast, Mama sent Baby Clarisse for Gymbo Class while PaPa shopped around. PaPa picked all of us up at 11.30am, and we left Gymbo for Grocery Shopping.

We arrived home on time for Chloe & Clarisse's Lunch. After lunch, Novi helped to clean them up and sent them for afternoon nap. While our girls were having their naps, Papa and Mama went for an hour gym session.

We returned home by 3pm, and took a clean shower. After shower, we played with our girls at their play zone. I told Chloe that I will bring her for a swim but we did not have much time to go to Desa, so Mama prepared the inflated little pool and let them have a short dip. They were having so much fun which I will try to post a video if I can (otherwise photos) in my next post.

:P Mama also managed to book for a facial appointment for Papa & Mama @ 6.30pm. While Clarisse and Chloe were having their dinner, Papa and Mama left home for facial.

It was even more fulfilling for PaPa because Papa ended his day with a FUN DRINKING SESSION with his buddy while Mama stayed home had my most precious moments with my two girls in our bedroom sleeping soundly and safely. :)

Sardine Bun & Raisin Sweet Dough Bread

2011-08-26T11:25:00.001+08:00

MaMa prepared the dough and shaped the bun last night, and refrigerated it overnight. So that PaPa and family can have the freshly bake buns for breakfast this morning.

Sardine Bun.

PaPa complained, "I thought Homemade Buns supposed to have more fillings."

Hello, PaPa... It is not easy to wrap with so much fillings when you want a small bun! I tried to fill with more sardines at the beginning but then the dough broke apart and it broke further during proofing time. I need to learn a good dough technique FIRST, so that I can fill with more sardines next time. So, PaPa!! You better eat whatever I made as an encouragement so that I CAN BE BETTER day by day. :P Thank you "you" la.

This is not a proper loaf of bread. I used the sweet dough attempting to form into a loaf. As you can see, it is unsuccessful. The sardine buns are meant for adult because of the chili, so I took out a portion of the dough and mix it with Jumbo Size Raisin. Then, I slitted the middle of each dough, added in some butter and sprinkled tiny bits of sugar for my darling Chloe & my baby Clarisse for breakfast. MaMa also refrigerated the dough and baked it this morning. Everyone gets to eat freshly baked bun and bread. :P

The texture of the sweet dough bun is extremely soft. MaMa had a little problem of slicing it, the bread tears easily even though I was using serrated bread knife.

"Thank you MaMa make Chloe Raisin Bread" Chloe said, when she saw me packing two slices of the raisin bread into a bag for her. Sweet! Better enjoy the moment now when she doesn't know how to complain like PaPa. :P Can't imagines all my girls starting to complain "MaMa, Not enough fillings." "MaMa, Not Fresh!" "MaMa, the bun is too big" "MaMa, the bun is not nice" "MaMa, why so sweet?" etc etc etc... I know all these are coming very soon because my girls are growing very fast, and they are also learning very well from PaPa too :P Notii!!!!

Clarisse's 1st Birthday

2011-08-25T16:22:00.000+08:00

We had a simple and yet warm party to celebrate Clarisse's 1st Birthday.

Both girls are dressed up in Pink with White Polka Dot Dress.

With the presence of Yeh Yeh & Mah Mah of our princesses, the celebration is filled with Love and Happiness. Yeah... My princesses is so lucky to have a HOT and TRENDY Mah Mah. Don't ask me her age, you will be SHOCKED! :P

More Loves adding to the warm atmosphere with Grandma and Gong Gong's attendance.

Thank you Uncles and Aunties for making Clarisse feel so special to have all of you on Clarisse's 1st Birthday Celebration.

Uncle Clown Stanley is working on the Balloon to entertain our baby guests.

Uncle Clown Stanley put up a simple and yet entertaining Magic Show for our baby guests.

Needless to say, Baby Clarisse had a wonderful 1st Birthday Celebration.

Minnie Mouse Two Tier Cakes on Baby Clarisse's 1st Birthday.

Thank you Jie Jie Chloe for being there for Baby Clarisse all the time. Baby Clarisse loves Jie Jie Chloe a lot. Oh, Thanks for helping me blow the candle. :P

MaMa's Birthday

2011-08-24T14:54:00.003+08:00

Birthday Present and Birthday Card from Darling PaPa.

And He is "nice" enough to actually look for a newspaper to wrap the present. Better than no wrapper, I guess?? Anyway, MaMa had a shock to receive this special box of present fro PaPa. MaMa is still not recovered from the shock. :P It is such a rare occasion that I will receive a present from PaPa. He never sent me any gifts on valentines, anniversary or even my birthday. Can't blame me for being exaggerating how shocking I am to receive a gift. BUT, THANK YOU PAPA! I LOVE YOU PAPA. It is a very very very very precious gift!!! and I absolutely love it and I promise to use it daily to make it worthwhile. THANKYOU!!!!!

Overtime on my Birthday. Look at my hardworking colleagues trying to finish up the job quickly so that I can have dinner with hubby to celebrate my birthday. Indeed, GOOD JOB, GIRLSSS~~! Thanks for your help, and we managed to complete the job before 9pm and I get to have dinner with hubby at Kampachi, Pavilion. Hubby enjoyed the dinner so much!

Present Show Off Time

Coffee Cake from Colleagues. Yum Yum. I was rushing for closing so didn't take any photos of the cakes or my colleagues. :( Had a swift birthday song sang by dear colleagues. And I didn't even cut the cake, immediately after blowing the candle and a word of "thankyou" then rushed back to work. Feel so bad, but everyone was rushing for closing today. *phew* luckily we managed it WELL. :P Took a picture of what was left from the piece of Yummy Coffee Cake.

Surprise bouquet! NOT FROM MY HUBBY! NOT FROM MY PARENTS! GUESS!!!!!

This beautiful bouquet is from my romantic parents-in-law. So Romantic and sweet, ain't they? I love RED ROSES and thanks Dad & Mom for sending me such a beautiful bouquet on my birthday and warm birthday wishes through birthday card and SMS. Thank you!!!!!

This thoughtful present is from my beloved sista. She knows that I am into baking so much lately and she spent an hour to pick the best recipe for me. This is so thoughtful, she actually picked one with detailed step by step photo illustrations, so that I can learn to make the dough properly. :P Then, she will not have to suffer from eating HARD buns and loaf. LOL. I will try, bear with me. I will make these nicey loaves and buns very SOON!

Rocky Road from my beloved brotha. He picked this cake because he loves the marshmallows and the chocolates! So lovely. My brother started wishing me Happy Birthday one day before my birthday, and he went out to buy this cake for me. So Lovely!

My lovely sister and brother on my birthday with a special cake - ROCKY ROAD. SWEET! Yeah, my brother and sister are SWEET, so as the CAKE - SO SWEET! :P

Muscular Hubby asked me to place my face next to his arm to prove to me that his arm is bigger than my face. Kakakakak ..... Of course I refused. I don't want to suffer from his smelly....errr.....errrr.....armpit. Just kidding! :P

The most touching Birthday Present is from my darling Chloe. I was a little emotional towards the end of the day while I was still rushing for work. I called PaPa, almost wanted to tear when MaMa starts missing my two little angels at home. I told PaPa how I wished they can call me and wish me Happy Birthday. PaPa was so nice, he called home and told Novi to teach Chloe how to wish me Happy Birthday over the phone. On our journey to dinner, PaPa called home and asked for Chloe. Then, PaPa passed the phone to MaMa. The moment Chloe picked up the phone, she wished me "HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MAMA!" loudly. After a heart-melting wishing, Chloe sang me a Happy Birthday Song "Happy Birthday MaMa, Happy Birthday MaMa, Happy Birthday MaMa, Happy Birth....Day....Ma.....Ma..." I was so happy and hoped that I could be home at that instant and give my two little angels a great big hug with many many many kisses.

To conclude, I had a lovely and a very happy 32nd Birthday. Thank you all and I love you all!

Baby Clarisse & Chloe

2011-08-20T16:38:00.002+08:00

I have been updating my Baking Projects so often and nothing about my princesses so far.

Today is the day that I should write something about them.

Let's talk about Baby Clarisse first.

*sigh* My poor little sweetie pie must be TOO SWEET, she got bitten by mosquitoeS again. I really hate these ruthless mosquitoes. They bit her FACE and her EYE LIDS all the times! All these bites become swollen and reddish after a while. Arghhh... MaMa couldn't sleep well. I kept on rubbing her swelling eye lids, cheeks and forehead, hoping that it will reduce the swell a little, which it did *just a little*. *sigh* This is the second severe face biting session of the month. It is not just A BITE, they always attack my Baby more than 4 - 6 bites, ON HER FACE!!!! It is such a pain for MaMa to see my daughter's blood sucked by these awful mosquitoes!!!!!! Anyway, I rubbed on her swelling parts for more than an hour last night, and this morning the first thing that I did when I opened my eyes was start applying the Calendula Cream and kept on rubbing on the swelling face. Still a little swollen and reddish.

When I got back to work today, the first thing that I did was to google how to get rid of the swelling by mosquitoes bite. There are actually some remedies recommended like using Banana Skin to rub on to the swelling part or apply baking soda mixed with water. I already told my maid to try, and I shall go home to have a look at the results.

Furthermore, tomorrow is Clarisse's 1st Birthday Party. I want to try to get rid/reduce the swelling and redness so badly!! I want my Clarisse to be the PRETTY BIRTHDAY GIRL. Sad!!

Other than the mosquitoes attacks. Baby Clarisse is growing really fast. She knows how to respond to our conversation, and she is learning more and more words. From her responses and reactions, it is very obvious that she understands what is going on around her. Good girl!

Walking part....errr...not yet. But she can move around herself by crawling or walking with support of the tables or stagnant heavy objects. She loves the walker. I know some said the walker will discourage her from walking, but she loves it. She moves herself around FAST with her walker, and she is able to reach her *destination* swiftly **ZOOOM**! It's ok. I am not sure how the walker will slow down her walking milestone, meanwhile I will just let her enjoy her *Ferrari*. Anyway, it won't be long. Once she knows how to walk on her own, She will never remember her "Ferrari" Walker (*Just like Chloe Jie Jie*).

Clarisse is eating more variety of food now. Yogurt, Pear, Apple, Grapes, Cherry, Cakes, Muffin, Buns, Fish Porridge etc etc... I admit I am a little slow in introducing new food to my babies, some can actually take rice at Clarisse's age. Hehe...It is ok, she will get to eat whatever she wants when she grows up. No hurry. I need to make sure if she is allergic to any food. So far, fish and eggs are fine so I guess she is fine with most food. Need to be a little more careful and patience. Plus, she has two TEETH so far, can't chew properly yet! I need to make sure her food is soft enough for her to eat.

Let's talk about Chloe.

Lately, Chloe always wet the bed in the nights. Almost twice a week for consecutively 3 weeks already. I didn't scold her. I just asked her what happened, why didn't she wake me up to bring her to the toilet. She always cried when she finds out that she wet her bed. Maybe she was trying to escape from my scolding so playing some acts to distract me. *shrug* What I need to do is to keep on telling her that she should wake MaMa up to bring Chloe to the toilet and not to wet the bed again. I hope by repeating my words can help. OR....ANY ADVISE! I really need it? I don't think I want to put her back to diapers.

Other than that, she has been a very good girl and cheery too. I think she really enjoys schooling, and she loves to talk to MaMa on what to bring to school for her Snack Time. This is my favourite part too. Hopefully, when Clarisse joins Chloe to school, she will be looking forwards to school and MaMa's Bento filled with LOVE! Kakakaka....I learned this words from some bloggers *SHIOK SENDIRI*!

Now, Papa's turn.

Papa put a little effort in bonding with our girls. Doubtless, my girls prefer Papa over Mama now! MaMa is always acting the Fierce MaMa and Papa, as always, acting the Loving and Understanding Papa. Why so unfair? How I wish I can be the Understanding one. Papa refused to take my role, and I have no choice to sacrifice myself to play the evil MaMa.

Time to go home now!

Should I continue to bake?

2011-08-20T16:04:00.000+08:00

Yes, I admit that I am a little crazy over baking lately. I am baking almost every alternate day or whenever I get the chance. And I know that I am not good in it *YET*. There are many fail products. But, I thought practice makes perfect right? Unfortunately, I am lacking some supportive audiences. *Sigh*

I love to bake in the night when both my angels are asleep. Plus, if I bake at night, Chloe and my family can have the fresh buns or cakes in the next morning.

Papa : MaMa is stupid. Go outside and buy. They are cheaper and So much easier.

MaMa's Mum : Silly Girl....

Aunty : Wah, you Bake the "cake" in the night. ** It was a bun in a Bear Paper Cup, and she said it was a cake. I swear the texture of the bun is exactly like a bun! I just thought putting the bun in a paper cup makes it more interesting for Chloe**

MaMa's Brother : You can throw your cheesecake into the bin. *Yeah, something that I dun think I would eat. But my very kind maids at home actually help to clean up the Cheesecake. Luckily, Not Wasted!*

It can be very discouraging at times, but I don't think this is going to stop me from baking. I am sure one day, I will get a hand of it and bake good stuffs that everyone loves.

Chloe & Clarisse are always my supporters at all times.

Chloe : Thank you MaMa bake Chloe "Something" (*Cake, Muffin, Bun etc).

It is such a lovely statement she made everytime I present my effortful LOVE to her.

Clarisse never comment anything (*coz she doesn't know how YET!) but she always eats what I make HAPPILY. (** Anyway, she is always happy when MaMa give her any food!* :P )

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Dear MaMa,

Gam Ba Teh!!! Don't be discouraged!

Love,

MaMa

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Cheesecake

2011-08-18T14:05:00.000+08:00

Yes, MaMa has been baking crazily. And Yes, I am addicted to BAKE~ (*even though it is not all the time nice!*)

This Peach Cheesecake is actually my second cheesecake of the week. Cheesecake is never been my favourite cake to bake because it tends to crack and sinks easily. Prior to this Peach Cheesecake, I actually baked Cherry Cheesecake, it was such a hit that I didn't have a chance to take a photo of it. Even my grandma loves it EXCEPT MY BROTHER, he said the cheesecake was too hard, and he preferred the soft cheesecake? *Huh? I don't really understand because Cheesecake is not my cup of tea, thus I can't really differentiate soft or hard texture.*

Anyway, My brother was craving for cheesecake and he purposely went to the supermarket bought back cream cheese, butter, digestive biscuits. So, I decided to bake it last night since my two lovely angels were both soundly asleep. Besides,it is a pleasure to bake.

I followed a different recipe from the Cherry Cheesecake because my brother said he wants a *soft* cheesecake. I reckon *soft* means I have to add in more creams i.e. whipping cream & sour cream and so I found this recipe with whipping cream & sour cream plus it is a easy 1 bowl batter, no hassle.

It looks quite nice, no cracks, the surface of the cheesecake remains flat even when it is cooled (yeah, it didn't sink!!). The cheesecake was already set when I took it out from the oven but still a little wobbly. I waited till it is cooled down and I touched the cake gently, it felt cook and set to me! Then I sent the cake to the refrigerator as the recipe said I have to refrigerate it OVERNIGHT.

This morning, the cake still standing firm just like the photos shown. I couldn't wait to taste it and I had a slice when I sent Chloe home from Vital Years.

Unfortunately, I didn't like the cheesecake. :( My iphone was in the car, and I didn't take down the photo of my slice of cheesecake. It was so soft. I didn't like it. It felt so creamy and creamy and creamy (*** sorry, didn't know how to describe and all i know it felt CREAMY!).

I don't think I am going for a second slice anymore. At least the previous cake, I had 2 1/2 slices of it. This one, I would say "NO".

The Cherry Cheesecake was nice and I love it. It wasn't sweet, the texture was not soft and I don't think it is hard either! No sour cream or whipping cream used. It had two tablespoon of cornflour which I think it was the cornflour which set the cheesecake firmly. I used 750grams Cream Cheese, 100grams Sugar, 2 TBSP Cornflour & 2 Eggs. Simply Bake it @ 160 Deg for 50 minutes.

This Peach Cheesecake used 750grams of Cream Cheese with 200ML SOUR CREAM & 180ML WHIPPING CREAM, 150grams of Sugar, 50ml of syrup, 4 eggs. Bake in Bain-Marie Style at 150 deg C for 45 minutes. The thought of it just make me feel Yeeeeeeeeewwwwww..... No more this sort of cheesecake!

I hope someone at home will accept this cheesecake, otherwise I am sure it will be sent to the bin. Oh No! I hate to WASTE, then I will have to gobble it up myself! :"(

Let's pray. Hopefully, this is the *softness* that my brother is talking about and he can clean the tray for me. Please Please Please.

Muffin in Pink Cup

2011-08-16T12:51:00.001+08:00

On the way home from Vital Years, Chloe was flipping one my Steam Cake Recipes. Chloe stopped at the page with an Orange Cake in a Pink Cup. The color of the page including the cake itself is very girlish and princess-ish, so she really likes it.

Chloe : MaMa, Bake Chloe Pink Colour Cake to bring to School?

MaMa smiled and replied, "Sure. MaMa shall bake a Muffin in Pink Cup for Chloe to bring to school tomorrow."

Well, These Muffins are different from the recipe's Steam Orange Cupcake. But at least it is a Yummy Moist Muffin in PINK PAPER CUP. I added Chocolate Chips, Walnut & Raisin for these cupcakes.

MaMa sprinkled some Cheedar Cheese on top of the Muffin, and it's Yummy too.

These are Quick & Easy Muffin, and most importantly it is Yummy too.

- Mix All Wet Ingredients : 2 Large Eggs, 1 Cup of Milk/Cream, 1 1/2 tsp Vanilla Essence

- Mix All Dry Ingredient : 2 Cups of Flour, 1 TBSP baking powder, 2/3 Cup Brown Sugar, 1/2tsp Salt (Add in whatever u want Walnut, Raisin, Cornflakes, Chocolate Chips, raspberries etc etc..)

- 125grams of Melted Butter & Cooled

Pour the Wet Mixture & Melted into the Dry Mixture alternately, and end with melted butter.

** Remember not to over mix. As long as the batter is combined, stop mixing.

Scoop batter into your paper cup and put in the oven @ 160deg C for 18 - 20 minutes (Original Recipe is 190 deg C but My oven is HOT * I don't know why* so I used 160 deg C)

And Yummy Muffin is Done!

The Muffin is really really nice, except the Chocolate Chips, it is too sweet. I added Hersey Chocolate Chips and all said that the Muffin will be better without these Chocolate chips and I was told to add in more Walnut next time.

The Cheedar Cheese Top is actually the hit because there is no Chocolate Chips and it is not SWEET. :P Papa L*OVE* (actually L*IKE* only) it.

Anyway, Chloe LOVE it. MaMa cannot resist her "WOW, I LIKE" & "THANK YOU MAMA MAKES CHLOE CAKE. I LOVE YOU MAMA."

My Mission for tonight is Sausage Bun :P So tough. I don't think I have enough time for the dough to proof and proof. Will think of alternative after work. :)

Meat Ball Bun - Pau

2011-08-15T11:45:00.000+08:00

I "made an appointment" with my sister on Sunday Morning to make Pau. So, she said she wants to make Nikuman. My mum said my sister did this very well, and it is very Yummy ~ too. So, I thought before I explore into the very difficult project - Char Siew Pau, why not start with something that my sister did it before and I can learn from her. Nikuman means 肉子包 (simply Pork Bun in Japanese), and it consists of Dried Shrimps, Minced Pork & Dried Mushroom.

But due to the misunderstanding, my sister did not appeared in our appointment. Kakaka....

Well, I proceeded with the other recipe and improvise a little with the prepared ingredients - dried shrimps, minced pork & dried mushroom. Guess what?

"How come you put salted fish in your Pau?" My dad asked

"Why make salted fish Pau? and not Char Siew Pau? " My Hubby asked

It is not so bad for my first Meat Pau. I just need to omit the dried shrimp for my next project or I can reduce the dried shrimps as my sister said she used like ONE TEASPOON for her pau and I used one hand's full. Hahahaha.....

Bento #7

2011-08-15T11:26:00.000+08:00

Yesterday,

Chloe said, "MaMa, Make Hello Kitty Bread for Chloe to bring to School, ya?"

Mama replied, "How about Bear Sandwich?" Mama doesn't know how to make Hello Kitty Sandwich. I don't have the Hello Kitty Sandwich Mould.

Chloe said, "Hello Kitty biscuit?"

Mama replied, "How about the Bear Sandwich that Mama made for you last time. You said it was nice, right?" Mama was trying my luck to skip the Hello Kitty topic because I tried making a few times but it didn't turn out right.

Chloe said, "Hello Kitty Sandwich, ok?"

Mama said, "Bear Sandwich, ok?"

Chloe said, "Ok. Bear Sandwich."

Well, Chloe accepted my counteroffer. Haha.... Then, I thought why not give it another try. *sigh* Still so fail. I just couldn't find anything healthy food in Black to make the whiskers of the cat. What food is red which is healthy and go well with sandwich and allows me to make into the cat's bow/flower. Help!!! I am so NOT innovative. I need a step by step guide to help me complete my mission. *sigh*

I am a "supposed to be Hello Kitty"'s Hello Kitty with raisins and marshmallow.

Do I look like Hello Kitty? This MaMa a...Made me an ugly Hello Kitty.

Luckily, Chloe recognized me as a Hello Kitty Bread. Hahaha...

Chloe's Snack Box.

MaMa cut the bread & cheese using Hello Kitty Cutter. Then, MaMa used the Bow Cutter to cut the bread to form the bow and MaMa dyed the bow by squeezing the juice from a Fresh Cherry. Hello Kitty's eyes are made of cherry, nose & whiskers are made of Cheese.

Sweet Dough Bun Again ... Asian Style ...

2011-08-10T12:03:00.000+08:00

This time I used another recipe for my Sweet Dough Bun and it turns out Soft, Fluffy and Yummy too. Everyone in the family loves it. These buns did not go into the bin, but into everyone's mouth. :P

Sausage Buns in pleats and Mini Sausage Buns in Roll topped with Black Sesame

Plain Sweet Buns, Egg washed and topped with Black Sesame

Tick Tock Tick Tock... 15 mins on 150 Deg C

Tick Tock Tick Tock ... 10 mins @ 150 Deg C

Nicely Brown

Mini Sausage Buns

Sausage Buns

My girls are enjoying their buns

Clarisse says : Finger Licking Good. MMMummm MMMummm...

Chloe says : Mama, Chloe's Sausage Bun. Can I have more please.

Ingredient :-

500 grams High Protein Flour

14g Instant Yeast

1 tsp Salt

75grams of Sugar

2 tsp Condensed Milk

1 Egg

50 grams Butter

50 grams Shortening

230ml Cold Water

** Hopefully, I didn't miss out anything, will double check again **

Procedures:-

1. Mix all the Dry Ingredient in a bowl. Flour, Yeast, Salt, Sugar

2. Add in the Condensed Milk & Egg. Mix Well with hand

3. Add in Butter & Shortening. Mix Well with hand

4. Place the mixed ingredient in the Standing Mixer, with hook attachment slowly add in the water and knead at low speed for 1 minutes

5. Continue to knead at medium speed for 10 minutes

6. Let it proof for 30 mins

7. After 30 minutes, Stretch the dough and fold over and let it proof for 15 - 20 minutes

8. Then, Stretch the dough again and fold over and let it proof for another 5 - 10 minutes

9. Divide dough in your desire size and form them into a ball. I used 30 grams for the small sausage bun and 60grams for the bigger bun.

10. Rolled these doughs flat and fold them over and let it proof for 5 mins

11. Shape the dough according to your liking, pleats, rolls, balls etc etc.

12. let it proof for 30 minutes

13. Egg wash them

14. Place into the Preheat Oven for 10 - 15 mins @ 150 Deg C, since it is short baking time, just watch it. As long as it turns brownish, you can take it out from the oven to cool.

These buns turn out quite good. I quickly tasted it while it is hot, and the texture was soft and fluffy. Unexpectedly, they are all still very soft when they are already cool, and taste even better when it is cool.

Love it. Will definitely use this recipe for other fillings like Tuna, Sardine etc...

The whole process took me 3 hours. From measuring ingredient to mixing the ingredient. From waiting for 1st proof till the last proof. From shaping the dough to the final touch of egg wash. Lastly baking. It is not difficult, the tougher part to me is shaping them. Most of the times are waiting for these dough to proof. Great work & Great result.

Fairy Chloe

2011-08-10T11:21:00.000+08:00

Chloe requested MaMa to take pictures of her and transform her into fairy.

"Pah Pah" Clarisse says..

2011-08-08T14:20:00.000+08:00

"Pah Pah" Clarisse said to Mama while raising her both hands up towards me.

"Ma Ma" Clarisse called Mama while her both hands were still up

Oh, Clarisse was asking Mama to carry/hold her. Pou Pou she meant!

My girl is so cute.

Clarisse is turning one end of this month. Time really flies and it seems like Clarisse just came to join the family yesterday. She is not walking yet but she is TRYING, she can actually push herself up into a standing position without any object support. She pushed against the floor and lifted her buttock up and there she stands right in front of Mama. Clarisse tried to walked towards Mama, but she tumbled after 3 steps forwards. GOOD JOB.

Poor Clarisse is infected with the Viral conjunctivitis from Jie Jie Chloe (which we believed Chloe might got it from "school"). Whenever Mama try to apply the eye drops for Clarisse, Clarisse cried vigorously. She became really angry and cried her lung out, and this is making Mama cried too. According to the doctor and some information obtained from the website, these eyes drop will cause the stinging feelings which might be uncomfortable to the eyes.

Chloe is recovering from the viral but it is just the beginning for Clarisse. Looking at the corner of Clarisse' both eyes which are redden, and those green-yellowish discharges sticking up her eye lids are as painful as knife stabbing at Mama's heart.

Baby, get well soon. Please bear with Mama, these eye drops are making you uncomfortable but it will helps you heal faster.

Crying Chloe and Furious Mama...

2011-08-08T14:03:00.000+08:00

Chloe : I don't want oi oi (sleep with) Mama. I want oi oi (sleep with) Papa.

Mama : No. Papa is busy. Papa needs to work. Come, oi oi with Mama. Same Same

Chloe : No No No!!! (Then she started crying aloud)

Yeah...Papa wins again! :(

Haha... Well, I don't mind that Chloe prefers Papa more over Mama (occasionally :P), but I just don't like her being very temperamental and stubborn. Mama tried to talk to her nicely and explain to her that I will sleep with her, and Papa will sleep next to her when Papa is back. She kept on yelling "NO" until MaMa can no longer take her tantrum and gave her a stern stare. I know it is a very LOW EQ method to actually shout at Chloe at that time, but I shouted and grabbed her into my brother's room (they were all out for Penang trip, and I didn't want OUR screams to wake Clarisse up.)

I told Chloe to pull her ears and commanded her to stop crying. She did just what I told her to do. She always listens to me when Papa is not around, but she will turn away from me when Papa is around. Chloe knows that Papa will definitely protect her from Mama. This is so bad. Especially when Papa actually voiced out and told Mama not to scare Chloe with my scolding, and she would not even listen to my single order just like what happened yesterday.

Papa : Don't scold her la. She is sick. I don't want her to cry until her eyes are red again. (She was having red eyes for the past weeks - Viral Conjunctivitis)

Upon hearing this, Chloe become more daring and pushed away my hands and ran to Papa with her sulky face and big tear drops. Geezz...this is beyond my tolerance level. I told Papa it is not because about who she prefers, but it is about her disrespectful attitude that makes me furious. She is only three, and she is already displaying her rebellious side of hers. She uses Papa against Me!!!!

Mama insisted Papa to stay away from Chloe. Chloe and Mama had a quiet 5 minutes in Ah Gu's (My brother) room. When Chloe is calmed down, I spoke to her gently.

Mama : Papa is busy. Mama is going to sleep with you.

Chloe : No. I want Papa to oi oi Chloe (gasping with sulky face)

Mama : No. Darling. Papa is busy and he needs to work outside (out of the bedroom in this context).

So, Mama will oi oi Chloe. Okay? Don't let Mama punish you and scold you again.

Chloe : Ok. (She finally accepted my offer RELUNCTANTLY)

Mama : Come. Give Mama a hug and a kiss. (Chloe dropped her hands from her ears and moved towards me to give me a hug and a kiss while sulking)

Mama : Let's go and say Good night to Papa. Then, give Papa a kiss and a hug too.

Chloe : Ok.

Chloe and Mama walked out of Ah Gu's room and saw Papa at the family area. Chloe went forwards to Papa and gave Papa a tight hug and walked to the bedroom herself.

I prepared Chloe 4oz of milk. Right after she finished her milk, she fall asleep quietly.

Baking Weekend

2011-08-08T13:06:00.000+08:00

We were supposed to join my family for the Penang Weekend Trip at the Hard Rock Penang. Unfortunately, Chloe and Clarisse both are infected with conjunctivitis. So, Papa said Noone is going to ANYWHERE! The whole family left on Saturday morning, while 4 of us stayed home spending the quality bonding time among ourselves. Well, it is not so bad at all.

So, What did Mama bake?

1. Japanese Style Sweet Dough Bun - Roux-Water Method

I rolled the dough flat and filled them with Tuna & Onion.

No matter how I tried to shape these dough with no fillings, they just don't turn into a ball or any shapes that I wanted. The more I try to shape, the dough just break apart. I really can't figure out why. I could have just rolled it flat and shape it AS IF THERE WAS fillings in it, but then I was too tired and I didn't thought of this at that moment. Anyway, ODD SHAPRE BUN.

I guess you should be able to distinguish which buns are filled with Tuna and which are not ... Can you? :(

Tick Tock Tick Tock ... Not expecting much of a good outcomes since these doughs texture looked kinda funny to me. It was so elastic and I was not able to form any shape out from the dough. No round round round!!!

This is how it looked. Well, from the outside, it don't look so bad at all. I immediately tasted it while it was still hot. The crust is not hard, and inside is not as fluffy as it supposed to be but still considerably soft. Not enough filling, the taste of the bun is not so delightful. Needless to say, those without any filling were worse.

This is what happened when the centre of the dough was too thin, it torn apart by itself while it was proofing. What happened was I rolled the piece of dough in equal thickness. When I tried to form into a bun, the bottom of the buns turned out VERY thick and the top became thin and torn like as shown. Sob Sob Sob. Such a FAIL PROJECT.

2. Steam Pumpkin Pau with Pumpkin Paste

This is called the LAZY SIMPLE PAU SHAPE

This is called the HARDWORKING TEDIOUS Pumpkin Shape

Pumpkin Paste is not something that I would do for my next PAU. It is Sweet!! Something like Kaya and not very nice. If I really want Pumpkin Paste, I will not add in sugar, cream and salt. I will just fry the pumpkin in tiny cubes and then wrap as the Pau Filling. I think this will taste better than this. I might as well filled it with KAYA. The coconut and sugar had overtook the beauty of the Pumpkin Natural Taste. However, the PAU turned out Good. Fluffy and Soft. Just the fillings that contribute to a FAIL to this project. It is ok. Try again. Practice makes perfect, right? :P

Mama is not going to post the recipe since they are such a FAIL project. Papa didn't even support any of them, and he said I am so frivolous, got nothing better to do. *sigh* This is my husband now! My ex-boyfriend (a.k.a hubby now) used to EAT everything that I make even though it was MUCH WORSE than these as a support. See, the differences between a boyfriend and a hubby. Infact, I ate two of the Sweet Dough Bun with fillings, and I sent these unpopular buns to the dustbin the next day. Sob Sob Sob, it was such a WASTE and I don't feel good about it. But, it was really NOT good at all. Anyway, the Tuna turned bad the next day. As for the Pumpkin Pau, they are all in Mini sizes, so I ate 3 of them myself. I think my maids heard that I am going to send them away to some guards, they tried it themselves and told me that it is not BAD, and they ate some. In fact, I feel really bad If I have to throw these PAU again. So, I brought 4 to office today, and will have them later. It is my project so I have the responsibility to eat them.