Happy Belated Birthday, Clive!

Spending too much time thinking about my own sickness, I have almost forgotten to thank you Darling Clive for his kind invitation to Baby Chloe to join his birthday party on last Sunday at the Gymboree. We had great fun, and thank you for the nice pictures taken by Clive’s Papa – Mr. Cain. Hubby loves these photos and he enjoyed the KFC super Meals too. Oh… It was Chloe’s first time being fed with KFC & Milo, thank to Uncle Cain. This will only be allowed on special occasion.

  Chloe & Papa

Clive & Friends

Clive & Chloe

Feeling Down

It must be the stupid hormonal changes which affected my emotion. Plus FATIGUENESS, NAUSEAS & VOMITTING are driving me crazy.

Can’t help it to feel so down and depressed. I have tried to comfort myself and tell myself that I will get a healthy baby at the end of my pregnancy, Just like Baby Chloe. But, the hormonal changes rule over my brain, overpower the whole of me which I have no control of my own emotion now. Yeah… The power of a baby with the size of a kidney bean is innegligible. 

So dizzy… So down…. So so depressed. Feel like crying out loud now. :(

“MAMA” @ 14th month!

Baby Chloe is calling everyone except “mama” related words i.e. Mama, Mummy, Ah Mah , MahMah, Grandma. I think i had confused her by giving her too many “ma” words. I didn’t think of it at the beginning when I start teaching Baby Chloe calling me “MaMa”. Her grandmother is “Mah Mah” in Cantonese, and her great-grandmother (my grandma) is “Tai Mah” (But My Grandma taught her to call her Ah Mah)…. I am also confused now. Haha…I guess this is one of the reason that she is not calling “Mama” related words as she might be confused. LOL…

But on Saturday night, I was left alone with Baby Chloe in the room while Papa was attending a funeral. I was trying to let her sleep on her own rather than patting and rocking her to sleep. So, I let her free on our bed while I was lying down watching her moves left to right, up and down. (Plus I really didn’t have much energy to do so!!) She was also talking to herself (or maybe to me) – DaDa (referring to my maids – KAKAK), Papa (So loudly that I didn’t want to respond to her at all, LOL…can’t help it…. SO JEALOUS), Ah Bi (My cute little Dog), Ah Gong, Ah Gu, Ah Yi, Fan, MeiMei, MumMum, YehYeh, Wow Wow, mostly PAPA la! Hmph…….out of sudden she climbed on my body and blurted out “Mama” and I was totally shocked and happy. Immediately I hugged Baby Chloe and said “ Chloe, said one more time - “MaMa” and she did. She repeated “Mama” very clearly and I immediately hugged her tightly, kissed her and told her that I love her. Sorry, I couldn’t control the tears of JOY!! Haha…Ya…I was touched and ecstatic!!!! Baby Chloe returned a very Cheaky smile to me as if she knows that I was tearing for happiness.

And the night went on happily between me and Baby Chloe doing nothing much but talking to each other on our bed, and without knowing both of us just fall asleep individually.

8 Weeks now!

Mama has been quite depressed since last few weeks. It came earlier than I had expected. Mama is extremely WEAK physically & mentally. It is a happy thing to celebrate but I must admit that for both experience, the first trimester is so much worse than giving birth. Birth is just a *little* pain plus a *little* patient and “BUK” comes my lil one.

The uneasiness that I am experiencing now is indescribable. I know I know…. I am not the only one who is going through this stage. There are more than half of the woman population in the world is experiencing the same as I do. But, but, but it is so intolerable to feel sick and unhappy for weeks.

8 weeks now! Argghhh…… If I am lucky, it should end by 13th week. If I am luckier, it should be even earlier since it started early. How?????? Arghhh…… Dehydrated, Constipated, Dizziness, Headache, Cramps in Stomach & Legs, Nightmares, Tiredness…. Arghh…because of my condition now, I didn’t even spend enough time to bond with my darling Chloe. Lucky me, hubby is taking care of Chloe at night now and most of the time when I am feeling sick.

Hang in there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!